USMLE is approaching. Nervous is ordinary. Calmness should be worried.
I don't want to have academic bulimia. I don't want to just study for exam.
As I walk longer in the pathway, I scared I forget the the very first reason of my determination of studying medicine.
Looking all the patients who came in and shared their illness with us in the class, the courtesy is beyond return.
I scared, as I walk longer in the pathway, I forget to treat a patient as a whole.
I scared, I cannot reason out the patient's chief complaint.
I scared, I forget all the physiology and basic science which is the medicine very important fundamentals.
I scared, I cannot be a good doctor.
Yes, I am scared.
As I run alone in a half marathon in March. I felt bored.
I suddenly cannot enjoy the running feel, the feel which people around run together with you.
I ended up following a very old man all the way until 20 km.
He was determined. Keep looking at his watch. Trying to reach the finishing line within the targeted time.
I tried to get the running spirit from him.
He was the only motivation in my run.
Days in, days out. There are some times we suddenly forget to think.
I don't want to be a live machine.
So, balance is important:
Nervous vs calmness
Exam vs study for knowledge
Fear vs courage
Working hard vs resting
Pause. Stopping for awhile and starting again refreshingly!
Go!Kin Luoi!
