Time

Everyone has 24 hours per day. Everyone has different quality of life.Everyone has individual dream life. However, everyone cannot be isolated from the people,as we are classified as an organism living in groups. Although departed from people, we are still need to be concerned and need to be loved. Our souls need to be pampered and given strength. Love is the greatest strength.

Since we are living in colony, teamwork is something indispensable to make our world better. Great Job does not always belong to only one's honor. Successful men did not always succeed without helps from people around. There is a thinking in my mind>>Though I only have 24 hours, but how can I amplify it into double or triple? There are 2 solutions which I am able to figure out: Increase the work efficiency and another have a very strong spirit of teamwork. If everyone just gives a minutes to concern about the well-fare of our mother earth, the destitute, the circumstances of others, then we will be having endless time to make the community and at the same time our lives to the wellness. Individualism seems conquer the world. However, I still believe since we are living in colony, no matter how individualistic people are, problems will get people together to be a team and confront the problems together. Believe all things are possible. Sometimes we do not need much but just believe.

"The pursuit of happyness" is a great movie which is very motivating. It was based on a true story of Chris Gardner who is an American entrepreneur. Chris struggles his lowest tide of his life>His wife leave him, he was broke and he was homeless. His son is the origin of his strongest will. Without thinking too much, he just did his best to make an end meats and eke out a living. Becoming vagabond with his son and they even slept overnight in public toilet. At the end, his perseverance made him out of the darkness and he is a very rich man now. What is the relation

between time and this movie? Chris needed to accomplish a lot of things in one day.He needed to take his son from school, he needed to study, finding places to sleep, finding customers for his sales...numerous things need to be finished yet he still managed to fight for it to do his best.

Thus, his spirit is the one I must learn, tell my heart I can do it..do a lot of great things!!!!Gambateh for my friends and beloved family!!!

Thesis year

After passing the thesis proposal week, piles of assignments are following..May be is myself does not give a chance to be idle. While having the stress from study, i still join quite a lot of activities if the time allowed to be. Sometimes, most people will worry about the imbalance between studies and activities. But, activities are something which alleviate my tensions,my negative thoughts and instead, it gives me strengths~~I learn to arrange time, I have no time to gossip people and I have no time to worry. The only thing that I can do is to grab the time and to be live in every moment..That's the problem which I reflect myself sometimes fearing that I will be too indifferent to the people I love and love me..However，a simple greeting and a simple encouragement like " U can do it","Gambateh" can actually lift people's days up...Do be generous in encouraging people and saying something positive~~

Today mentally rest is much needed as my brain have not been stopped to function for around 2 days to rush my case study presentation, settle thesis thingy,plan for coming assignment. I want to REST!!!Therefore, having a small gathering with my good friends from different courses. We share what we had gone through these days..For sure, THESIS is unavoidable in last year. My friends share theirs torture but at the same time it is hilarious and ludicrous to laugh. Tears are flowing down when scolded or criticized by supervisors or the office staffs very badly. Rushing to the lab to observe the results at night. Worrying about the mice when forget to feed them. Frustrating over the instruments which always cannot function well or cannot be well calibrated. Feeling upset by the complicated procedures of ordering and booking labs for overtime. Stole the lab keys at night to be able to do experiment on weekends. In the lyrics of "Stand" by Rascal Flatt,"when push come to shove,you taste what you are made of,you get mad you get strong,wipe your hands, shake it off,then you stand" are absolutely great motivation. Sometimes, we no need take things to be too harsh. Taking unnecessary criticism as a remind so that we wouldn't simply criticizing. Taking advice as improvement so that we can amend what is wrong and to be closer to the better. Be open-heart to every circumstances as it lets us grow and make our memories be iridescent...Smiles to every difficulties..When difficulties are not hindrance anymore, it means we are better than yesterday!!!!Gambateh for all my friends, and my beloved family~~~~^_^

These days~~

Death is something out of control but is part of the life. In the early in the morning on 5th Oct 2011, I heard the news of death of an almighty visionary>>Steve Jobs.Steve Jobs'left is an insanely loss for this technological world but is a bliss for him as he can relieve from his cancer suffering.His spirit is still remained with us and with this visionary's spirit .dare to realize our dreams. Sometimes,what we can do is just trying and doing our best and let the God decides the part of "out of control".What makes the difference?Attitude is my answer.I feel a bit sad of the Apple founder's left because the world lost one more good guy.In my opinions, people of the past decades are actually more down to earth even they are high in the society status because they are more determined in terms of principles and grip firmly in terms of moral values. Individualism is a trend that transcends our whole world especially our new generation. Looking things in own's view,seldom be in others'shoes. "I want, I think,is mine, me" all the first person pronouns becomes the supreme other than the second and third person pronoun. Sometimes to be empathy is not easy.Solving problems with wisdom is not in hands. Understanding others seem outreaches our limitation. Yes, we are not Saints. We are homo sapiens. However, learning can make us closer to the better. Trying to be kind in our first intention. Trying magnifies the people's virtues. Learning to be strong and no giving up!!!Inheriting the better cultures for our next generation,just like Steve Jobs and all the venerable Saints~~~

7th Oct 2011 I went to Pavillion alone as I wanted to watch and give my fully support to Nasi Lemak 2.0 as it is the fruit of efforts made by Namewee and our lovely local celebrities when I knew that this movie will be off shown in most cinemas. However, when I looked at the showing time,it was 8.40pm,it was too late for me to went back alone when finish watching the movie. With a despair feeling, I decided to watch something which will cheer me up>>Johnny English 2. Nonetheless, I had missed out the golden showing time~~While thinking of what sort of movies to watch, I was attracted by a movie preview thinking that this movie will bring me some positive strength and warmth>>Two-legged horse. At the end of the show, I came out with a heart-wrenching feeling and mourning over the movie protagonist~~Oh my Godness~~I cannot exactly understand the reason I spent RM8.00 to made myself dull. What's the movie talking about?This movie is filmed by Samira Makmalbaf, an Iran female filmmaker and the setting was taking place in Afghanistan which was actually want to reflect the humanity. The story lines begin with an impoverish, illiterate, thoughtless orphan, Mirvais who stay in a maze of sewage pipe was hired by an affluent and aristocratic man to carry his lame son on the back to school with a US dollar a day. However, the little lame son treats Mirvais as his personal donkey and horse. Whipping him with cane to force him to run as fast as his others' donkey. Making him racing with all those donkeys. Spitting bad words, obscenities and swears on him. Insulting him. Using him to earn extra money by letting others ride on him. Adorning him with saddles, tie him with rope like a horse, nailing horseshoes on Mirvais' boot.Throwing stones over him. Under the great living oppression, Mirvais endures all these sadistic abusement. In the beginning, he will express his rages, unsatisfactory and wailing but at the end of the movie he was totally transformed into a human horse.Coming out from the cinema, I tried to understand the hidden contents that the director wants to deliver. Using human to reflect the animals suffering by human? Surfing the internet to search for the views of director to get my answer...HUMANITY is the main theme of this movie. "I wanted to explore how far people will go for survival by trying to show violence and domination between human and that we should ask ourselves how often we have been someone else's horse" copied from a website.This is the answer she gave in the Q and A session after the movie premiere in Toronto film festival."

“I want to reduce human pain through my films. There are things in the world that are harsh. I want to change the world according to my own share. I believe many of these pains are due to the mindset of mankind. We are what we think. "she said. Reality is somehow making people disheartening and titling our hearts because many of the hideous parts of the world is out of our control. But,if we stop doing anything, vices will conquer the world. I BELIEVE devils will never win over angels. Do not stop to devote a drop of kindness to our world. It's okay for me to watch such a profound movie with a lot of hidden messages portrayed by each character. Mature thinking and strong bearing mood are much needed while watching it. Oh ya,there were only 3 audiences in front of a big square screen. May be is my destiny to know more about humanity~~Just let the PEACE conquers the world with all kinds of LOVE~~~~treat all time like our very last seconds~~~^_^^_^

Money

There is a part of the lyrics of "Money" by Michael jackson:

Money,spy for it...

Money,live for it...

Money,die for it...

Money cannot be parted from this realistic world..

Money cannot be separated from our living...

Money cannot solve everything..

The problems which can be solved by money is not really a problem..

Money,the aims of most people..

With it, gorgeous things will be ours..

With it, life can be better..

With it,people will surround us..

With it, people can listen to us..

With it,society status can be upgraded..

With it,may be we will lost ourselves..

With it,may be we do not recognize what the truth is..

With it,may be conscience cannot speak louder..

With it,may be we change...

Quotations from Arne Garborg,a Norwegian writer:

For money you can have everything,but you cannot.

You can buy food,but not appetite.

Medicine,but not health.

Knowledge,but not wisdom.

Glitter,but not beauty.

Fun,but not joy.

Acquaintances,but not friends.

Servants,but not faithfulness.

Leisure,but not peace.

You can have the husk of everything,but not the kernel.

I know this quotations when I was form 5 and always keep it in mind as a remind..

I hope myself will not lost in the monetary world and wisely use the money..

Just do not be the slave of MONEY,but the dominator of MONEY~~~

Listen to Michael Jackson's beautiful song~~Money

Mixture

Today is a mixture of feelings>contented,happy,moved but disheartening at the same time. Early in the morning i just knew that my 2nd year junior from speech therapy course committed suicide by jumping from a hospital building. My friends told me that the junior actually started showing emotional depression. He faced the troubles both from his personal relationship and also the complicated family affairs. I was deeply feeling sad to hear about it.Isnt the indifference killing him?Did anyone concern about him?Sometimes,may be we should just show a little bit of our concerns to give this world a little warmth.We do not know tomorrow but we can make today the best. The other feeling towards this mishap is no matter how bad the thing is we are not the worst. There is a saying"you hate your life while some people dream of having your life."If we feel life is getting worse is just because we dip ourselves in too much negative strengths. There will always a light at the end of the tunnel...To be grateful for what we are given..Take all things as gratification..I believe the God's arrangement..

Feeling great because of the Tzu Chi Happy camp today.There were 127 lovely juniors came from various private or local universities and colleges. The theme of the camp was talking about filial piety and the self value realization of university students. Some of my juniors were nearly crying when the sharing session. I was very happy as I was the leader of catering.So that, we can taste a lot of foods but at the same time washing a lot of food containers,doing a lot of trivial but utmost important things like preparing enough water,preparing toilet papers,preparing birthday cake,finding lighter and candles, sweeping the floor,distributing foods and clearing the leftovers..it was tiring physically but emotionally I really enjoyed it^_^. I feel that family is always the greatest especially our parents..therefore should always grab the opportunity to repay them and showing them our love towards them.

LIFE is great with great attitude!!Strongly believe that giving is receiving and also giving is appreciating!!!

Sharing one video about one of my childhood favourite sitcoms which talking about how a family goes through all the life difficulties together with the strong strength of LOVE~~~

Green Day

I feel contented by looking UKMB Tzu Ching walks into our university college officially today.We teach our 1st year juniors how to sort out recyclable things from the the rubbish and instill them with the seeds of greenery mind.Why should we need to be environmental friendly?How can we practise in daily lives?Nowadays, people are aware of the state of our mother earth as the catastrophes are unstoppable no matter is natural disasters or mankind disasters.However, the understanding about our environment state is quite shallow and also lack of implementation.Action speaks louder than words as the saying goes.Our 1st year juniors are really lucky to have this kind of exposure,hope their green seeds will grow gradually and become flourish until their last breath.There is a student quips that he wants to be a vegetarian.Though it is only a joke,but I do think that he is actually influenced unconsciously and understand why becoming vegetarian is the quickest way to save our seriously ill mother earth. I am really happy to hear that.Thanks to all of the UKMB Tzu ching who come to lend their hands.We are great!!!Jiayou~~^^

Taking a group photo as a memory~~^^

Believe>Strive hard>DETERMINATION

My 4th year lives has begun with nervousness~~I am nervous is not because of my final year project but the uncertainty for my future. I keep asking my coursemates what are they planning for their future. Apparently I am the one asking people but I am actually keep asking myself.There are various maxims citing that we should believe ourselves.Believe we can. Once we believe there will be no hurdles in front.Hurdles will be not a hindrance but a push once we believe. Can I believe I can step closer to my dream?I do not deny that I am still holding my little dream of becoming a benevolent,kind-heart and borderless doctor. I dream I can lend my hand to every corners where need a light. I had heard that never stop dreaming even before u die.I must be brave to pursue what I want in my life since life does not have an exact length but is always unpredictable.

I always admire people who are courage to realize what they dream no matter how big the difficulties. Recently, I know that one of my friends who same age with me had departed to Tzu Chi university to study medicine. He had graduated from biomedical science but set off to Taiwan to realize his doctor dream even he needs to restart there for 7 years. I really praise him from deep of my bottom heart.I like Michael Jackson very much not only because of his beautiful songs but much on his perseverance,sincerity and touching and motivating stories behind him.He was like the shining star who emitting glaring lights to the world.However,who knows his bitterness??Who really understands him while he falling down?Nevertheless,he was brave in his dream.I like Namewee is also because of his courage in doing what he wants to do.COURAGE is something very much needed in pursuing dream.It brings us forward and closer to the things we want.Even we are not getting what we want in the end at least there is no regrets.At least we are close to dream at once.

Start from believing with courage,striving hard is something indispensable.Learning will only be obtained with striving hard.However,the last thing but mostly people will give up is DETERMINATION.In terms of determination,I learn it a lot from my sister. She is determined to implement her principles in the educational field even if looked down by others.She really touches me.Success will come with determination once believing starts. Taiwan singer,Xiao ZHu,Luo Zhi Xiang once said that DETERMINATION is more important than striving hard.Yes,agree with him.However,the very 1st step is we need to BELIEVE.Once believe then it will bring us courage and endless learning.

I wish myself will not give up in my dream even the chance is glimmering.Achievement will be reached once I do not give up my ultimate goal>>serve the people in the darkness no matter in what fields.Hope myself can be a glimmer of light in the world.So,learning engine cannot stop~~~Gambateh!!!

Paul Potts is inspiring and feeling touched each time watching this video..Just let's the little dream flares~~

慈青干训营回营感想~~

写回营分享，一定要一边听主题曲一边写，才能忆起当时的感动。。

参加前：

联络人："庆蕾，你要参加干训营吗?我已经帮你报名了~~."

“可以不要吗？我已经参加过很多次不同种类的营队，也办过很多种生活营，生活营的格式我大概也了解也猜得出来，让我考虑看看~~~”

之后的自己就很努力地利用空闲的假期疯狂地打假期工，是星期一一直做到星期天，没有休息，时间都被填得满满的。在这工作的期间有机会接触社会不同层面的人，从年轻的同辈一直到老一辈的前辈，常常有机会听见不同人的看法与对这社会的一些意见。那时的自己常常会接收一些比较现实社会的负面想法，大多数都是投诉埋怨等，让自己了解，当个聆听者也极需要智慧去消化所听见的。当营队的日期越来越靠近时，心里就一直在挣扎到底要不要参加。刚好营队过后还要参加一个小孩子的生活营就是astro小太阳生活营，就觉得与小孩子接触，一定要抱着一个纯洁的心，为了洗涤在假期工里所累积的尘埃，所以就决定参加了这难得的干训营。

参加时：

有幸提早报道，所以就帮忙生活组的学长姐一起扫扫抹抹地，不久营队就开始了。我觉得是因缘的关系又或者是上天要提醒自己，那么巧，在我的组里有一位来自新加坡穿着灰衣的学长，他说新加坡很难有机会参加营队，所以他很把握能来营队与大家一起学习的机会。当下，我就觉得之前的自己因为经验而有了傲慢之心，看到经验那么多的学长都虚心地来营队学习，就像个闹钟一样提醒自己要时时缩小自己，不断精进。整个营队，最让我影响深刻的就是，“不要因为感动而留下，而是因为使命而留下”，这句话让自己陷入了沉思。还有就是“要求自己，善解别人”，“以身做则多少就能感动多少人”，这些话都让自己印象深刻。也让自己更了解因果循环的道理，进而更了解甘愿受的真意。口业仿佛是最容易造的业，说话的艺术是一生都得学的功课。还有就是那个忏悔表，我的是拿满分，期许自己可以一天比一天进步一点点。

参加后：

整个人法喜充满，心情很好，很开心。从KJ回宿舍的过程有幸与学长姐分享，才知道这营队是学长姐师姑师伯非常用心地办，也很期待很多干部能够参与。十分庆幸自己还好有参与，没有错过。真是太开心了。有愿就有力，一切都是最好的安排。要好好加油~~~^^

SHE

SHE always stands beside me

SHE always hears my voices

SHE always concerns about me

SHE always touches my heart

SHE always guides me in the darkness

SHE always teaches me life lessons

SHE always knows me

SHE always understands me

SHE always forgives me for whatever I have done

SHE always believes me

SHE always prays for me

There will be no one will greater than SHE

There will be no one whose love greater than SHE

There will be no one who I will always miss

SHE is my grandma,mother and my sisters with a HE inside who is my grandpa,father and my brothers~~

FAMILY ends with I LOVE U:)

Home

Today,I work as an assistant in the Perfect Living and lifestyle exhibition.Looking at the whole branded,glamorous and high classes furniture, home accessories and high-tech home electrical appliances,I ask myself what is the definition of HOME?There are over hundred of thousands people out there just need a shelter above their head in order to have their own house.Hundred of thousands catastrophe victims just hope that they can have a safety place to stay as their home can be protected.What are the things people are pursuing?Materials?Branded life?What is called a better life?When we achieve what we had dreamed,do we feel contented?Do we neglect something or lost in the process?Seeing people buying all the exquisite furniture, I suddenly pop out with a thinking. What is the most important thing in building the dream house?Home,for my definition is where when all family members gather together and sharing life stories each other.A place where the heart belongs disregarding the location.However,I clearly know that this exhibition is only a commercialized business activity.No business,no money,no money the world seem will be ruined as the whole system will be in disorder.As a complication,we cannot help people in needs.

There is a queen sized bed cost RM30000 in the exhibition.It is very comfortable with very good quality. However, a simple Rm100++mattress had made me a snoring pig. A good night sleep is worth than a RM30000 bed. An insomnia can also reduce the RM30000 bed to a RM100++ or even lower price mattress. What we want is actually depending on us. Life is full of ambivalence,I must appreciate all I have and don't let the learning engine stops.Periodic maintenance of the engine is really needed as LIFELONG LEARNING HAS NO ENDS~~~^^

Rojak Language

Not everyone will understand "Rojak" unless Malaysian or the people who have tried it before. However,who can understand the true feeling of "Rojak">>Malaysian I think. We have grown up in a multiracial society since our very first cry.We have made friends with different complexion since our very first stepping into school.We have savored different kinds of cultural foods since our very first cultural celebration.As a result,at least I think,we,Malaysian has a unique character>>Rojak.No matters our languages,attires, foods,things or songs all have been Rojak unconciously. I was conciously felt it when i went to Taiwan for 1 month.Taiwanese has strong Chong Hua characteristics but I have strong Rojak characteristics.There are 2 sides when toppling a coin so as a thing.Malaysian knows at least 3 languages which I think is most advantageous in terms of competitiveness.Malaysian can enjoy wide variety of cultural foods no matters with what cooking arts:broiling,steaming,frying,pickling,roasting or baking with different hidden traditional or mysterious stories from different races and religions.We are blessed with all these colorful and fantastic and miscellaneous mixed cultures.A lot of people think Malaysia is not a very good country to stay but for me the love towards this land had unconciously ingrained in my heart not because of what patriotic reasons but it is a land filled with my childhood memories,my unforgettable growing stories,my beloved family and also my unpredictable future.

Today,I deeply feel disheartening when an uncle who give zero mark for my English proficiency when I do a phone survey with him.Yes,I cannot speak English like the native speakers and there is room of improvement for my English fluency.However,that uncle was juz like an archer who shot hundred thousand arrows into my heart and then there was a translucent bleeding heart in my body.I don't speak professional English but a Chinese-slang English with a lot of la,oh,le,yi. Language has its own grammars,proper pronunciation and structures.Back to the stone age,what is the uses of language>>communication.Language is something influenced by the place,decades,times,cultures and then being one unique symbol of a place or the local people.Therefore,Rojak language has been our Malaysian symbol.Isn't it good?As we are living in this globalization world,the more we can command the better we are.I do not think that Rojak language is something to be ashamed of but a familiar and amiable language especially when speaking in other country.However,our mother earth has became a village,therefore since there is a room for improvement why do we not to improve?Yes,thanks to the uncle as he had lit my ENGLISH FIRE in me,I should let it flares brilliantly.Anyway,I love Rojak language most as it is not only a language but also is a story,a story represents this lovely land.

My secondary teacher once told me that Attitude decides altitude,I am being more and more understand about this precious adage.Yes,shouldn't defeated be any trivial things in life but pass life with optimistic mind, enthusiasm, zest and NO GIVING UP.

Lifelong learning has no ends~~~^^

Listener

Who want to be a listener?What is listener?As an interviewer all these days make me a listener.People pours their dissatisfaction,complaints,different perspective of views,grudging and some their life golden adages to me.Yes,i have been a listener all these days. It needs wisdom to digest all the things people told u. There were 2 uncles in their twilight age share their political views with me and then i was confused.But,that confusion has been removed after i watch a video of Namewee. There was a uncle told me not to believe people 100%,sound true,but make me confused again as trust is a bond in a relationship.Then my instinct tells me times will let me understand the definition of trust.Problems cannot be resolved by just listening but action did. However,listening can make feeling better as there is a place for us to release all the pent up emotions. In this technology based era, disregard what generation X,Y,Z or the newest generation Alpha cannot escape from the internet and the influential social network. One of the human rights:Freedom of expression makes the social network a great tool. All these accessibility make us a speaker.We want to be more understood.We want more listeners from the corners around the world.Then it needs more and more rationality to sift through all the views."What is apparent, however, is that we all wish to be heard but we may not be so keen to listen. "copied from an article from The Star drops me in deep thought.My family is always my great listener.They give me full attention when i was spitting out my bulging moaning and dissatisfaction and fully understanding my feeling.It is so comfortable when i spitted out all that things. Sure,we cannot just give others our upsets but sharing is also utmost important in a conversation as we can learn from each others'daily lives and golden experience.Moral values：it needs wisdom to be a listener: As a listener full attention and empathy are so important as the speaker can feel the sincerity of the listener. Wisdom is superb needed as we need to be not influenced by others'sentimental emotions and give supportive and positive words in time.Yes,it needs wisdom to be a listener especially when listen to people's problems everyday.However, thanks to the clients who share their life experiences and views with me.Sometimes,simple words can have a great impact in life. A client told me:"U know,simple 5 minutes can actually touch a person for whole life if u do a thing for the person with full sincerity at that moment.In terms of work,it can be achieved if only u have high enthusiasm in ur work."Yes,simple acts can touch people as long as it is fully dedicated at that moment.

Here attach a photo which i took with a bus driver whose name is Jananegah. He has been a bus driver since 1989.He is responsible. Why i know him?Because of a Prasarana project which needs intervewer to do survey on buses and this uncle really helps me a lot. He told me a lot of information about the passengers, each location of the bus routes and also accompanied me to wait another coming bus as he said he was worrying me to wait alone in the bus stop.He said he has the obligation to ensure the passengers'safety.Ya,simple acts can move as long as it is sincere and true..Really thanks..

Lifelong learning has no ends~~~^^

回家

回家
08/11/2011
回家不过三天，匆匆地，转眼间又回到了这熟悉又陌生的吉隆坡。
终有多不愿意回到这里，还是得为了前途又离家而去。
妈妈一早就煮了她的拿手好菜》素鸡油饭，好让我可以带在路上。
昨天的晚上还和二姐与妈妈到TESCO购物。
二姐买了TOMYAM酱给我，拿了一罐豆奶粉还有一包素料给我。
我们逛完后就去妈妈介绍的cafe吃着美味的素马来炒面。
每次回去二姐与妈妈都会做同样的东西。
回家的次数五根手指都算得到，坐在巴士站的时候就开始舍不得了。
也许我的人生里，这样的情景会有改变的一天。
时间就像个魔术师，不知不觉地，可以把很多东西改变。
自己能做的，也就只有两个字》珍惜。

榴莲飘香的季节

应该是去年随手有感而发写的吧~~


这个水果不是人人爱吃，它的味道也不是人人能顶得住，也不是人人喜爱。
如果有一天，榴莲变成了像星巴克那样的品牌，或许，因他而皱起眉头的人也会想去试试吧！
从来都不觉得有买榴莲的需要，因为季节一到家里就会有它的出现。
去了吉隆坡求学，打工时才发现原来好的榴莲，价格不算便宜。
榴莲的颜色有不同深浅的黄，有像黄金一样的黄，像月亮一样的黄。味道也不能说一样，有很甜的，有很苦的，也有甜苦味道的又或者淡水味的。不是榴莲的超级粉丝，但是看到它就自然会有想去吃它的感觉。
爸爸一直要知道学校的开学日期，趁放假时，可以拿多点榴莲回家。
没和爸爸一起到园里拾榴莲，但是口里吃的那些榴莲自己知道得来不易。
从买下土地的血汗钱，计划要如何种植，种些什么再到树的成长，一直到口中咬下的果实，那是一个需要多么长的一个过程。

爸爸说很多人到园里去偷榴莲：

我：huh？那要怎样办？
爸：还好园里有几只狗看着，不然一粒都吃不到。
我：那要怎样不要给人进来偷榴莲？
爸：除非住在园里，不然就请人看咯！请一个人要RMxx，一个月就RMxx，我们家也是随便种，多才拿去卖，不用紧啦。
我：哦~~~

其实，不是心疼榴莲被人吃掉。只是，简单的交谈，自己的心却被感动了。我顿时珍惜口中的榴莲，因为知道它得来不易，不是顺手就有的东西。
它是前人留下汗水的果实，当然还包括所有在园里的其他水果。

所以，榴莲对自己来说不是一种水果，而是一份在心里的感觉，与家人的回忆。也许是因为，榴莲自小就出现在自己成长记忆里的关系吧！！

Stories are in the life

Just watching a 1-second video clip"Move",it is very creative and also motivated which remind me the bright side of an ordinary day. All the stories in the world hide in our daily lives. All the great ideas,creativeness,admiring works are coming from our routine,seemed tedious and stereotyping lives.Yes,everything has the bright sides.Dull days can create great story with our shining eyes.I should draw all the little pic in my mind out and linked to be a story.While doing my survey on the guest satisfaction level about the rapid KL bus service,i met with people from all walks of life. Some were really helpful but some are really difficult to be approached.Some gave me the expression of suspicion.Frankly to say,i was reluctant to approach everyone of them.However,this is my job and i need to accomplish my duties as soon as possible.Yes,yellow light shines on my head. May be i can be a watcher or viewer to watch the live and keep going movie in hustle and bustle KL.I can make the tedious things into a thrilling and interesting stories by my creative and optimistic mind.Yes,i shouldnt fell by the dullness but turn it over into liveness. When people were sitting on the bus looking the scenery along the journey, they told me "I m busy" ,it is quite sarcastic but let it be.When people were reading the newspapers they told me"I dun hv time",juz let it go by a smiling.When people gave a squinting,juz look back with a smiling eyes.Everything will be nicer with a little bit of creativeness,happiness and craziness:)

(Guy travels the world and shoots one second of footage in each location)

Mother of Calcutta

I was unable to describe the feeling of reverence and how deep my admiration toward a thoroughly selfless Mother. Who can really understand your miseries?Who can fully feel your overwhelming joys?Who can sense your pain as like theirs?In my perception there is no one unless our parents or only ourselves.People may be feeling sad 10% while the level of sadness inside the heart is actually 100%.After savoring the movie,"Mother of Calcutta",my heart was crying and my eyes were wiping with tears.Mother Teresa whom i said was the Mother of Great Love.She can feel the pain,loneliness,suffering of the destitute, the unfortunate as hers.She can fully feel it as if like hers. How a human being or an ordinary woman with a small body can have a love like the ocean?Her devotion to the poorest is beyond anything anything which can be described. Wordless.I feel i m only her 0.0000001%.I m easily annoyed by people inappropriate deeds or acts which I perceive as "shudnt","couldnt",or "nt good". However, in the poem of Mother Teresa "Do it anyway",she said "People are always unreasonable,illogical,self-centered,forgive them anyway;What you spend years building,someone could destroy:built it anyway",remind me to have an opened heart and to be stronger. There is nothing is unbalance. Everything seems is having two sides>pros and cons,causes and happenings. Facing anything with brave,faithfulness,joyousness. Working part time during these days i found that our so called new-era generation including mine are unable to be separated from any electrical based technology. Listening MP3 while on board, playing iphone games during there is nothing to talk about with friends,facing or surfing internet in front of computer for several hours or vegging out in front of the TV programmes during holidays. Could we say it is detrimental or beneficial?Just like i said>pros and cons. Technology=new era.What actually i want to say is there is big difference between us and the past time people.They are far better than us even though there is no advanced technology. They have better attitude,better principle and better prospection,overall. We are enjoying their drops of perspiration.I m one of the new era,i may be cannot escape from the technology but at least i wish myself have a non-stop learning from people i revere very much and forever. Thanks Mother Teresa leave us the wisdom of life. She makes me touched and realize my narrowed heart and remind me the truth of life. What actually most needed in the world?LOVE.Hunger of love is the most pitiful.Indifference can be melted by love.In Reader's Digest,there is a sentence"Success doesnt create happiness but happiness itself creates success"which drop me in the deep thought, a thought keep asking myself what i really want in my life?No matter what>>Do it anyway.End my movie review with Mother Teresa's poem:

Where there is desperation, there I bring hopes;

Where there is sadness,there I bring joys;

Allowed to console rather than be consoled;

To understand rather than to be understood;

To love rather than to be loved;

Because, giving is receiving;

Because.when it is forgiving then we are forgiven;

It is in dying that we are born eternal life.

"Everything we do is just a drop in the ocean,but if we do not do it, that drop will be missing forever"

Just how kind she is.......

黄梨

（16/7/2011）

今天是做promoter以来最不闷的一次，因为我负责卖黄梨。化身黄梨妹，我的黄梨是越切越美，美到顾客问我可以不可以帮忙切（太棒了，我表面虽是礼貌地婉拒，心里却暗爽到不行，哈哈哈~~~）。黄梨是来自美国的Dole company,可以算是美国的老字号，身长在热带的菲律宾，真的是甜甜酸酸还有多汁又美味，而且每一粒都是品质保证。所以呢，很受欢迎，欢迎到的sample都切完了。同是一粒黄梨，同一种口味，有人吃到眉头紧锁，有人吃到津津有味，“哟，很酸hor..””hmmm…很甜，帮我选一粒”。奇怪，为什么同个味道，就有那么极端的反应。难道味蕾也像看事情一样，角度不同？过后，supervisor才告诉我，其实黄梨每个部分的甜度不同，一些部分会很酸，一些部分会很甜，某些部分酸酸甜甜。。

哦，原来如此。那我们的人生就像今天我推销的黄梨一样〉〉原来人生就像黄梨。

今天很感恩教我切黄梨的kiwi安娣，因为她我才能把黄梨切得美美的，而且也因为她让我很快就适应工作环境。她还蛮漂亮的，老公也蛮帅的，真的很感恩能遇见她：）

明天还要切黄梨~~~加油加油！！！

台湾一点点

10/6/2011

時間過得很快，今天在花蓮慈濟醫院的實習就結束了，明天就開始了我第一次的國外背包旅行。其實在這裡真的學習到很多，很多筆記出現的圖片理論等來到這裡都變成真的，出現在我眼前，也讓我有機會實際實踐一番，真的真的很感恩學長姐的幫助與指導。今天，我送了每一个部門一張卡，雖然不是什麽起眼的卡，但是，我發現學長姐都好高興能夠收到。尤其是門診部的淑珍和京玲學姐她們高興得畫面，我一想到嘴角也會上揚，有時候最美的畫面，用心感受，用眼睛拍下，再儲存在腦裏，回味起來還能夠感覺到當時的感受。相機能夠把瞬間變永恒，但是還是眼睛拍下的畫面最美。用心感受每一个美麗畫面，如果可以真想拍張能打入内心的美麗畫面。其實好想和學長姐一起拍照留念，只是實驗室真的好忙，大家都好認真地工作，真的很不好意思，所以，實習的美麗畫面與記憶就用文字記錄，畫面存在腦海。

榮珍學姐，一位從緬甸到臺灣深造工作的學姐，今天帶我到附近的常春藤吃素食自助餐。真的超好吃的，而且好飽到晚上。她還熱情地買了花蓮著名的麻薯給我們，真的真的很感恩她。也和她談了許多，其中談起了醫療之中的矛盾點。她說醫療那麽先進，的確救了許多的病患，但是救活了過後的生活呢？如果世界沒有矛盾或許我們就不用學習去選擇了吧！！

突然有點捨不得這裡，但是要向前看，積極的生活等著我呢！！！加油加油！！！！

台湾一点点

5-6/6/2011

今天和昨天在精舍幫師傅們晾被單，雖然猛烈的太陽使我們的汗水透濕了我們的藍天白雲，但是心裏卻無比的高興。一個小小的幫忙讓我看見什麽叫做用心。被單的量是多到需要兩天的時間去晾，折與庫存。雖然如此，師傅還是很用心地去清洗每一件被單。從泡制香香的洗衣“漿”（另有加入天然材料以使洗出來的被單更舒服）到用溫度剛剛好的熱水來清洗，每一個步驟都是很用心的。大熱天下晾被單不比農夫來得輕鬆。被單可不是說挂好就算，而是要先挂得好好的（有一定的挂法），再確定所有折処都有拉出來，再來就是要晾得整整齊齊的。曬乾后，就要收，收了也要根據一定的折法折整齊然後曡好，再來就是收進幹淨的袋裏收好。每一個步驟和該用心的地方，師傅們都沒因爲量很多或很累而省略掉。閒中他們有說有笑，也請我們吃了好多東西，就比如堅果，餅乾，香蕉，蜜瓜，咸餅，太陽餅，喜餅，茶，豆干，真的很多，因爲他們肚子與嘴巴還真沒休息過。回去前，還覺得有點依依不捨，“有空多回來喲！”師傅這樣地説道，希望下次的到來不會離現在很久。真心的希望世界因爲這樣一個美麗的慈濟世界而變得越來越美麗：）

台湾一点点

24/6

今天安慰了一位因爲心愛的拖鞋被大海沖走而傷心地在海邊哭的一位小妹妹，希望她的鞋子在海里有個奇妙旅程，也不會傷害到其他海底動物：）

台湾一点点

1/6

LI sharing>Hematology Lab

Xue Jie: How do u differentiate neutrophil,basophil and eaosinophil?

Me:By looking the number of nucleus lobe..

xue jie: wat else?Is it the main character we differentiate it?

Me: By looking at the granule..

Xue jie: what are the key points when we look on microscope? what types of granules in WBC? and how to differentiate each growing stage of respective WBC?

Me: Erm..look at the nucleus, cytoplasm and granule..

Xue jie: What are the things we look for?

Me: Erm..(stuttering)..I m really dunno how to differentiate all those myeloblast, myelocyte and all those young cells.

By observe the slide together using teaching microscope, xue jie points at different stages of cell and teach me how to differentiate them. I juz admire her professional knowledge by being a veteran medical lab technician. It's time for us to improve and upgrade ourselves.

To differentiate there are 4 main points: sizeand shape of cell, nucleus(shape, chromatin structure, nucleoli, dense/loose),Cytoplasm(primary or secondary granules, presence of vacuole),color and marginal shape.

台湾一点点

28/5

精舍之旅2就在今天。不同的的是，今天我们可是早上3.30am(可以说是半夜吗？)和慈济志工人文营的营员一起从静思堂步行到精舍，别有一番体验。一路上看着天空渐渐变亮，青蛙小鸟虫鸣声一路都和我们一起迎接早晨的到来。今天，配合端午节的到来，我们帮师傅们洗粽叶，从早洗到下午，不变的是，我们的肚子和上星期一样，没空过。洗了粽叶之后，就去帮忙插用心烛的芯，一直到下午六点才回到医院。其实，是蛮累的，只不过心理却特别开心，真是美好的一天。每每在精舍看见美丽的风景，就觉得这世界真漂亮~~yeahJ

台湾一点点

27/5

今天很有幸的能够参与慈济大学里的人文课〉静思茶道。首先，要讲的是那里的环境可以美到让人的心情看了就能慢慢沉淀下来，好平静，简单来说就是美到一种平静的境界，慈大的学生真的好幸福，有那么好的学习环境。师姑向我们介绍了茶的种类，拿茶具的方法，茶的历史。更重要的是与我们分享了许多静思语。让我印象深刻的是她告诉我们要时时向父母嘘寒问暖，我好像没做到这点，回家要慢慢练习了。感恩师姑的款待，虽然这里的环境优美，可是希望自己不论到什么地方，心都不因环境改变，继续拥有着这里的优美，而且要把这份美丽与其他人分享，所以要把这里美好的一切都逗留在自己心里。感恩感恩感恩J

台湾一点点

25/5

今天金蓝被我扎了四针，两小两大，可能是因为自己太害怕，一直无法克服自己的心理障碍，还是无法抽血成功。第一次用真空管抽血，觉得真的要很镇定，手不能抖，心不能怕，要勇敢。我发现自己真的是个蛮胆小的人，除非环境所逼，不然，真的需要很大的勇气才会去做一件我没做过的事。怕只会让自己裹足不前，要怎样才能克服呢？可能对自己的自信随着成长的岁月渐渐减退吧。有时就因为什么都不知道所以做事情也没什么顾虑，但，知道得多，顾虑的也多，害怕的心理也不知觉地跟随着。。。真的很谢谢金蓝，她的热心帮助让我既觉得不好意思又觉得自己好渺小，要多多向她学习，要时时保持善念与正念，曾庆蕾要加油呀！！！！

p/s: 经过一番检讨，我发现失败是因为自己不够专心。只要专心去做一件，不要去想如果，不要让害怕让自己退下，就当下用心地去实践，也许心就能专，专了过后，也许事情就不一样了。所以，勇敢的金蓝在星期三鼓励我再试一试抽血，她还有血管可以抽。鼓起勇气，告诉自己什么都别想，就用心地去完成每个步。感恩上天，让我成功了，也许之前的失败是上天要告诉我专心的道理吧！我也鼓励金蓝练习抽我手背的血，她好厉害，都抽得很好。自己很幸运，遇见很好的学习伙伴，祝金蓝国考顺利！！！J

台湾一点点

24/5/2011

今天真的很对不起学姐，好好的整个widal+weil-felix test,在最后关头被我搞砸了。由于没有把eppendorf的量调好，造成dilution 出了问题，可能会影响报告的结果，刚好检体又很少，要重做也不行，啊，真的要多用心呀！！！我不能再粗心下去了！！虽然学姐是说没有关系，可是真的真的很抱歉：<说抱歉也无法做些什么，啊啊~~~~~~学姐，对不起！！！

晚餐认识了两位在慈济大学读医学系的马来西亚侨生（惠玲与凯静），还和一位新加波的朋友心晴一起聊天。感觉很不错，分享了大家在各国的经验，希望大家以后都有美好的前程及保持不变的善心：）

台湾一点点

23/05/2011

今天第一次到精舍去，整個行程讓我内心滿滿地歸來。見到証嚴上人的那一刻，整個人都愣住了。上人真的很慈祥，充滿了慈母的感覺。她對我們說的第一句就是：“要多用心呀，學毉如學佛，祝福你們。”是呀，的確，很多事情用了心就會不一樣。在精舍裏，師傅們都是自力更生，自給自足，而且樣樣精通。不論是粗活，煮菜，起火，種菜，翻土，建屋子，似乎沒有一樣不會，而且不遜色于專業，今天深刻體會什麽叫做“用心就是專業”的道理。我們今天幫忙的工作是下田施肥，翻菜。做農夫真的很不簡單，除了頂著大太陽工作之外，還要長時間彎著腰工作，真的不容易。師伯告訴我們在施肥的時候要對菜說說好話，叫他們快高長大，長得好，讓大家吃了可以有力氣去做善事。雖然有點累，不過真的很開心。師伯師傅們也在休息時請我們吃了好多東西，比如穜子，桂圓糕，橙汁，餅乾，都把我們的肚子塞滿了，雖是留了不少漢，不過肚子一刻都沒空過，真的很感恩他們。在精舍也享用了師傅親自準備的午餐，下午茶與晚餐，他們十分地親切也非常用心。那裏的生活很充實也很純樸，真不歸是心靈的故鄉，自己内心也法喜充滿。真的很開心，一定要把握機會多去幾次：）

台湾一点点

台湾第一天（15/5）

泰哥和大姐姐送我到机场，当时的心情是低落的，因为我想回家多过去台湾。去台湾实习主要是想看看那里和马来西亚有什么不同，去感受一下台湾的风土民情。一到达台北机场就看见师姑师伯拿着名牌等候着我们。师伯还送了我们旅游清洁包为见面礼。载我们到树林火车站的路上，有说有笑。师伯的名字是右璋师伯，师姑则是宝艳师姑。他们真的超级亲切，到了火车站，师伯一个人还帮我们提了两个人的行礼。师姑则为我们准备丰富的晚餐。他们陪我们一起等去花莲的火车，师伯还特别拿了润喉糖给我们，以防喉咙痛。火车来了后，师伯还帮我们提行李上火车找位子。火车还没开跑，师姑师伯就在火车外看着我们直到火车行驶。一切的一切真的很让我感动也非常感恩他们的用心。

火车沿途的风景很漂亮，有点像千与千寻里面千寻搭火车的感觉。一切很平静，除了火车的轨道声，世界是安静的。沿途我们经过大海，绿油油的稻田，稻田上还插着可爱的稻草人，看见稻草人时我是激动的因爲第一次看见稻草人，如果可以还真想站到它旁边留影。

到了医院，住进之前就安排好的宿舍后，林骑脚踏车到超市买东西。。在台湾的第一天就这样过去了。希望实习一切顺利（：