Touched

After 428, I was sad to see the violence happened.
I was sad to see unarmed people were suppressed .
I was sad to know people lost life or get severe injuries.
I was lucky to be able to go and show my supports.
I was lucky I was aware of the state of our country.
I was lucky I was born in this land.

The most I was touched to see MALAYSIAN united to fight for a better future from all the corners of the world. .
We are citizen of a country. Politic is something inevitable in lives.
We should take responsibility as a citizen. Choose right man to lead us.
Only a good government can change the whole life of a country.
Good government brings harmony to society which indirectly helping to form a PEACE WORLD if every country leaders are able to be good.

WORLD PEACE:)
United we stand,divided we fall.

随感而发

接下来，是申请奖学金的阶段了。看见大学发给我的email,没有很兴奋，因为完全被无法相信的感觉掩盖，发愣一下。那天面试后的我，心情异常轻松，因为“以后要做什么”的这个问题，一个打从一进大学就住在自己脑里的问题，飞逝而去。不是因为面试后的我知道要做什么了，而是觉得我了解自己更多了，即便申请不成功，似乎也不会彷徨了（这个要感谢interview我的三个教授，他们不但和我分享了他们自己，也从中打开我的思绪）。

在马来西亚，一般的父母不会去真正了解孩子要什么，也不会教导孩子如何去了解自己想要什么，不过会给孩子自己认为最好的给他们。所以，希望孩子成绩名列前茅，然后有个稳定的工作，找个好伴侣，过个幸福人生。然而，这个成家立业的过程里，从头到尾，孩子都需要懂自己要什么。没有目的的追求卓越，做份人云亦云的工作，会有个稳定的人生，但未必会有个想要的人生。
其实，我只是想讲只要要做的事不是伤天害理的，都值得支持，如果带有一份助人的心，那更值得骄傲。

之前听过有人说读STPM很浪费时间，不然就是很难，再来就是没有保障（不保证拿到要的科系），太危险了。通常是家境中等，拿不到matrik,才会读的先修班。我自己不觉得STPM浪费时间即使它不能保证我能拿到要的科系。当初的自己出自于挑战的心态去报读STPM，再来是要测试自己的实力毕竟觉得SPM测不出什么。到拿不到4.0的成绩而痛哭（不是因为成绩哭，而是因为知道进不了医科而哭）。值得吗？（值得，因为中六的生活令我学习不少.）起码在不断被成绩打击的两年里，stpm教导我要继续坚持，人要谦虚一点，努力一点。酸甜苦辣尝不尽 。
伤心的过程里，哥哥和我说，如果人一帆风顺，没跌倒过，那以后要和孩子讲什么故事？
桃姐里也有说，经过苦难的人，才会了解怎么去安抚受伤的人。即便苦的过程很苦,但那却值得回忆。

申请成功，如果奖学金顺利的话，证明我还需多读4年，那时也已28。连续读书读到28，值得吗？如果这是自己想要的，那是值得的。即便无法预知未来，但至少可以把握现在做想做的。人生是可以很多选择的，最重要的是，每一个阶段都要知道自己想要什么。

没有东西是属于值不值得，浪不浪费 ，每个人对于生命的价值观都不同。尊重所有坚持自己选择的人。不是所有人都能坚持。

感恩一切的安排，是好是坏，都有它的理由.感恩：）

以“一公升的眼泪”的一小段来总结这一篇：
重点在前面一小段~~~

人生，绕个路不也很好吗？

Hopes

Reading the reviews of The 100 Most Influential People in the World 2012 by TIME, hopes are just surging into my mind. One of the things I realize is the Power of Love especially in women. There is no gender discrimination but most of the social workers or humanity activist are amazing women. Patch Adams once explain the way to show love to others by just doing what our mother done to us. Some of them stand up to voice out their confrontation of injustice for women, some involve in HIV prevention course. Of course, there are also kind men. In conclusion, what make those who devote themselves in helping the less fortunate amazing is their GREAT LOVE regardless of the races, countries and religion.

Hopes come when I knew that WOW there are a lot of people out there who are trying to make the world better!!Though in my surrounding culture money and steady lives are given the priority over what you really want to do in lives. The full list the 100 people covers people who are politician,chef,educator,film maker,sportmans,spotlight celebrities,professors,singer,artist>>all minds are needed in this world.

 I don't have interest in politics so I just glance through all those politician's review. I like most who involve in any activities which benefits the destitute,less fortunate,or bringing love to those in need. Besides, I like also the artist who bring profound messages on their products like the film maker of " Saving face" and "A separation". What decides the level of an art works? Its message. All those sport mans who showing unrelenting determination are also amazing.

Kernel of the message I get>>There are actually many things we can be involved in to make a life we want. Just do what we like and make it glitters!!!!!!!(Be determined and resolved)

 We are not the worst no matters how worst the situation is.

Thanks!!I am looking forward the full list in 2013.It seems like a list of reference..HAHAHAHA

 HOPES come!!!!!!!!!!!!

Freestyle Interview

This is an unexpected interview. The interviewers do not ask the harsh questions but I really can feel their intents of wanting to know more about me. They even show their willingness to share anything. I mean ANYTHING not only in the compound of academic questions. I just speak out what in my mind while they ask about my thinking. Instead of saying it is an interview it should be called a conversation with 3 professors.

30 minutes are allocated for each professor to interview me. They are great.

The first Professor is Dr Anne who is an expert in the field of infectious disease.
The most impressive question to be asked from her is "What is the hardest challenge u think is until now?" This question touches me instantly. My answer is" to hold tight on the things we originally want to/dream of". This is the hardest,it needs determination,I think. I asked her back the same question however she tells me how her life is. She said Life is a choice as we need to vote constantly and we are having non-stop self questioning. "What's the difference between Malaysia students n US students?" She smiles. Malaysia students are more polite and quite compared to US students. US students are fun and are very opinioning. They would like to ask a lot of questions.They are going classes with the thinking of knowing all the answers.This is the culture. They like to ask since very young. I think this the one we should learn.It is good especially on a lecture.Interaction. May be we are just a little bit of conservative. However, being polite and showing respect to the teachers are also what we've told to do since very young.It's nice to remain.

2nd is Dr Nicole who is a paediatrician in intensive care. She asked me more common question like what do I think?What types of curriculum u've been doing?But, before we start our conversation she greets me by introducing herself." Before I know you better let me talk about myself to let u know more about me". Just how open they are~~

Third is DR Juliah. She wants to know more about my perspective on matters than the previous two. She tells me the importance of attitude. It can change everything. Be fair to yourself and know what you want in your life can lead you in the future, she shares~~

Three of them are very generous to share and there is no distant feeling with them. They encourage student to ask more and they would like to be friend with students rather than teachers.

Knowing what u want is most important!!! (What I learn in today's interview~~)
Things do not always go as planned. Live in the moment with good intentions:)

温馨的书

《佐贺的超级阿嬷》是个温馨的读物。在物资贫乏的年代与生活环境里，作者讲述了他与阿嬷的故事。
因为没钱，用乐观来驱走饥饿，用智慧来面对生活，用真心来编制故事。
乡下的生活，阿嬷的乐观态度是这本书最吸引人的地方。
读完过后，感觉真的很温馨，谢谢作者分享他的童年故事，告诉了我幸福简单的道理。

里面有几句阿嬷教作者昭广的生活小语，简单得意义深远~~

真正的体贴是让人察觉不到的。
（曾经对于自己阿嬷每每一煮完饭的“阿蕾吃饭咯”例为平常事，直到成长让我明白那是一种表达，有多少体贴是自己没有察觉过的呢？）

即使世上有两三个人讨厌你，转过身来还有几亿人。
（有时要把自己从框框拉出来，心自然就会变宽）

最想吃的东西就是高级品。
（所以说山珍海味怎样也抵挡不了家里的粗茶淡饭）

穷人最能做的就是展现笑容。
（乐观的想法就能改善生活的质量）

不要难过，不然走不了。
（作者的小舅舅，小新智商比较弱，大约30岁就去世了，那时阿嬷就是这样告诉作者。活着的人更要坚强。）

我有个快乐温馨的假期，感恩上天：）