SHE

SHE always stands beside me

SHE always hears my voices

SHE always concerns about me

SHE always touches my heart

SHE always guides me in the darkness

SHE always teaches me life lessons

SHE always knows me

SHE always understands me

SHE always forgives me for whatever I have done

SHE always believes me

SHE always prays for me

There will be no one will greater than SHE

There will be no one whose love greater than SHE

There will be no one who I will always miss

SHE is my grandma,mother and my sisters with a HE inside who is my grandpa,father and my brothers~~

FAMILY ends with I LOVE U:)

Home

Today,I work as an assistant in the Perfect Living and lifestyle exhibition.Looking at the whole branded,glamorous and high classes furniture, home accessories and high-tech home electrical appliances,I ask myself what is the definition of HOME?There are over hundred of thousands people out there just need a shelter above their head in order to have their own house.Hundred of thousands catastrophe victims just hope that they can have a safety place to stay as their home can be protected.What are the things people are pursuing?Materials?Branded life?What is called a better life?When we achieve what we had dreamed,do we feel contented?Do we neglect something or lost in the process?Seeing people buying all the exquisite furniture, I suddenly pop out with a thinking. What is the most important thing in building the dream house?Home,for my definition is where when all family members gather together and sharing life stories each other.A place where the heart belongs disregarding the location.However,I clearly know that this exhibition is only a commercialized business activity.No business,no money,no money the world seem will be ruined as the whole system will be in disorder.As a complication,we cannot help people in needs.

There is a queen sized bed cost RM30000 in the exhibition.It is very comfortable with very good quality. However, a simple Rm100++mattress had made me a snoring pig. A good night sleep is worth than a RM30000 bed. An insomnia can also reduce the RM30000 bed to a RM100++ or even lower price mattress. What we want is actually depending on us. Life is full of ambivalence,I must appreciate all I have and don't let the learning engine stops.Periodic maintenance of the engine is really needed as LIFELONG LEARNING HAS NO ENDS~~~^^

Rojak Language

Not everyone will understand "Rojak" unless Malaysian or the people who have tried it before. However,who can understand the true feeling of "Rojak">>Malaysian I think. We have grown up in a multiracial society since our very first cry.We have made friends with different complexion since our very first stepping into school.We have savored different kinds of cultural foods since our very first cultural celebration.As a result,at least I think,we,Malaysian has a unique character>>Rojak.No matters our languages,attires, foods,things or songs all have been Rojak unconciously. I was conciously felt it when i went to Taiwan for 1 month.Taiwanese has strong Chong Hua characteristics but I have strong Rojak characteristics.There are 2 sides when toppling a coin so as a thing.Malaysian knows at least 3 languages which I think is most advantageous in terms of competitiveness.Malaysian can enjoy wide variety of cultural foods no matters with what cooking arts:broiling,steaming,frying,pickling,roasting or baking with different hidden traditional or mysterious stories from different races and religions.We are blessed with all these colorful and fantastic and miscellaneous mixed cultures.A lot of people think Malaysia is not a very good country to stay but for me the love towards this land had unconciously ingrained in my heart not because of what patriotic reasons but it is a land filled with my childhood memories,my unforgettable growing stories,my beloved family and also my unpredictable future.

Today,I deeply feel disheartening when an uncle who give zero mark for my English proficiency when I do a phone survey with him.Yes,I cannot speak English like the native speakers and there is room of improvement for my English fluency.However,that uncle was juz like an archer who shot hundred thousand arrows into my heart and then there was a translucent bleeding heart in my body.I don't speak professional English but a Chinese-slang English with a lot of la,oh,le,yi. Language has its own grammars,proper pronunciation and structures.Back to the stone age,what is the uses of language>>communication.Language is something influenced by the place,decades,times,cultures and then being one unique symbol of a place or the local people.Therefore,Rojak language has been our Malaysian symbol.Isn't it good?As we are living in this globalization world,the more we can command the better we are.I do not think that Rojak language is something to be ashamed of but a familiar and amiable language especially when speaking in other country.However,our mother earth has became a village,therefore since there is a room for improvement why do we not to improve?Yes,thanks to the uncle as he had lit my ENGLISH FIRE in me,I should let it flares brilliantly.Anyway,I love Rojak language most as it is not only a language but also is a story,a story represents this lovely land.

My secondary teacher once told me that Attitude decides altitude,I am being more and more understand about this precious adage.Yes,shouldn't defeated be any trivial things in life but pass life with optimistic mind, enthusiasm, zest and NO GIVING UP.

Lifelong learning has no ends~~~^^

Listener

Who want to be a listener?What is listener?As an interviewer all these days make me a listener.People pours their dissatisfaction,complaints,different perspective of views,grudging and some their life golden adages to me.Yes,i have been a listener all these days. It needs wisdom to digest all the things people told u. There were 2 uncles in their twilight age share their political views with me and then i was confused.But,that confusion has been removed after i watch a video of Namewee. There was a uncle told me not to believe people 100%,sound true,but make me confused again as trust is a bond in a relationship.Then my instinct tells me times will let me understand the definition of trust.Problems cannot be resolved by just listening but action did. However,listening can make feeling better as there is a place for us to release all the pent up emotions. In this technology based era, disregard what generation X,Y,Z or the newest generation Alpha cannot escape from the internet and the influential social network. One of the human rights:Freedom of expression makes the social network a great tool. All these accessibility make us a speaker.We want to be more understood.We want more listeners from the corners around the world.Then it needs more and more rationality to sift through all the views."What is apparent, however, is that we all wish to be heard but we may not be so keen to listen. "copied from an article from The Star drops me in deep thought.My family is always my great listener.They give me full attention when i was spitting out my bulging moaning and dissatisfaction and fully understanding my feeling.It is so comfortable when i spitted out all that things. Sure,we cannot just give others our upsets but sharing is also utmost important in a conversation as we can learn from each others'daily lives and golden experience.Moral values：it needs wisdom to be a listener: As a listener full attention and empathy are so important as the speaker can feel the sincerity of the listener. Wisdom is superb needed as we need to be not influenced by others'sentimental emotions and give supportive and positive words in time.Yes,it needs wisdom to be a listener especially when listen to people's problems everyday.However, thanks to the clients who share their life experiences and views with me.Sometimes,simple words can have a great impact in life. A client told me:"U know,simple 5 minutes can actually touch a person for whole life if u do a thing for the person with full sincerity at that moment.In terms of work,it can be achieved if only u have high enthusiasm in ur work."Yes,simple acts can touch people as long as it is fully dedicated at that moment.

Here attach a photo which i took with a bus driver whose name is Jananegah. He has been a bus driver since 1989.He is responsible. Why i know him?Because of a Prasarana project which needs intervewer to do survey on buses and this uncle really helps me a lot. He told me a lot of information about the passengers, each location of the bus routes and also accompanied me to wait another coming bus as he said he was worrying me to wait alone in the bus stop.He said he has the obligation to ensure the passengers'safety.Ya,simple acts can move as long as it is sincere and true..Really thanks..

Lifelong learning has no ends~~~^^

回家

回家
08/11/2011
回家不过三天，匆匆地，转眼间又回到了这熟悉又陌生的吉隆坡。
终有多不愿意回到这里，还是得为了前途又离家而去。
妈妈一早就煮了她的拿手好菜》素鸡油饭，好让我可以带在路上。
昨天的晚上还和二姐与妈妈到TESCO购物。
二姐买了TOMYAM酱给我，拿了一罐豆奶粉还有一包素料给我。
我们逛完后就去妈妈介绍的cafe吃着美味的素马来炒面。
每次回去二姐与妈妈都会做同样的东西。
回家的次数五根手指都算得到，坐在巴士站的时候就开始舍不得了。
也许我的人生里，这样的情景会有改变的一天。
时间就像个魔术师，不知不觉地，可以把很多东西改变。
自己能做的，也就只有两个字》珍惜。

榴莲飘香的季节

应该是去年随手有感而发写的吧~~


这个水果不是人人爱吃，它的味道也不是人人能顶得住，也不是人人喜爱。
如果有一天，榴莲变成了像星巴克那样的品牌，或许，因他而皱起眉头的人也会想去试试吧！
从来都不觉得有买榴莲的需要，因为季节一到家里就会有它的出现。
去了吉隆坡求学，打工时才发现原来好的榴莲，价格不算便宜。
榴莲的颜色有不同深浅的黄，有像黄金一样的黄，像月亮一样的黄。味道也不能说一样，有很甜的，有很苦的，也有甜苦味道的又或者淡水味的。不是榴莲的超级粉丝，但是看到它就自然会有想去吃它的感觉。
爸爸一直要知道学校的开学日期，趁放假时，可以拿多点榴莲回家。
没和爸爸一起到园里拾榴莲，但是口里吃的那些榴莲自己知道得来不易。
从买下土地的血汗钱，计划要如何种植，种些什么再到树的成长，一直到口中咬下的果实，那是一个需要多么长的一个过程。

爸爸说很多人到园里去偷榴莲：

我：huh？那要怎样办？
爸：还好园里有几只狗看着，不然一粒都吃不到。
我：那要怎样不要给人进来偷榴莲？
爸：除非住在园里，不然就请人看咯！请一个人要RMxx，一个月就RMxx，我们家也是随便种，多才拿去卖，不用紧啦。
我：哦~~~

其实，不是心疼榴莲被人吃掉。只是，简单的交谈，自己的心却被感动了。我顿时珍惜口中的榴莲，因为知道它得来不易，不是顺手就有的东西。
它是前人留下汗水的果实，当然还包括所有在园里的其他水果。

所以，榴莲对自己来说不是一种水果，而是一份在心里的感觉，与家人的回忆。也许是因为，榴莲自小就出现在自己成长记忆里的关系吧！！

Stories are in the life

Just watching a 1-second video clip"Move",it is very creative and also motivated which remind me the bright side of an ordinary day. All the stories in the world hide in our daily lives. All the great ideas,creativeness,admiring works are coming from our routine,seemed tedious and stereotyping lives.Yes,everything has the bright sides.Dull days can create great story with our shining eyes.I should draw all the little pic in my mind out and linked to be a story.While doing my survey on the guest satisfaction level about the rapid KL bus service,i met with people from all walks of life. Some were really helpful but some are really difficult to be approached.Some gave me the expression of suspicion.Frankly to say,i was reluctant to approach everyone of them.However,this is my job and i need to accomplish my duties as soon as possible.Yes,yellow light shines on my head. May be i can be a watcher or viewer to watch the live and keep going movie in hustle and bustle KL.I can make the tedious things into a thrilling and interesting stories by my creative and optimistic mind.Yes,i shouldnt fell by the dullness but turn it over into liveness. When people were sitting on the bus looking the scenery along the journey, they told me "I m busy" ,it is quite sarcastic but let it be.When people were reading the newspapers they told me"I dun hv time",juz let it go by a smiling.When people gave a squinting,juz look back with a smiling eyes.Everything will be nicer with a little bit of creativeness,happiness and craziness:)

(Guy travels the world and shoots one second of footage in each location)

Mother of Calcutta

I was unable to describe the feeling of reverence and how deep my admiration toward a thoroughly selfless Mother. Who can really understand your miseries?Who can fully feel your overwhelming joys?Who can sense your pain as like theirs?In my perception there is no one unless our parents or only ourselves.People may be feeling sad 10% while the level of sadness inside the heart is actually 100%.After savoring the movie,"Mother of Calcutta",my heart was crying and my eyes were wiping with tears.Mother Teresa whom i said was the Mother of Great Love.She can feel the pain,loneliness,suffering of the destitute, the unfortunate as hers.She can fully feel it as if like hers. How a human being or an ordinary woman with a small body can have a love like the ocean?Her devotion to the poorest is beyond anything anything which can be described. Wordless.I feel i m only her 0.0000001%.I m easily annoyed by people inappropriate deeds or acts which I perceive as "shudnt","couldnt",or "nt good". However, in the poem of Mother Teresa "Do it anyway",she said "People are always unreasonable,illogical,self-centered,forgive them anyway;What you spend years building,someone could destroy:built it anyway",remind me to have an opened heart and to be stronger. There is nothing is unbalance. Everything seems is having two sides>pros and cons,causes and happenings. Facing anything with brave,faithfulness,joyousness. Working part time during these days i found that our so called new-era generation including mine are unable to be separated from any electrical based technology. Listening MP3 while on board, playing iphone games during there is nothing to talk about with friends,facing or surfing internet in front of computer for several hours or vegging out in front of the TV programmes during holidays. Could we say it is detrimental or beneficial?Just like i said>pros and cons. Technology=new era.What actually i want to say is there is big difference between us and the past time people.They are far better than us even though there is no advanced technology. They have better attitude,better principle and better prospection,overall. We are enjoying their drops of perspiration.I m one of the new era,i may be cannot escape from the technology but at least i wish myself have a non-stop learning from people i revere very much and forever. Thanks Mother Teresa leave us the wisdom of life. She makes me touched and realize my narrowed heart and remind me the truth of life. What actually most needed in the world?LOVE.Hunger of love is the most pitiful.Indifference can be melted by love.In Reader's Digest,there is a sentence"Success doesnt create happiness but happiness itself creates success"which drop me in the deep thought, a thought keep asking myself what i really want in my life?No matter what>>Do it anyway.End my movie review with Mother Teresa's poem:

Where there is desperation, there I bring hopes;

Where there is sadness,there I bring joys;

Allowed to console rather than be consoled;

To understand rather than to be understood;

To love rather than to be loved;

Because, giving is receiving;

Because.when it is forgiving then we are forgiven;

It is in dying that we are born eternal life.

"Everything we do is just a drop in the ocean,but if we do not do it, that drop will be missing forever"

Just how kind she is.......