The Beginning of the new chapter

It has been a time I haven't updated my blog.

Life can be busier than I expect; stress can really be dessert; torture sometimes is a blessing.
This is the start of my medical studies.

The first 2 weeks in college had been just like entering a new world. I was having serious culture shock.
Lecturers treat us like a colleague, talk with us like talking to a friend, inviting us for a home party.
Teach like a secondary teacher who want to make sure we truly understand all the contents. Playing board games and having some stimulating activities during orientation week. It's really nice!!

Lectures, clinical correlations, case discussion and doing dry labs were the weekly routine of the very first subject Anatomy. We were stressed out of the weekly quizzes, the speeding lectures, brand new academic jargon and the final exam. However, I did enjoy studying especially when I understand the clinical significance of anatomy, how did the body movement, how did the nerves run in between the veins and arteries and some hands on clinical correlation stations. It's fun to study models with friends in anatomy lab.

In clinical foundation medicine, the very first patient I encountered was a breast cancer survivor whose story really inspires me. The first patient's write up marked with red which showed my low English proficiency. Asking a friend to help me correct my grammatical mistakes, learning to take a medical history, feeling nervous and cold handed in my first patient interview, learning to do a physical examination and practicing all these skills with friends are great learning experience! We all are always better than yesterday!!

A convocation was on 22nd Oct. A very blessed day. This marks an end in UKM but a new start in Perdana University. Thanks for everything.

Joyce and Zheng Yi's car as well as our lecturers' were heavily rumbled by the falling polls in college parking lots which I think was dramatic. The bright side of this mishap was no one was injured.

I can really understand the importance of doing the things we interested. It makes the days bright even in the midst of struggling, at least struggle for something we want.

Having a lot of farewells for different visiting lecturers. Compassion, passion and humbleness are the things I learn from them.

First time thinking doing not well in exam doesn't matter as we can always learn from the mistakes. The matters most is the reason behind of learning the medical knowledge:saving the life of our future patients. This is the reason we need to always study hard and make sure we are ready for the future medical life. This kind of motive always drives me to be determined no matter how stress I am.

All in all, I am lucky and thanks to whatever things. I know nothing comes easily and never took things for granted. Because of this, I really yearn to contribute something to the society in the future which had nurtured and gives me the chance of being what I want to be :) 

New start is coming~~

Taking MCAT today
Meeting future coursemates
They are incredibly intelligent
Unimaginable
I need to study with all the elites from various places
Nervous
and
Delighted
Challenges come
and
I will be better
All the best for all those who determined to pursue their dream!!!!!!!

New Start

I jumped into the sky when I saw the word "BERJAYA" for my JPA scholarship.
It's juz like a miracle and unbelievable,I finally made it.
Recalling back,everything seems like holding a message to me.
So,never overlook any matters that had happened.
The very first thing I must quit is being CARELESS.It had tumbled me down many times.
I don't want it to be permanent!!Learn learn learn~~~~~~~

Gratitude,appreciation, thankfulness>>>Thanks for everything.

My family is overjoy for this also.
I will do my very best to do what I want in my life!!
Never stop fighting for people We LOVE~~~

Really thanks to ALL!!!wakakakaka:)

Trip Reflection

The reason I choose Siem Reap to be my next travel destination is its world famous heritage Angkor Wat. I know a little about its amazing architectural temple which wonders the world. Others in my itinerary are just the decoration. This 5-person trip ended up with 3 and 0ne of them was my 54-year-old mum.

Cambodia, a very poor country. Orphans are all around wearing tattered clothes with no shoes and hanging a basket of souvenirs sold to tourists. There are plenty of charitable organization established by volunteers in Cambodia especially schools and hospitals for the children. People in Siem Reap are honest, polite, kind and amiable overall I think. Being there is just like in a time machine, I seem back to my mum's childhood. Everything is still native and plain.

Ratha,the man on the left who is the founder of the orphanage.

How to go?

First day on our trip, we cycled to the New Life Center Organization to donate stationery we bought from Malaysia. Why did I know this organization? While planning my itinerary to Siem Reap, I read a blog writing about his visit to NLCO and made up my mind to visit there. To know more about this organization, can go through their website. It's very near to the old market and people in Siem Reap are kind to tell us how to go there. Children there are lovely, adorable and plain. They are happy and curious when we come and they all at least can speak simple English. We met with a volunteer from French there and joined her class in the afternoon. At the same time converse with the founder, Ratha, a man who are not very rich but he is a man of love and his contribution is uncountable by money.

From the children, I learn that no matter how worse the condition, we cannot give up the chance to learn. Thanks all of you:)

From Ratha, he is my role model. What a devoting man.

For NLCO, everything will improve day by day and future will be brilliant. Best wishes from me.

Angkor Thom and Angkor Wat, what a lost world. It's unfathomable in how the ancient people built it up by solely hands with no state-of-the-art machines and technology. It really opened my eyes and my mouth was gaping in wonders. How high the status of the ancient kings and how powerful they were. People in the past were humble and pious in God. Their faith in God was depicted by all the magnificent temples built. I was a little regret as I don't watch the discovery channel which introduces the wonders of Siem Reap. Watch now~~~~

Next to Siem Reap, we went to Saigon by bus for around 12 hours.

Went Cu Chi Tunnels to understand how the farmers survived and fought with US soldiers. They built a 200- km long tunnels down the earth and living inside. Making all the weapons by themselves from head to toe, using strategies to hide from enemies. Harsh environment made them stronger. The air ventilation in tunnels is poor and I can understand how hard the life during the Vietnam War.

NhaTrang, a tourist spot far from Saigon where can devour the breathtaking beach scenery and the crystal clean ocean.

Along the trip I lost about RM350 in sleeping bus back from Nha Trang to Saigon. Having quarrels with mum. Having a little disagreement with a friend. All these made me reflect myself.

I admit that I am not good at taking care of others with a little self centered sometimes. Superb careless. In the past, I had lost my wallet 2 times, important documents once, pencil boxes, countless drinking bottles. My mum was exhausted along the trip. However, she was trying to teach me how to amend my mistakes, though I took it as nagging and even sass to her in bad attitude. Sorry for her. Thus I am making a list to promise myself do not repeat the same mistakes again.

1. Put money separately. Putting unused money in another place. Be alert to own belongings and put them  safely.

2. Checking around before leaving to somewhere to make sure that I am not leaving things.

3. Be active to caring people for their needs.

4. Buying SIM card of local country no matter uses it or not.

Observing small things are always good to know a person. I think I am good at observing though I am careless. However, being open-minded can make the world wide.

Through the trip, I know how much my mum love and care for me. Sorry for her, I will try to be more mature and be careful to not make her worry. 

I want my traveling is not only about enjoying foods and playing but with some meanings.

Thanks for everything!!!!:)

Simply writing

No one can assure u a good future except urself.
No one can predict the future,so today is important.
No one can guarantee a decision u make except urself.
No one can understand ur reasons but urself.
We are the one control ourselves,our future and our days.
God will bless those who hv faith to good things.
Deepest voice is the true answer regardless the annoying noise outside.
Pure heart, I will protect u with my faith.
I believe I will always encounter with kind people
together want to make a better world.
Listening to the heart is always the best decision.
It will lead me,I know.
Be brave to take the road u want to take
Brace up with love and kindness along the journey
then,a nice view will be with me in the destination.
Throw away the worries!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Cove

This is a must-watch documentary which awakes the human's devil deep inside the bottom of the heart. It talks about a crew of people with selective talents working together to reveal the truth of mass slaughter of dolphin in Taiji,Japan which hides behind from the world.

These people do not make the film without risks. They may be charged,jailed,detained or even killed. Threatened by the local polices, fishermen, and all the dolphin and whales killers, the crews behind the film do this with only one reason, they want to save the world most intelligent creature, the dolphin. With the comprehensive planning, witty tactic and the sophisticated equipment, they start their action in order to make the world know the brutality which happens on the dolphin.

This documentary also reveals the story behind the meeting of International Whaling Commission. Cracking the loopholes of Japan whaling policy and the intricate relationship between Japan and some 3rd world countries on the matters of voting in the meeting. All the government tries to do is to continue the slaughter to receive the highest income.

The issue of high level of mercury in dolphin meat is also being brought out to create awareness among people. Destroyed ocean ecosystem is also mentioned in the film and the main culprit is overfishing. Thus, human is the source of culprit.

One saying hits me in the film by the director of "The Cove", Louie Psihoyos. He mentioned that there is very less people can take over the mission of saving cetacean as this is not an easy job. I think it will be more difficult especially in this era as many of the youth today doesn't has much awareness about what happening in the world. It is unimaginable to think the later world. And I realise that I'm also not very talented and so I must be keep on learning as I want to contribute something great to the world.

This is an Oscar-winning film. It records the whole saving-dolphin process, explaining about dolphin and unveil the human's wolfish cruelty on animals. It brings great impacts from various parties and it does bring some improvement in saving the dolphin in Taiji.

I'm disheartened by seeing the sufferings. Somehow, dolphin is not the only animal who suffers on the tips of knife in the human's hand and actually many of the species end up in the world's biggest grave, stomach.

I' m proud of being a vegetarian as I'm totally not tantalized by the so-called scrumptious tasty meat to harm the animals and also our environment.

Lastly, hats off to all the heroes behind this documentary "The Cove".

Bye Bye

我不是个上了大学才离家的人。小学过后的我，就离家了。
住在麻坡和KL的差别很大。因为成长的阶段不同。
再怎么说麻坡一直都有阿公阿嬷的照顾。而且麻坡是个很古色古香，对我来说很有人情味的小镇 。
KL，马来西亚首都。像我这种kampung来的，省钱又省得要死的学生，真的没有想到会到KL市中心，真的很中心（KLCC，lrt,国家动物园，茨厂街，总之KL的旅游胜地，重要地标，全部都离我很近）来念书，本来以为是在Bangi。
其实很庆幸可以在ukm 分校念书，虽然不大也不太能感受什么叫真正的“大”学（因为分校不大),但是，由于地点实在方便，所以不怕没有part-time，而且薪水也蛮不错，还有什么大大小小的展览都在附近，有兴趣都可以去看看,交通方便。
重点来了，撇开大学有多麽精彩（精彩到爆），感言这里开始：

UKM KKL/Lecturers/staffs ： Thanks for the education provided despite of some flaws of the system. Students hate the assignment,thesis,exams and lectures but somehow these are what temper us into a better form which inculcate us to learn to tolerate and to resist stress. Apparently,it is academic related but the whole process doesn't only mean that.I think.Thanks!!I'm really different from first year.

活动战友/朋友：对我来说，大学没参活动简直是浪费！！就像黄金摆在眼前，然后拿去丢这样。个人见解而已。谢谢所有战友（不管任何活动），大的小的，活动要成功，一个人是不可能办到，要办得好，没有互相的扶持与坚持，也是不可能。谢谢！！活动让我的抗压能力翻几倍的同时美好的回忆也翻几倍。这世上没有一个人的成就，朋友有多重要已经不需要言语去形容了，随便google几下，几篇文章就可以知道朋友的影响力。谢谢！！

Coursemates: Our integrity is not as strong as others,I think.However, we'd been together for 4 years in classes,in doing assignment, facing the same challenges，grudging the same things,complaining about the same problems. No matter what, these are precious. Thanks a lot!!!!

C-13-7: 住满三年，真的满得不多也不少。在这里才真正学习什么叫“相处”，什么叫“待人处事”，什么叫“做人随便一点”，如何坦诚。所有的lovely home成员让自己学习不少，发现自己的缺点。一切尽在不言中，谢谢！！

家人：谢谢！！你们是我的source of power,light of darkness!!!谢谢！！！

我能毕业，我大学生活很精彩，不是我一个人就能做到的，所以感谢全部~~

即将进入另个阶段，不管是继续升学工作也好，身边的事物已经随着阶段改变了，用文字来传达谢意。

不管怎样，地球还是会转，书还是要读，钱还是要赚，梦想还是要追。。
所以，套用一句歌词 “拜拜是为了再期待”。

Life goes on~~Bye bye!!

明天是我和睡在我旁边三年的屋友，室友，好友，心灵之友离别的一天。因为她，也莫名其妙地做了一些不可思议的事，因为她启发了我很多东西，因为她，惊觉我脾气差，因为她，晓得我原来’不是好人‘，我会很在乎她的话语，她就是那么有魅力（今天要称赞够够力，因为以后或许都没机会了）。感谢一路来有你，原谅我无法和你饯别，也好，酱不会给你看到。。。。。。无论如何，祝你如愿以偿，实现你那伟大的愿望，若真的有那么一天，记得找我剪彩！还有背包旅行，马拉松等等。 这会是一辈子的约定。。。。。。。哦，对！我们的“chan 记” 。。哈哈哈 ：P 
by Yoke Peng 

Yoke Peng,大学知己，她是位坚强责任感重到一种境界的女孩，成熟太会想是她的优缺点，我很幸运，可以遇见她，学习这种东西真是要经历了才懂什么叫学。从她身上学到什么？没有言语可以讲出来，可能我华语差，形容不出。我希望她可以在舞台发光，让其他人知道什么叫做热忱 什么叫坚持什么叫行行出状元，最重要的是我希望她不论做什么都可以很开心快乐，把过去的包袱丢掉，这是最真的祝福！！！

老师的故事

真实感动的东西还是要用最熟悉的语言写，那才会深刻。
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 这一天，我很生气。
功课只有两样，而且是不用用脑做的写生字，星期五到礼拜天的时间，竟然没有做！！
在课堂上，我问小佳生子簿在哪里？“我没有带来”。根本就不需要骗我这个一眼就可以看穿小孩谎言的老师。
“同学们，你们相信小佳吗？谁相信的请举起手。”
班上几位同学举起了手。

“小杰，帮老师检查小佳的书包还有座位，看看有没有生子簿！”
。。。。。。
“老师，她把簿子压在书包下面！”
看着小佳漂亮的脸孔，我很生气地对她说“为什么要说谎？你知道你做错了三件事吗？第一，你没有把功课做完，第二，你说谎。第三，你辜负了班上相信你的朋友。我今天一定要惩罚你！”
拿着藤鞭打在她手心的那一刻，小佳竭斯底里地大喊大叫，手脚乱打乱踢。毫无办法的情况下，只好叫班上几位同学抓着她。无法控制的小佳往同学的手上咬。
“小佳！”
“我爸爸都没打我，你凭什么打我！！！”
听到这句话， 我放下手中的藤鞭，我觉得无力，我觉得很累。
“对呀，老师为什么要管你？我为什么要管你？我为什么还要浪费上课的时间来管你？因为你是我的学生，我是你老师，我不能不管！！”
她，静了下来。
我决定找她的爸爸妈妈好好谈谈小佳的问题。
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小佳的爸爸妈妈是分居的，所以谈的时间也不一样。
妈妈听了告诉我，连她自己也不懂该这么去管教这个孩子。
爸爸听了，也只是骂骂小佳，叫她以后不能这样。
但，让我惊讶的是小佳看着他爸爸在训责她的时候的眼神，她没有表情，没有生气，没有不爽，只是用一个没有情绪的眼神看着爸爸。这不是一个普通小孩会有的眼神。
我觉得，我需要好好和小佳好好谈谈。
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隔天，班上的同学都去上电脑课，我和小佳坐在课室。
“小佳，你知道老师昨天打你是为你好吗？”她点头。
“你知道老师做什么都是想你们好吗？”她点头。
“那你可以把心理的话告诉老师吗？”她看着我，眼泪马上在眼里打滚。
“我有两个妈妈，一个是和我住的妈妈，一个是生我的妈妈，还有一个姐姐。”
“和你住的妈妈疼你吗？” “疼。”“姐姐呢？”她安静。
“妈妈有买衣服给你吗？” “没有，只有生我的妈妈买给我，可是，住在家里的妈妈有买蛋糕还有糖果给我。”
“那你喜欢爸爸吗？”“有时喜欢有时不喜欢。”
“那你喜欢生你的妈妈？” “嗯。”她对我点点头。
“那你想和生你的妈妈住在一起吗？”她点点头。
“有告诉过爸爸妈妈吗？”
“我怕如果告诉爸爸，他会和妈妈吵架，家里的妈妈也会不高兴。”
“那你是不是觉得反正家里也没人在乎你，所以功课没有做也没关系？”她又再次点头。
“老师帮你告诉妈妈，可是会叫妈妈不要和爸爸讲，这样可以吗？” 她点头。
这个过程，这位才八岁的小孩没有掉过一滴眼泪，她的眼泪只是在眼眶打滚。我叫她眨了眨眼睛，把忍住的眼泪释放出来。
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打了电话和她妈妈谈了好久，也帮小佳传达了信息，希望她妈妈好好和她谈谈。
我不想介入别人的家庭问题，可是小佳是我的学生而这已经影响了她，我有义务去了解。
隔天，我看见小佳非常灿烂的笑容，她笑着告诉我“老师，我知道你昨天有跟妈妈讲。”
“爸爸不知道对不对？”她笑咪咪地说“嗯。妈妈说她和爸爸做错事，对不起我。”
“那老师有说到做到，对不对？” 她又用她那阳光般的笑容对我点头。
这一天，这个孩子无比快乐，上课很专心，也会主动问问题。
我不知道小佳能不能和妈妈住在一起，不过，她的心结开了。。。。。。
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当然，这个故事不是发生在我身上，我只是用第一人称把这个故事写出来。而且，我已经把细节缩减了很多。
故事里人物的名字都改过，毕竟用真名不是件好事。
我听完这个故事，我很感动。
这个小孩很懂事。她那么小却懂得为大人着想，她怕大人吵架，所以一直都没把心理的话说出来。她很混乱，她不知道爸妈发生什么事的同时，她要学着划分两个不一样的妈妈。她很容易快乐，她觉得给她糖果吃就是疼她。她懂得让着姐姐。
家中的问题，即使不让孩子看见，听见或是知道，她还是能强烈地感受到，而这强烈的感受会一直影响着孩子直到结解开为止。
有时孩子的宽容能力超乎大人的想象，他们不需要知道太多理由，他们只需要了解，一个真诚的道歉，他们就能打从心底不计前嫌地彻底原谅，然后还是很真诚地喜欢你。

这个非常令人感动。

以前，亲耳听见来自所谓放牛班的学生告诉我“我只希望我全科及格”，那时的我是一位科科要求A的典型的第一班的学生。听了的我非常的震撼。我无法想象那是多麽对我来说多么基本的容易到爆的渴望。可是，我还记得那位同学告诉我的时候那认真的表情。他晚上需要做工，因为生活上的所需都需要靠自己，他没有时间去整理他的课业，他没有办法。

那么多年，我深深刻刻地了解到，不要只看问题的表面，问题的背后，那才是令人惊叹，敬佩，学习，最该被关注的部分。

这个影片“不平凡的15岁”我看了5,6次吧，不保证次数不会上升。对小小年纪就要面对大人可能也没有能力面对的问题的孩子，深深地给予佩服还有一定会向他们好好学习！！祝福他们！！加油加油！！！！！！！！

First Half

It has been a few days since my first Standard chartered half marathon>21.5km.
The theme is Run for a cause.
I run for love since many of us yearn for it, hoping that no one on the earth lacks of it.
I run for vegetarian who really takes the animals as friends.
I run for fun.It would be interesting to do something u haven't done before and it's remarkable.
It's delighting to finish the run together with friends.
Yes, I will target full marathon but after joining several times of half marathons.
Thanks for everything!!!!
Finish in appx 2hours 40 mins. Hope for a better  nxt run.

Group Photo!!

Full Day

I am so blessed and doted by God by letting me to have a wonderful Dumplings Day!!!
Early in the morning,struggling from the cozy bed heading to an old folks home "Rumah Warga Emas" for helping out in a free regular body checkup for all those seniors citizens until noon. All these elders are as adorable as kids. They need to be coaxed sometimes like a pampered child. They like to talk with us. Their wrinkles smile when we smile to them. Some of them talk less and are quiet. The feeling is totally different by experiencing myself to have a closer observation on these old folks from watching the movie. Looking at them, I reflect myself. What would it be when I am old?Will I like a child as well when I am old? What if I am alone? What makes the life different and closer to the one we want when the twilight age is imminent? Attitude.This is the answer I tell myself. Never stop to learn.Never stop to want to do things. AND always want to contribute something!!Thinking can change everything~~~

Continuously, we go to another old folks home which is located around Rumah Warga Emas to perform a simple song for them. Meet a very young xue zhang who looked like a 30-year-old man with his age is actually 41. Nice lunch with all the volunteers!!

The race of the day hasn't finished. We go to Hospital KL to visit some patients who are in deep pain. We talk to them, perform sign language songs to them and talk to them. The ambience in the hospital is dull,boring and lifeless.Nurses and doctors only show their serious and exhausted looks whereas the patients show their suffered faces. Bringing them some songs may relieve the over-solemn atmosphere. What I think is what if the colour of the wall is iridescent or paint with some Hayao Miyazaki cartoons and playing some musics in the wards? Would it be nicer?? One of the patients had waited for her operation for over1 month. I think her condition is not serious and can be quickly settled and may get worse if the proper operation is delayed. What's the reasons？Too many patients in general hospital?Not enough doctors?or due to the system in GH?...........

Haha..when the hands of clock struck to 5.30pm..........we go to a very nice vege restaurant to have a dinner with long-time-no-see shigu and shibo by ordering a wide variety of foods>>pizza,noodles(soup,gravy,fried), nasi lemak,cheese baked rice,spaghetti and some kinds of drink. Half of the dinner, my great sister sends me some dumplings to me.

Omg, it's a perfect day!!!!!!!!!

Conclusion: We cannot live without love!!!!!Be caring to people around!!!!Live in the moment!!!!
Thanks for everything!!!!!!:)

Body checkup in Rumah warga emas

Having a great dinner!!

Dumplings brought by my great sis!!

小太阳

第三次参与astro小太阳，而这一次很不一样，因为是第一次带高年组。
五六年级的小朋友，有着可爱的半成熟，有着模仿大人的可爱摸样，有着男女授受不亲的可爱观念。女生有可爱的少女情怀，男生有着可爱的不公平主义（常常说我对女生比较好).除了可爱，我不知道该怎么去形容这一群可爱的孩子。

自己很难想象这群那么可爱纯洁的孩子在刚刚踏入中学的时候，该怎么去适应？算是每个阶段的过度期吧！

这次带小朋友带得我印象很深刻，每一位小朋友的名字自己都很努力去记。当我记起与叫起他们的名字时，他们会很开心，脸上会露出腼腆的笑容 ，我也很开心。每一位小朋友都有自己的特质，有一些有很明显的领导能力，有一些很有才艺，一些很有表演天分。也有一些比较顽皮，那顽皮的原因也只有一个，想要得到注意，想要被关爱。带大班的小朋友与带小班的小朋友的差别在于，大班的小朋友比较需要用脑用眼去思考观察该怎么去与每位组员交流，而小班的则比较需要一些给指示的技巧，如何让他们把注意力放在自己身上。

小孩子之间的问题，比如有人推他们，捉弄他们，很需要被好好处理，因为那会影响他们对处理事情的观念。专注于问题背后的原因，真的会了解得很多很多。我喜欢我组里的每一位小朋友，他们让我发现自己的缺点，他们让我学习什么叫真诚，宽容，诚实与面对挑战的勇气。

以下是组员的名字，我想要记起来：
泉仲，组长的角色。很有领导能力，个性有点冲动，直性子。没收他的手枪，让他不开心半天，还想把手枪丢掉，还好及时还给他，特别叫他不要丢掉，因为那是个很好玩的玩具。
志康，很乖很听话，性格比较温顺，对海鲜敏感。
金伦，和我一样是个素食者，还是自愿要吃的，个性稳重又有点害羞。
俊宏，喜欢得到关注，喜欢作弄朋友，是个需要关爱的小朋友。
梓健，身材又高又大，很乖，喜欢报告事情的来龙去脉，常常会坐在后面傻笑，很厉害画画。
尔权，长大后应该是个帅哥，拥有练武术的潜能。
育霖，翻更斗超厉害， 每次问我有没有男朋友，有点小大人。
伟立，非常有礼貌，好像有点太有礼貌，是个乖乖的可爱小男生。
俊伟，有点读书读太多的感觉，小太阳回去后还要补习，创意非凡，喜欢画画。
永轩，喜欢跟随朋友，好像比较没什么自己的想法，希望他可以知道自己到底要什么。
子轩，每次笑的时候，眼睛就会咪咪笑，牙齿会全露出来，很有纯真的小男孩。
振轩，看上去是个干干净净的微胖小男孩，牙齿大大的和我一样》很可爱。
宏源，静静的，可是原来是个hiphop高手，眼睛圆圆大大，皮肤白白。
汉康，牙齿也是大大的，和宏源一样，是个hiphop高手。
淑慧，小成熟，头发直直的，不喜欢绑起来，非常有少女情怀。
嘉文，淑慧的好朋友，个性也是有点小大人。
晓彤，很纯真，很可爱，个性活泼。
芊芊，不太会说华语，非常排斥男生，不可以有男生站在她后面~~~~~
欣怡，不想上台表演，对自己缺乏一点点自信，不知道为什么勒~~~
咏雯，第二天才出席，个性随和，容易相处。
舒宜，也是一位半成熟女孩，有点害羞。
云琳，虽然已五年级，个性还是很小女孩，要学会独立一点了~~
昀慧，高高白白美美的，个性文静，斯文。

能陪他们一起跳舞，上课，练习彩排，表演，平复他们表演紧张的心情，吃饭，玩游戏，领奖直到结束，真的很开心。

小孩子很喜欢画黑板，结束时让他们没有顾虑地乱花黑板，他们超级兴奋开心，或许有时侯，一些东西可以在适当的时候把限制拿走，让创意涌进来。。。

最后，我希望他们能够快乐成长，生命中被人爱与爱人，拥有无限的勇气面对生命中的挫折与挑战，做最快乐的自己..............

感恩上天能让自己遇见这群小太阳：）

Hidden Message

There are a lot of messages conveyed in this iran movie, A Separation.
How do I know this movie?Firstly, my lecturer gave good comments to this movie in facebook and it  was the best foreign language movie in Oscar awards. I longed for it very long.

Still, it is not a thrilling movie which can gave an overwhelming visual effect and sensation. But, it is a very real movie and a movie that brings me to another more objective perspective to look at the truth behind the truth.From my point of view, the separation between husband and wife brings greatest harmful effect to the children with themselves relieved from what they didn't want to suffer. Good relationship between husband and wife is the best gift for their children. The children in this movie suffer the most. 

There are two families play in the movie from two classes: aristocratic class and a lower class.
For the decent class, the husband and wife can't compromise on the matter of immigration, they want a separation. The lower class, in order to help her depressed husband due to a huge debt, the wife goes out to work regardless how laboring the works are. We will do what we think. A thinking can change everything. I just think that both families are contrasting. Why do the husband and wife from the decent class dun want to make a decision not to separate no matter how worst the things go?? Ya, i dun understand.

Right or wrong? True or false? After watching the movie, I suddenly understand why sometimes right or wrong or true or false seem indistinguishable. If there is responsibility, all the society members seem need to hold a little responsibility in every social problem because we are colonial animal. Children are always the victims.

There are still a lot of profound messages that the movie wants to convey I think. However, I am not mature enough to understand all. I may watch the second time after I grow up a bit.

Ok..nice to watch. Life goes on~~~~~~~~

Thesis year (4)

Yeah, today marks the end of my course thesis presentation for all of my beloved friends. Our passionate lecturers prepare some presents for us as an encouragement and acknowledgement of our hard work through these four years. Top 24 presenters are chosen to accept the prizes and I truly enjoy the moment where the whole class screams and shouts loudly for the friends. We are happy. We enjoy the moment. We take photo together. Today is Biomedical Science batch 2008/2009 UKM 's last day being together in lecture hall.Suddenly, I understand why people always said studying time is the most precious moment in the life. We are always under protection and being guided by teachers, seniors and people around when we are still a student. After that, we are free to explore the world and is time to contribute something to the society. By the time, we are the one should take the responsibility to protect the next generation. Tradition inherited.

I thank all of my university lecturers and friends. These four years will remain in my memory forever.

Random scene taken while someone is presenting their result.

The moment of giving prize after the end of presentation.

Take pic with my supervisor Dr Dayang and my thesis co-fighter Seng Aik and Muin^^

Ok, let's move on!!!!
Thanks for everything and live in the moment^^

Thesis year (3)

Today my thesis result presentation comes to an end which means that a full-stop will be going to be put on my university life in UKM. Before my turn to present, my heart is pumping wildly and I look my friends and lecturers around in the hall. My friends' gestures show me good luck and all the best and through the eyes contacts I think they are saying Gambatte. Through my lecturers' face expression I think they not only want to test us but I can feel their joyous in seeing our growth. From an immature first-year student to a going-to-be contributors in society.  I calm myself by thinking to share my findings in my research instead of presenting it though the adrenaline still rushes through my body. I look at my class. Time flies.I dun have a very close relationship with my coursemates and there are many things happen between us be it good or bad. All these are memories. Our course's integrity is not as strong as other courses in my point of view. However, it seems still memorable as we are at least going through the ups and downs together for 4 years>>orientation,piles up of report, presentation, community service, being scolded by lecturer, complain together, organizing dinner, gossip people together, taunting somebody else together, wishing luck to each other, doing lab together and suffering thesis together. Little by little, bond is formed. When recall back the uni life, all the faces are there.

Friendship is pure in studying time as no one makes friend with u base on ur financial status and society status and even family background. People make friend by just only we are friend and we are all heading to the same goal. I appreciate that a lot.

I want to thank all the encouragement and applause that have been given to me today.
There are no individual victory and success. We are formed and helped by a lot of people along the way to success. I thanks to all with all my heart and I will always pray hard for everyone around wish them happy always and be strong when life is hard.

When my little own world is happy, whole world is bright together.

With it, I will always pray for the world.

Photos

I will look at my face once I look at the photo I had been taken. Recently, I will look at others' expression rather than mine. It is very happy to see others' smiling faces. It may be due to several reasons. I dun care how pretty I m in the photo as I always think that I am really pretty with whatever expression (severe narcissism). I cherish the moment with friends around rather than my face as the graduation days are coming nearer and nearer. I know if people around happy, it's sure that it can make my day happy. I appreciate the studying time as this period no matter how annoying our motive somehow will be purer than people who had stepped into the society. Photos can leave message but not all the photos leave the true message. I like all the photos taken with friends or friends' photos especially the photos of gathering and activity during my studying time,photos with family, they are so true yet so pure. I believe great photos will keep coming in my life!!!!Thanks for everything.

Inspiring

Today, I know a man whose name is Randy Pausch, a professor in US. He succumbed to pancreatic cancer in July 2008. He wrote a book entitled "The Last Lecture" and gave a talk on it in his end-stage life. I watch the 1-hour more of his last lecture which a kind soul posted it on youtube. It is inspiring. Sometimes, virtues are there and lessons are all the same. It's like we know we need to work harder, we need to be good, we need be put up with bad situation to grab the juicy fruit. However, knowing something doesn't mean we learn. Therefore, I think there are the reasons why the wall of bricks exists in lives.Those extraordinary people who come to inspired people around are the angels sent by God. I was inspired by his zest in living life. His attitude, his ways of transferring the messages and I watched at a right time. His sharing about his life is great as I suddenly realize the importance of sharing. By sharing, it can amplify the joys and it can shrunken the worries and some more it can be inspiring. I dunno hw to describe my feeling but i just feel great after watching such a wonderful video and I am pushed by it to be more enthusiastic in my days!!!Thanks for everything!!!Ya, an impressive comment I looked below the video in youtube"RIP Randy Pausch. You inspired me to go to medical school despite 3 yrs of previous rejections. You helped me believe I could do it and I did!", wow,so great!!I think this guy will be a successful doctor in the future.Best pray for those who never give up. Sometimes, we just need some push!!!!!!!!

Ok, some golden words from Professor Randy Pausch in the video~~~

Experience is what you get when you get what you didn't want. (Ya, true, nothing is waste)

A bad apology is worse than no apology. An when doing thing wrong : just "I m sorry. It's my fault. How can I make the thing right?" The third part is the part mostly forget. (Wow, I want to learn!!!)

Find the best in everybody no matter how long it takes. No one is all evil.

Brick wall doesn't exist for nothing. It just blocks the people who do not want the things very badly.

If you lead ur life in right way the karma will take care of itself, the dream will come to u.

Great video n great day!!!:)

Answer

Ya, I am searching the answer for the question in my post Hmm. Sometimes, there is no definition for something and the only answer depends on us. The best answer I answer and learn to do is to be open-heart and pure-heart >>心宽念纯。 When the heart opens, we can accept everything but not in a numb way but we want to do more to make the things better with unpredictable potential. Be pure, this can always guide us to a correct path without being blind and ignorant especially in this hodgepodge.

There is answer but doesn't mean that it is easy. No pain, no gain. No matter how hard of things, follow my heart and telling it I want to do and I will learn to make my heart wide open and purer.

Theory is there but how to make it practical??Doing things without proper ways may cause reverse effects.
Methods: be contented, be grateful,  be understanding and be tolerant  (知足感恩善解包容), Tzu chi four-spirit drinking. Same thing, not easy.

This is answer and I know it is not easy. But, I want to learn:)Thanks for everything!!!!

"The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost." -G.K. Chesterton

Hmm..

该以什么态度去包容接受现实中的无奈与不平的同时保有至纯至善的心念与理想？我想这是我在踏进社会前所存有的疑惑，因为不想被同化。
How do I accept this realistic world which full of many unreasonable injustice and helpless norm but to hold tight my purest intention and dream with an open heart along the pathway of my life? This is my biggest confusion before knowing this whole new world as I don't want to be assimilated.

Touched

After 428, I was sad to see the violence happened.
I was sad to see unarmed people were suppressed .
I was sad to know people lost life or get severe injuries.
I was lucky to be able to go and show my supports.
I was lucky I was aware of the state of our country.
I was lucky I was born in this land.

The most I was touched to see MALAYSIAN united to fight for a better future from all the corners of the world. .
We are citizen of a country. Politic is something inevitable in lives.
We should take responsibility as a citizen. Choose right man to lead us.
Only a good government can change the whole life of a country.
Good government brings harmony to society which indirectly helping to form a PEACE WORLD if every country leaders are able to be good.

WORLD PEACE:)
United we stand,divided we fall.

随感而发

接下来，是申请奖学金的阶段了。看见大学发给我的email,没有很兴奋，因为完全被无法相信的感觉掩盖，发愣一下。那天面试后的我，心情异常轻松，因为“以后要做什么”的这个问题，一个打从一进大学就住在自己脑里的问题，飞逝而去。不是因为面试后的我知道要做什么了，而是觉得我了解自己更多了，即便申请不成功，似乎也不会彷徨了（这个要感谢interview我的三个教授，他们不但和我分享了他们自己，也从中打开我的思绪）。

在马来西亚，一般的父母不会去真正了解孩子要什么，也不会教导孩子如何去了解自己想要什么，不过会给孩子自己认为最好的给他们。所以，希望孩子成绩名列前茅，然后有个稳定的工作，找个好伴侣，过个幸福人生。然而，这个成家立业的过程里，从头到尾，孩子都需要懂自己要什么。没有目的的追求卓越，做份人云亦云的工作，会有个稳定的人生，但未必会有个想要的人生。
其实，我只是想讲只要要做的事不是伤天害理的，都值得支持，如果带有一份助人的心，那更值得骄傲。

之前听过有人说读STPM很浪费时间，不然就是很难，再来就是没有保障（不保证拿到要的科系），太危险了。通常是家境中等，拿不到matrik,才会读的先修班。我自己不觉得STPM浪费时间即使它不能保证我能拿到要的科系。当初的自己出自于挑战的心态去报读STPM，再来是要测试自己的实力毕竟觉得SPM测不出什么。到拿不到4.0的成绩而痛哭（不是因为成绩哭，而是因为知道进不了医科而哭）。值得吗？（值得，因为中六的生活令我学习不少.）起码在不断被成绩打击的两年里，stpm教导我要继续坚持，人要谦虚一点，努力一点。酸甜苦辣尝不尽 。
伤心的过程里，哥哥和我说，如果人一帆风顺，没跌倒过，那以后要和孩子讲什么故事？
桃姐里也有说，经过苦难的人，才会了解怎么去安抚受伤的人。即便苦的过程很苦,但那却值得回忆。

申请成功，如果奖学金顺利的话，证明我还需多读4年，那时也已28。连续读书读到28，值得吗？如果这是自己想要的，那是值得的。即便无法预知未来，但至少可以把握现在做想做的。人生是可以很多选择的，最重要的是，每一个阶段都要知道自己想要什么。

没有东西是属于值不值得，浪不浪费 ，每个人对于生命的价值观都不同。尊重所有坚持自己选择的人。不是所有人都能坚持。

感恩一切的安排，是好是坏，都有它的理由.感恩：）

以“一公升的眼泪”的一小段来总结这一篇：
重点在前面一小段~~~

人生，绕个路不也很好吗？

Hopes

Reading the reviews of The 100 Most Influential People in the World 2012 by TIME, hopes are just surging into my mind. One of the things I realize is the Power of Love especially in women. There is no gender discrimination but most of the social workers or humanity activist are amazing women. Patch Adams once explain the way to show love to others by just doing what our mother done to us. Some of them stand up to voice out their confrontation of injustice for women, some involve in HIV prevention course. Of course, there are also kind men. In conclusion, what make those who devote themselves in helping the less fortunate amazing is their GREAT LOVE regardless of the races, countries and religion.

Hopes come when I knew that WOW there are a lot of people out there who are trying to make the world better!!Though in my surrounding culture money and steady lives are given the priority over what you really want to do in lives. The full list the 100 people covers people who are politician,chef,educator,film maker,sportmans,spotlight celebrities,professors,singer,artist>>all minds are needed in this world.

 I don't have interest in politics so I just glance through all those politician's review. I like most who involve in any activities which benefits the destitute,less fortunate,or bringing love to those in need. Besides, I like also the artist who bring profound messages on their products like the film maker of " Saving face" and "A separation". What decides the level of an art works? Its message. All those sport mans who showing unrelenting determination are also amazing.

Kernel of the message I get>>There are actually many things we can be involved in to make a life we want. Just do what we like and make it glitters!!!!!!!(Be determined and resolved)

 We are not the worst no matters how worst the situation is.

Thanks!!I am looking forward the full list in 2013.It seems like a list of reference..HAHAHAHA

 HOPES come!!!!!!!!!!!!

Freestyle Interview

This is an unexpected interview. The interviewers do not ask the harsh questions but I really can feel their intents of wanting to know more about me. They even show their willingness to share anything. I mean ANYTHING not only in the compound of academic questions. I just speak out what in my mind while they ask about my thinking. Instead of saying it is an interview it should be called a conversation with 3 professors.

30 minutes are allocated for each professor to interview me. They are great.

The first Professor is Dr Anne who is an expert in the field of infectious disease.
The most impressive question to be asked from her is "What is the hardest challenge u think is until now?" This question touches me instantly. My answer is" to hold tight on the things we originally want to/dream of". This is the hardest,it needs determination,I think. I asked her back the same question however she tells me how her life is. She said Life is a choice as we need to vote constantly and we are having non-stop self questioning. "What's the difference between Malaysia students n US students?" She smiles. Malaysia students are more polite and quite compared to US students. US students are fun and are very opinioning. They would like to ask a lot of questions.They are going classes with the thinking of knowing all the answers.This is the culture. They like to ask since very young. I think this the one we should learn.It is good especially on a lecture.Interaction. May be we are just a little bit of conservative. However, being polite and showing respect to the teachers are also what we've told to do since very young.It's nice to remain.

2nd is Dr Nicole who is a paediatrician in intensive care. She asked me more common question like what do I think?What types of curriculum u've been doing?But, before we start our conversation she greets me by introducing herself." Before I know you better let me talk about myself to let u know more about me". Just how open they are~~

Third is DR Juliah. She wants to know more about my perspective on matters than the previous two. She tells me the importance of attitude. It can change everything. Be fair to yourself and know what you want in your life can lead you in the future, she shares~~

Three of them are very generous to share and there is no distant feeling with them. They encourage student to ask more and they would like to be friend with students rather than teachers.

Knowing what u want is most important!!! (What I learn in today's interview~~)
Things do not always go as planned. Live in the moment with good intentions:)

温馨的书

《佐贺的超级阿嬷》是个温馨的读物。在物资贫乏的年代与生活环境里，作者讲述了他与阿嬷的故事。
因为没钱，用乐观来驱走饥饿，用智慧来面对生活，用真心来编制故事。
乡下的生活，阿嬷的乐观态度是这本书最吸引人的地方。
读完过后，感觉真的很温馨，谢谢作者分享他的童年故事，告诉了我幸福简单的道理。

里面有几句阿嬷教作者昭广的生活小语，简单得意义深远~~

真正的体贴是让人察觉不到的。
（曾经对于自己阿嬷每每一煮完饭的“阿蕾吃饭咯”例为平常事，直到成长让我明白那是一种表达，有多少体贴是自己没有察觉过的呢？）

即使世上有两三个人讨厌你，转过身来还有几亿人。
（有时要把自己从框框拉出来，心自然就会变宽）

最想吃的东西就是高级品。
（所以说山珍海味怎样也抵挡不了家里的粗茶淡饭）

穷人最能做的就是展现笑容。
（乐观的想法就能改善生活的质量）

不要难过，不然走不了。
（作者的小舅舅，小新智商比较弱，大约30岁就去世了，那时阿嬷就是这样告诉作者。活着的人更要坚强。）

我有个快乐温馨的假期，感恩上天：）

令人感动的书

这本书《陪你到最后》每看完一个故事，内心就感动一次。
句句经典好看。
听过有人说，一本好看的文学作品是有两种元素，知性与感性。
获得知识的同时既触动心灵。
陪你到最后，作者叙述了几个末期患者的故事，陪伴的过程。
离去的人不一定最惨，留在世间要坚强活着的更令人佩服。
那些因为父母早逝的孩子，他们在不该在他们阶段应有却被逼拥有的成熟，既让人心痛又佩服。

每个人都是一本精彩的书，往往真像都是在故事背后，看完了故事，才能了解书名的由来，书皮的设计。
作者有一句形容和爱滋病的距离，让我不得不佩服他的文笔。
“握着小康的手时，我与爱滋病毒也只隔一层皮肤的厚度而已”。没有奢华的形容，简单易懂，既无比贴切。（在想，整天与细菌生活的我，和细菌也只隔着一层手套的厚度而已~~~哈哈哈！！！）

作者另一作品《已亮的天空》，一本作者分享自己成长故事的书，蛮激励的，他的两本书我要拿给做老师的姐姐看，也许，下次，她可以拿给她学生看。

最后，在面对生命结束的那一刻，自己会想做什么为总结呢？死亡，很远又好像不知道几时来到。要做到以欢喜不害怕的心境来面对死亡，没那么容易。

作者选择用微笑，我还真不知道。
活在当下吧！！！

5 people in the book

I gobble up this book by sitting on my bed whole night. I read it twice. First time I'm just simply flipping through. What it attracts me is only the title“The 5 People you meet in heaven". How the author Mitch Albom to write something about heaven? How's will he describe the 5 people? What's the message he wants to reflect?

The leading role is Eddie, an old lonely octogenarian who worked as a maintainer in an amusement park called Ruby Pier.This is a back-to-front story. It starts with Eddie's death. It is not a thrilling story,it's a literary fiction, self-enrichment book. Nice to read at least it is positive and giving me tranquility. I feel imperturbed while living in the book. No disturbs. No honking on the road. No mumbling from the crowd. One of my way to escape from this bustling and flickering city.

There are some lessons throughout the story.

From the 2nd person:Sacrifice is a part of life.Sometimes when u sacrifice something precious, u are nt really losing it. U are just passing it on to someone else.
(Hmm..I agree with that. Sometimes, we gain because there are people willing to sacrifice. No pain, no gain.)

From the 3rd person: Holding anger is a poison. (It's most poisonous to ourselves but nothing to the others.)

In the end: We each affect the other and the other affects the next, and the world is full of stories, but the stories are all one. (I like this most. We are all interconnected even with strangers.)

One story brings another one.:)

关于这部电影

桃姐，一部非常平淡的电影，在我预料之内的剧情片，很写实。
去到戏院买票观看，纯粹只是想要支持这种有意义的电影，纵使它没有刺激视觉与情绪的效果。
戏剧浓缩了人生的故事，而真实是平淡中带点酸甜苦辣。
这部戏并没有想要赚人热泪，而是透过荧幕反映现实中的社会，从写实的剧情里，去反思社会的现象，老人的问题，现代的情景，更带出了人与人之间的真诚。
好好珍惜身边为我们付出的家人朋友。
没有人应该活得像做孤岛（冯以量，陪你到最后）。
老人也需要被爱。

刘德华说，每一位老人都曾经像我们这样年轻过；但是，年轻的我们不一定能像他们这样年老过。

叶德娴太厉害演戏了！！姜还是老的辣！！没错！！！：）

Half of the half

A full marathon is about 42.+km. Half of it is appx 21.+km. My first marathon in KL is half of the half>10km.According to wikipedia, Marathon is a place in Greek. A guy running from marathon to Athens until die juz wanting to inform the victory in a battlefield of Marathon.Legend.

During the whole running process, I felt the breath of myself and others and also I listened to the footsteps.

It strengthen our determination. The good sides of it no need to be mentioned much as everyone aware of that.

Summary of my fresh try in jogging together with thousands in this hustle and bustle KL:

Starting point:A life born.
Finish point:Heaven where everyone will go.
Different distance: Different lifespan.
Marathon:Everyone is running in the life with different purposes by different ways to achieve.

Purposes:
Train stamina.
Reaching finishing point in a fixed time.
Strengthen own self resolution and perseverance.
Just want to finish the run no matter how long the time takes.
For fun.
Trying new thing

Different ways to complete:
Some will focus on running disregard others. Running step by step.
Some will follow others' pace as a target.
Some will just walking ,observing the surrounding and people around.
Some will listen to the music as a way of encouragement.
Some accompany own children to run.
Some were non-stop running without a single rest.

There were a lot of volunteers who gave us water,foods, encouragement and guided us the running route which I think just like the people who guide us,lending a helping hand to us in life.

There are something we cannot just left in the car and went running ie.car keys, handphone and wallet.Mostly all the participants run with all these things though these may be a little burden but they are very important. Then, I think these are money,family and friends. We must run with them in life because they are indispensable.

I run with the purpose of fun and trying new thing. The strategy I take is non-stop running. I like to listen the running footsteps of people and their pants.

We are juz running a marathon of life..
Thanks for everything!!

A day to remember

10th March 2012
One design with different effects









Idea: We are earthian regardless of the religion, color, country to just pick up trash to make our home clean. We are under a vast blue sky.

Thesis Blue+A diary

Having a new finding. Is it possible my bacteria stealthily changes to other?Then make my vancomycin doesn't work?I may try next week again to make my media selective. What if the result remains the same?Vancomycin..what's possible things will happen to an unexpired antibiotic?Can it lose its antibacterial function?How come?Trying seems the only way out.

ok,during my waiting moment in my lab I eat a book entitled"The dairy of a young girl". It's really a dairy. Anne(The young girl)wrote every inside of her in her dairy. She was a Jew who forced to hide in "Secret Annex" to escape from the Nazi's caught.



Hmm,it is a telling about how a girl grew drastically within 2 years. Her thought, isolation, fears, happiness and what happened in her times were all recorded. How's the life in a confined space without stepping a single step outside?How's to tolerate with someone we dislike everyday with no choice?Here, Anne voiced out her pent-up emotion. She also mentioned her first love with a guy called Peter. How a girl's love blossoms?Anne wrote it down.Her conflict with her father,mother,sister,or everyone around made her mature. Self-reflection was one of the things she liked to do.Unfortunately, her father is the only one who survived in the Jewish slaughter by Nazi.

I was a little bored when reaching half of her diary as the life surrounded her was only the same. I am sure she would feel more tedious than I am. Thanks to the book, I seem to be more understanding about what happens in Europe around 1920's to 1945's and also what really Nazi is. We are having a same home which called The Earth.Learn from the history.

Quote learnt from the book: Nature brings solace in all troubles. (Very true, but it is what KL lacks of)

I hope I may find out the origin of my lab problem. Think!Think!THINK out of the box!!

Patience

I have not failed,I've just found 10000 ways that didn't work.(Thomas Edison)

Patience means staying with something until the end. The answers always didnt come immediately. Same thing happens because I hvnt learnt it.What's the problem to my vancomycin?I really want to know. Today is the 7th repetition and I can 95% sure that the origin of the problem is my vancomycin. However, I cannot figure out what causes this problem. Not expired, sterile apparatus,clean distilled water. It should be sterile after filtering the vancomycin. Just where it get contaminated??

What I can think is just using different source of vancomycin. I tried the new one today. Hoping an improved result for tomorrow.

I think the thing I hvnt learnt is being PATIENT.

Oh ya,today I learn a very good quote from youtube:Never let a problem to be solved becomes more important than a person to be loved.Pay attention to what matters most.

I really need some motivation.Come on,I just found 7 ways that didnt work. How patient Thomas Edison was,he found 10000 ways that didnt work.Far far more behind him.
Don't give up!!!The God wants me to learn something>>>>Patience!!!

Earth hour

I thought Earth hour 2012 will be held on 12th March before. So, sudden inspiration comes to me and I drew one pic to help to publicize this green event.I realized I remembered a wrong date for the event after posting my pic. Without any delay, quick deletion, fast correction n post it again.

Thanks God,I didn't spread a wrong date for that event.
Some people think that it is a worthless activity as it would be better if there will be an earth hour everyday rather than once a year. Yeap, it would be excellent if we manage to do it. However, people around the world gather with good intention to do such a great thing to the earth at least a day in a year is not bad, I think. It's better than never.

I think it would be greatest if we juz have a confab with friends or together with family in darkness rather than "celebrating" it with candles or with whatever events. Reduce the energy consumption, that's the kernel of the event.

My so-so green drawing~~





I cannot do everything but still I can do something. So, I will not refuse to do something that I can do. (Helen Keller)

Just a day

After repeating 6 times of my experiment, I was a little fed up with a little thesis blue.It's ok. Research is repeatedly searching. Try again next week.
I draw today. A very simple drawing. No need techniques. Just colouring.


如果离开是一种追求
在这样的旅途里面
愿被所有祝福围绕
有很多的指引引领
拥有世界最美丽的颜色
没有令人矛盾的人类
只有善良的动物
一路走向
离开的自由
感受内心
最轻盈的自在

I just want to do what I like in my days!!
Nice to draw.
I find my child in my heart.

The Story of CHANGE

This book is actually had been recommended by my former MUET teacher while I was studying form six.Yes, I read it that time but I didn't get the meaning and I even fell asleep with the book which lend by my friend.Working part time last weekend, I used my one-hour break time going into MPH to search some mental foods. Passing by the book shelves, my eyes glimpsed through a book with the title " Who moved my cheese?" and this brought me back my form six time. I wonder the reason of my teacher's strong recommendation of that book as I remembered I read it with my snore. I took it and opened the first page. Wow, I just cannot stop reading it. It's only a very thin self-enrichment book with very simple English and it's easy to understand.

It is a story about how people react with the change by symbolizing each character inside with a certain personality. "Cheese" is something we want in life. It can be money, career, happiness, relationship we desired or whatever we want in life. The story portrays its telling via 2 mice called "Sniff" and "Scurry" and 2 little people called "Hem" and "Haw" who look for their cheese in a maze (which I think represents life). A very good story to read.

Yes things are keep changing and we need to move on with it.I think I may buy this book and read it often as I can't juz read into mind at once.

There are some quotes which I think can chase away some pessimism or overcomplicated minds:

What would you do if you weren't afraid?(Should keep asking this question while facing the challenge)

When you move beyond your fear, you feel free. (Having fear sometimes is good but sometimes it just restrict us to step out of the comfort zone. Just do the right thing!!)

The fastest way to change is to laugh at your own folly, then you can let go and quickly move. (I like this one much. Self reflection can always make us better.)

In the end, It all depends on what you choose to believe.(I like this one most,believing something good,believing we can proceed further).

My quote>We are what we think, we do what we believe. Therefore, no fear for changing and always believe our angel in the heart~~~~

Nice reading!!

Who moved my cheese? Nobody moves it.

May be we are the origin

From smart phones to hybrid vehicles to cordless power drills, devices we all desire are made with a pinch of rare earths.(National Geography March 2011)

I can't resist to write this historical green event in Malaysia. We all say NO to Lynas an Ausralia mining company which built a refining site in Kuantan. There is no transparency in approving this company's operation and it is offered a 12-year tax exemption.In addition, there is no proper policies for the radioactive dumping wastes.Credit to this green tragedy, I now understand what is rare earth, what it is used for through National Geography in library n also its featured article. Rare earth is a very important material used in electronic manufacturing include our daily needed cell phone, computer and even car or batteries. This material exists in almost everything around us especially in this technology-based era.

Our country once had been the victim of the mining factory of rare earth. It was located in Bukit Merah, Perak. It is heart-wrenching to know there are some former workers bear the effect like giving birth of defect babies, having leukemia. The land is severely polluted. We paid our health n lands for the money.

Therefore, this time people are more educated n civilised. We protect our rights,our lands,n our home. There is a hot wave in defensing Lynas. There are videos,short films,pictures and peaceful demonstration to voice out our strong opposition for Lynas. Thanks God, we are aware of that.

Back to the origin, who needs technology?Human. Who needs rare earth?Human.Who want to be healthy?Human. We want to enjoy the life from the tip to the toes. We want convenience. We want the most advanced technology to make life easier. The price is paid by sacrificing our mother earth,by sacrificing the helpless to do the hazardous laboring n we enjoy the delicate life.

I hope Lynas will finally retrieve from our country and our protesting voices can be heard. And I also hope that the world can stop developing.It's enough. Today, this tragedy happens in Malaysia, what if it happens in a poor country?I cannot stop something outside my control, but I will do what I can do. We create more and we need to pay more. It's a worthless transaction. What we dump into the world, they will come back to us eventually (quotes from a Dr). Be aware of the state of the whole world. We are co-existing with the earth.

Colors

I didn't mean to talk about the colors itself but a color of complexion. This movie starts with a segregation between 2 colors in U.S>Black and white in around 1960's. "The Help",my tears roll down from the eyes once the ending music on. It's just grabbing my heart on it. At the end, one of the characters inside Aibileen said"God tells us we need to love our enemy, but it's hard to do. But it can start by telling the truth. Once I told the truth about that I felt free."

Life made the negro strong and with highest tolerance with the white since there was a strong racism in US from 1890's. They were being discriminated, being disdained and fate made them born as maid with no choice.They gripped on their everyday lives with all the hurts and insult to eke out the living. However, they did their work well, loving the child and the folks they took care without hatred. Still, there is always a hero in the story. A writer came and writing their perspective out and this makes the movie.

What I learned from it is respect. Reverence is something everyone needs. It doesn't matter with education, status, or power. Being respect to everyone who dedicate. Do appreciate for any devotion people give. Human, in front of disaster we are just the same.Generosity, be generous to whatever and whoever. Racism, stop it and we need to know that it can ruin a country, a generation and the world. Do focus on the problems but not the colors.Forgiveness, learn to be forgiving because at the same time we forgive ourselves. Being brave for what is right and to be honest to ourselves.

There is always a light at the end of tunnel. Before getting something great, darkness would come. Obstacles may hurdle me. The reason is only going through the hardship, then only we can feel the joys among the joys. I always wish everything will be smooth but now I wish I have the courage to go through every ups and downs in life. Thanks to the movie. It's touching.

By the way, I know what is Jim Crow Laws, who is Kennedy, American Civil Rights Movement via this movie.We need to learn from the history. Sometimes, I would think that I should study sociology instead of science..haha..great movie..I like it. No wonder why the actress Viola Davis is being nominated in many prestigious award by playing the role of "Aibileen" in "The Help". She is great!!!

Nice movie, I touched and I learned.

Thanks God

I really appreciate what the God wants me to go through.Yes,I learned it and I felt the joys of getting up from falling down.

Last year, I was failed the subject,Penyakit endocrinology from A- to FAIL by UKM disciplinary panel. While retaking this subject, I was under unseen pressure as I want to get better as a way to get myself a justice.
Yes,when the result is released, I see the A for my Penyakit Endocrinology, I jump high in the world!!!Shooting out of the planet.I was over the SUN. This A is different from all the other As. It brings me lessons, it grows me up. I truly believe what happens is always for the best and also for a reason. Thank you, God.

I am so relieved!!!!!!!!!!!!Keep giggling over my A. Hooray!!!!

My beloved family,I did it n dun worry!!!!!

Hope that in my coming life, I can be stronger and stronger to face all the ups and downs. Be grateful!!!



Hmmm,I am not a Christian, but I believe there is God in the world.........

一口气，两本书。

没有想到自己一下子把两本李永业著的书吃完。


第一本”医院，我的乌托邦“，在新年期间，无聊没事做，就翻开来看，本来就打算带回来快点看完，然后可以给妈妈看，让她多了解一下医院医生医疗的东西，总觉得好过整天看那些吵吵闹闹的福建戏，我每次俗称安娣们的偶像剧。
一看就停不下手，一直翻一直翻，一直读一直读。这是一本李医生记录自己在医疗上的看法，心情，心得。对不同病患的看法，所学的，所领悟的，都记录下来。的确，在医院总可以看见电视剧现场直播，有感动的，有气愤的，有不解的，有无奈的。总总的故事都能刺激脑细胞去思考。这本书说了李医生在医院的故事，心里的看法与领悟。还有一点医疗知识。还蛮好读的，是一本能够刺激我去思考的书。白色的巨塔承载了多少的故事呢？？



第二本”生命没有如果“，一本让我很感动的书。咀嚼着书里的文字，的确能够了解到作者内心的矛盾与挣扎。一位在英国拥有闪亮生活的医生回到了这个国土，马来西亚，所获得的所失去的都无法用任何东西衡量，因为内心的答案就是一切。每次知道有人出国求学，不然就是到昂贵的学院就读时，即使是再厉害，自己会很自然的不会给予任何佩服，心里都会觉得一切也不就是用个”钱“就能解决的事。读了这本书，教会了我，当看着别人身上的光环时，是否忽略了别人牺牲了多少？付出了多少？每一个收获并不是理所当然。学习把别人的优点放大，念宽心就宽.看着作者当初一个人如何到英国，如何渡过，如何努力拼出自己的事业，到他所失去的，所缅怀的，所遗憾的，一直到内心的挣扎，的确很令我深思。有得必有失，该如何做出选择，最先要了解自己，再来就是智慧的指引了。

谢谢作者分享他内心的一面，学习到了不少。

人生只要用心经营，一定会变得更美好，更圆满。（李永业，生命没有如果）

我要加油了！！

Great Tzu Ching Reunion Dinner

It has been a long time,Tzu Ching in UKMB are never to be gathered and having a warm reunion dinner. I am touched during the sharing session. Time really flies. I had been a Tzu Ching for almost 4 years. Looking the new bloods in passing on the board as if looking myself in the past. The uncertain face to take the responsibilities. However,only the hardship can bring unforgettable memories;only the hardship can make the bond unbreakable. Ups and downs fulfill my life with iridescent colors. Today, I am just too happy seeing new bloods come in. Omg,they are just too great. Like what my friend always said there is a trend of juniors showing less interest in joining activities instead of shopping, watching TV or movies and keep saying busy studying with a lot of assignments to be completed. Nothing is wrong and this is respective chosen lives in university. Nonetheless, all those new bloods are just experts and earning my admiring eyes and smiling face to them. They are not only joining but also bearing the responsibilities with an opened-heart without forces or any persuasion.As all, they are believing themselves though with a little bit of uncertainty. When we believe something, then only the thing can become true. As a senior, I will accompany them and give them encouragement for letting them having 100% confidence for themselves!!!Bravo!!Juniors!!Gambateh!!

Me, I must believe in myself as well. Come on,KinLuoi!!!Keeping things up up up!!!!

Today, I sing a song.

Today, I sing a song.
A song makes me think of u again.
Again, I miss u.
Miss u in no ends.

Today, I sing a song.
A song which I sing my heart out.
Out of my expectation, I nearly weep my eyes with tears.
Tears do not roll down my face.
Face to the future, but u will still live inside part of my minds.

Today, I sing a song.
A song is similar with my feeling.
My feeling is close to you.
To you, I will live my life bright.
Life will bright with u inside my heart.

3+0.5

每一次一个大学学年的结束自己都会做个总结。第三年没来得及写，一晃就连第四年的第一学期也结束。
这篇不想带任何目的地写，没有英文没有优美句子，就想什么写什么。
谁还记得一年半里的事那么仔细呢？

第三年，因为把考试题目抄在exam slip（就为了让学弟妹有past year),被逼重考，罚款，留下不美的历史。
这件事，我做在lrt上面来回几百次，眼泪流到不懂几时停。上诉的信还要求高教部秘书帮忙检查，心力憔悴。其实最怕的也不过是怕影响奖学金。全家人很担心。。我的情绪。朋友也很担心。整件事的结果没有任何改变，每一条惩罚我都中。
事过迁境，觉得自己把事情看得太大太夸张，也只不过是件小事。每件事的发生都有原因还有上天要教我们的东西。我能够体会重考的难受，我知道身边有太多贵人，有很多疼惜我的人，我知道不完美里的完美，我知道每一样人和事我都要感恩。谢谢大学的惩罚，它让我知道做事要谨慎，让我体会无奈冤枉的感觉，当时刚好是赵明福案件重审，感觉社会的黑暗。一切都要感恩。

第一年一直到现在，唯一不变的是我还是活动活跃份子。环保，办大大小小的生活营，参大大小小的生活营，茶会，看学弟妹办活动。升学里，每次和一群昔日战友在那里暗自担心学弟妹的活动，还开什么改革大会啦，吵来吵去，酸来酸去。都退休了，我们依然热血到现在。慈青，没有退休天，因为把善事把好的种子撒开来是不能停下的，这个社会生病得太严重了，治疗是无法停止的。

第三年，疯狂打工，也增加了我的经验。promoter,卖过hotlinkpackage,巧克力（卖这个最爽了），ovaltine,黄梨，派samples.电话接线员，surveyor,face to face surveyor,家具展工作人员，cholesterol conductor,帮astro在小太阳顾小孩,都在这一年。。。

第三年，出国两次北京与台湾，那时有点象空中飞人，飞来飞去。在台湾住了一个多月，体验了地道华人生活，也体验背包旅行的真谛。值得骄傲的是，一分一毛都没和爸妈拿，他们坚持给，我坚持拒绝，叫他们相信我有追求自己要的东西的能力，不要担心，起码自己坚守了自己的原则。爸爸每次都怕我没钱用，我很感动，希望他更舍得把钱花在自己身上。
第三年，看到朋友们之间的争执，看见利益的冲突，提醒自己不要犯别人的错。没有对与错，但要懂得分对与错，目前就这样觉得，太多事无法掌控，每个人的生命功课都不同。

第四年，最离不开的也不就是论文，但活动还是离不开我。1月1号带着姐姐妈妈去岁末祝福，真的是好有意义的开始。

2012的开始，我得知慈幼的其中一位工委逝世，考完试的昨天，得知朋友的爸爸逝世。死亡是生命中的一部分，却不知道何时来袭。生命的每一刻都太化学了。祝福他们。从小就懂什么是死亡，面对失去亲人的痛会渐渐转换为思念，而这份思念不会因为时间而淡却，因为就像Mitch Albom "Tuesdays with Morrie"里说的“Death ends a life but not a relationship".我一直都很怀念阿公阿嬷，一闪而过这一篇是想到你们而写的，我真的有遗憾。所以，把握珍惜身边的每一个人，尤其是家人，这点我要好好和二姐学习。

那天去interview当part time tutor,interviewer 问我After graduation,what would u do?"If u really want to know the answer,it is I dunno".他大概会摇头到不行然后想”What’s the young people thinking now?"还好我的履历很美，他说“U are once a top student!!It is good!!"其实，殊不知我突然对我所得到的苹果突然觉得没什么意义，给我意义的也不就是完美中的不完美。那些苹果说到底也有些用啦，没有太绝对的东西。有得必有失。

我不知道以后会做什么，但却不渺茫，因为我了解知道自己，就这样。
爱情在我的故事里有一点点那些年，却在大学里空白，因为我不知道谁可以住进我的心，没有太多心思，突然会在意，也只是想到不想妈妈以后担心自己。实在是没有遇见，真的没办法，不过我有很多事想做，希望我以后真的可以好好贡献这个养育我的社会，帮它治病。

接下来，我要在课业活动上好好加油，让这四年的大学有个亮亮的句号。*Blink Blink*
觉得这一篇可以以这首歌结束。。我太喜欢孙燕姿~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~的歌啦！！！
接下来~~~~~~~~~

Devil versus Angel

Yes, in each of us there are a devil and angel living in our soul who always fight and having quarrels over everything. Nonetheless, who is more persuasive? Will the angel bleed as it always devotes itself?Will it be hurt by the malicious devil?Will the world turns it into devil?The answer is individual.

On the flip side, will the devil tired of being grim?Will the devil be changed by the gracious angel?What is the story behind the devil?Will the world heal devil with love?

My devil and angel are enemy.They are never congenial in the same things. This is their nature. As if they can only survive in me with their feud. Therefore, I appreciate both of them as they let me have different angles of perspective on matters in life.

Who wins?Who loses?There is a reason behind.
Nothing is right or wrong because everything happens for a reason.
However,right and wrong should be discernible in order to lead me to the wellness of life.

Come on!!Smiles to the world:)