Great Tzu Ching Reunion Dinner

It has been a long time,Tzu Ching in UKMB are never to be gathered and having a warm reunion dinner. I am touched during the sharing session. Time really flies. I had been a Tzu Ching for almost 4 years. Looking the new bloods in passing on the board as if looking myself in the past. The uncertain face to take the responsibilities. However,only the hardship can bring unforgettable memories;only the hardship can make the bond unbreakable. Ups and downs fulfill my life with iridescent colors. Today, I am just too happy seeing new bloods come in. Omg,they are just too great. Like what my friend always said there is a trend of juniors showing less interest in joining activities instead of shopping, watching TV or movies and keep saying busy studying with a lot of assignments to be completed. Nothing is wrong and this is respective chosen lives in university. Nonetheless, all those new bloods are just experts and earning my admiring eyes and smiling face to them. They are not only joining but also bearing the responsibilities with an opened-heart without forces or any persuasion.As all, they are believing themselves though with a little bit of uncertainty. When we believe something, then only the thing can become true. As a senior, I will accompany them and give them encouragement for letting them having 100% confidence for themselves!!!Bravo!!Juniors!!Gambateh!!

Me, I must believe in myself as well. Come on,KinLuoi!!!Keeping things up up up!!!!

Today, I sing a song.

Today, I sing a song.
A song makes me think of u again.
Again, I miss u.
Miss u in no ends.

Today, I sing a song.
A song which I sing my heart out.
Out of my expectation, I nearly weep my eyes with tears.
Tears do not roll down my face.
Face to the future, but u will still live inside part of my minds.

Today, I sing a song.
A song is similar with my feeling.
My feeling is close to you.
To you, I will live my life bright.
Life will bright with u inside my heart.

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每一次一个大学学年的结束自己都会做个总结。第三年没来得及写，一晃就连第四年的第一学期也结束。
这篇不想带任何目的地写，没有英文没有优美句子，就想什么写什么。
谁还记得一年半里的事那么仔细呢？

第三年，因为把考试题目抄在exam slip（就为了让学弟妹有past year),被逼重考，罚款，留下不美的历史。
这件事，我做在lrt上面来回几百次，眼泪流到不懂几时停。上诉的信还要求高教部秘书帮忙检查，心力憔悴。其实最怕的也不过是怕影响奖学金。全家人很担心。。我的情绪。朋友也很担心。整件事的结果没有任何改变，每一条惩罚我都中。
事过迁境，觉得自己把事情看得太大太夸张，也只不过是件小事。每件事的发生都有原因还有上天要教我们的东西。我能够体会重考的难受，我知道身边有太多贵人，有很多疼惜我的人，我知道不完美里的完美，我知道每一样人和事我都要感恩。谢谢大学的惩罚，它让我知道做事要谨慎，让我体会无奈冤枉的感觉，当时刚好是赵明福案件重审，感觉社会的黑暗。一切都要感恩。

第一年一直到现在，唯一不变的是我还是活动活跃份子。环保，办大大小小的生活营，参大大小小的生活营，茶会，看学弟妹办活动。升学里，每次和一群昔日战友在那里暗自担心学弟妹的活动，还开什么改革大会啦，吵来吵去，酸来酸去。都退休了，我们依然热血到现在。慈青，没有退休天，因为把善事把好的种子撒开来是不能停下的，这个社会生病得太严重了，治疗是无法停止的。

第三年，疯狂打工，也增加了我的经验。promoter,卖过hotlinkpackage,巧克力（卖这个最爽了），ovaltine,黄梨，派samples.电话接线员，surveyor,face to face surveyor,家具展工作人员，cholesterol conductor,帮astro在小太阳顾小孩,都在这一年。。。

第三年，出国两次北京与台湾，那时有点象空中飞人，飞来飞去。在台湾住了一个多月，体验了地道华人生活，也体验背包旅行的真谛。值得骄傲的是，一分一毛都没和爸妈拿，他们坚持给，我坚持拒绝，叫他们相信我有追求自己要的东西的能力，不要担心，起码自己坚守了自己的原则。爸爸每次都怕我没钱用，我很感动，希望他更舍得把钱花在自己身上。
第三年，看到朋友们之间的争执，看见利益的冲突，提醒自己不要犯别人的错。没有对与错，但要懂得分对与错，目前就这样觉得，太多事无法掌控，每个人的生命功课都不同。

第四年，最离不开的也不就是论文，但活动还是离不开我。1月1号带着姐姐妈妈去岁末祝福，真的是好有意义的开始。

2012的开始，我得知慈幼的其中一位工委逝世，考完试的昨天，得知朋友的爸爸逝世。死亡是生命中的一部分，却不知道何时来袭。生命的每一刻都太化学了。祝福他们。从小就懂什么是死亡，面对失去亲人的痛会渐渐转换为思念，而这份思念不会因为时间而淡却，因为就像Mitch Albom "Tuesdays with Morrie"里说的“Death ends a life but not a relationship".我一直都很怀念阿公阿嬷，一闪而过这一篇是想到你们而写的，我真的有遗憾。所以，把握珍惜身边的每一个人，尤其是家人，这点我要好好和二姐学习。

那天去interview当part time tutor,interviewer 问我After graduation,what would u do?"If u really want to know the answer,it is I dunno".他大概会摇头到不行然后想”What’s the young people thinking now?"还好我的履历很美，他说“U are once a top student!!It is good!!"其实，殊不知我突然对我所得到的苹果突然觉得没什么意义，给我意义的也不就是完美中的不完美。那些苹果说到底也有些用啦，没有太绝对的东西。有得必有失。

我不知道以后会做什么，但却不渺茫，因为我了解知道自己，就这样。
爱情在我的故事里有一点点那些年，却在大学里空白，因为我不知道谁可以住进我的心，没有太多心思，突然会在意，也只是想到不想妈妈以后担心自己。实在是没有遇见，真的没办法，不过我有很多事想做，希望我以后真的可以好好贡献这个养育我的社会，帮它治病。

接下来，我要在课业活动上好好加油，让这四年的大学有个亮亮的句号。*Blink Blink*
觉得这一篇可以以这首歌结束。。我太喜欢孙燕姿~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~的歌啦！！！
接下来~~~~~~~~~

Devil versus Angel

Yes, in each of us there are a devil and angel living in our soul who always fight and having quarrels over everything. Nonetheless, who is more persuasive? Will the angel bleed as it always devotes itself?Will it be hurt by the malicious devil?Will the world turns it into devil?The answer is individual.

On the flip side, will the devil tired of being grim?Will the devil be changed by the gracious angel?What is the story behind the devil?Will the world heal devil with love?

My devil and angel are enemy.They are never congenial in the same things. This is their nature. As if they can only survive in me with their feud. Therefore, I appreciate both of them as they let me have different angles of perspective on matters in life.

Who wins?Who loses?There is a reason behind.
Nothing is right or wrong because everything happens for a reason.
However,right and wrong should be discernible in order to lead me to the wellness of life.

Come on!!Smiles to the world:)