All the quotes below are from "How Doctors Think" by Jerome Groopman. This book took me 6 months to finish reading and digest it. Just want to jot down some sentences which catch my eyes while reading. Hoping that I manage to read other books which soothe my mind and give me a sense of tranquility inside.
Here are the following sentences copied:
The great danger is that you stop caring. The goal of each day and each night was simply to clear the desks, rather than to deliberately and expertly care for those who needed care and reassure those who did not.
The hardest thing about being a doctor is that you learn best from your mistakes, mistakes made on living people.
Most errors are mistakes in thinking. and part of what causes these cognitive errors is our inner feelings, feelings we do not readily admit to and often don't even recognize.
The perfect is the enemy of good.
If he recommends a procedure,patients can ask why,what might be found,with what probability, and , importantly, how much difference it will make to find it. Some physician will be uneasy, some even angry because they may not have all the answers. Others will take the time and clearly respond to these simple, direct, reasonable questions.The kind of respond illuminates how much the doctor really knows about your case, and how much still needs to be discovered.
Just because you can't treat someone any longer for his cancer doesn't mean that you stop treating him. In fact, it is at this stage that treatment can be most challenging, how to balance therapy with medications to control pain without so narcotizing a person that he is unaware of his surroundings and unable to communicate with loved ones;how to give words of comfort while speaking the truth, acknowledging that while end is approaching, the person can still make a difference in the lives of others.
I do not know how true is it as I have not gone through my clinical years but it makes sense at certain point.
Just don't forget to have FUN!!Go go fighting!!
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
Saturday, October 5, 2013
Chapter 2
The new chapter starts with a neurological whirlwind. I go deep into the brain, tour around this mysterious place by knowing their new names and how does the brain communicate "intrabrainally" and with the outside world. It's complicated but it's fun to learn at the same time.
Other than meeting with excellent, dedicated and professional Dr Mary Anne, Dr Mary Blue, Dr Ryugo and Dr Nicoline (They are really putting a lot of efforts to make the learning materials the best), the best part of the module is always to meet with the patient who has related disease that we learn. Today patient, Mr Poon was diagnosed with Parkinson disease in 2006. A Parkinson disease patient always has difficulty in initiating movements, problems in muscle tone, resting tremor and the disease is always progressive. The treatment is always complicated and hard to find a balance between the benefits and its side effects. I feel very grateful to Mr Poon and also his wife Mrs Poon. With physically inconvenience they are still willing to come to our school so that we can have a chance to get contact with real patient and learn better in understanding the presentation of the disease. It's really valuable for us and I thank them from the bottom of my heart. Not everyone is willing to sacrifice their time for other people.
The whole learning process proceeds very well, we can clearly observe the clinical presentation of parkinson disease and get the detailed medical history from Mr Poon and also his wife. We are able to understand the word "rigidity" by feeling the muscle tone. It's not easy to confront with a group of students who surround you, asking you questions, observing you while you are having a chronic disease with physical changes and emotionally unstable. But, Mr Poon who still comes with the intention that we can learn something and contribute well in the future medicine. According to her wife, he is actually emotionally unstable and may be under depression. Dr Nicoline also told us that his condition had become worse if compared with last year when she saw him.
End of the session, Mr Poon asks Dr Nicoline when does the new drug comes out and cure the disease." My colleagues will contribute their whole life to find the solution, we will always try our very best to help you". By hearing this answer, Mr Poon leaves the class with teary eyes. His wife is strong to take care of him alone. That's the power of love.
I feel really helpless but at the same time I told myself no matter what we must work hard together. In this world, at some point, we are all connected. I hope that with all the gifts given by all the generous people to me, I can contribute back to the society to help people as a way to show my appreciation.
Other than the detrimental effects of Parkinson disease brought to Mr Poon, I see the Power of LOVE today that his wife dedicates to him. I see how strong Mr Poon is, I see his generosity to help a group of medical students to learn better, he teaches me that always give something to people no matter in what kinds of situation. Thank you and thank you.
Patient is always the strong encouragement for me to keep going and to be more positive towards life.
Our body is unpredictable.
Love life.
GoGo KinLuoi!!!
Other than meeting with excellent, dedicated and professional Dr Mary Anne, Dr Mary Blue, Dr Ryugo and Dr Nicoline (They are really putting a lot of efforts to make the learning materials the best), the best part of the module is always to meet with the patient who has related disease that we learn. Today patient, Mr Poon was diagnosed with Parkinson disease in 2006. A Parkinson disease patient always has difficulty in initiating movements, problems in muscle tone, resting tremor and the disease is always progressive. The treatment is always complicated and hard to find a balance between the benefits and its side effects. I feel very grateful to Mr Poon and also his wife Mrs Poon. With physically inconvenience they are still willing to come to our school so that we can have a chance to get contact with real patient and learn better in understanding the presentation of the disease. It's really valuable for us and I thank them from the bottom of my heart. Not everyone is willing to sacrifice their time for other people.
The whole learning process proceeds very well, we can clearly observe the clinical presentation of parkinson disease and get the detailed medical history from Mr Poon and also his wife. We are able to understand the word "rigidity" by feeling the muscle tone. It's not easy to confront with a group of students who surround you, asking you questions, observing you while you are having a chronic disease with physical changes and emotionally unstable. But, Mr Poon who still comes with the intention that we can learn something and contribute well in the future medicine. According to her wife, he is actually emotionally unstable and may be under depression. Dr Nicoline also told us that his condition had become worse if compared with last year when she saw him.
End of the session, Mr Poon asks Dr Nicoline when does the new drug comes out and cure the disease." My colleagues will contribute their whole life to find the solution, we will always try our very best to help you". By hearing this answer, Mr Poon leaves the class with teary eyes. His wife is strong to take care of him alone. That's the power of love.
I feel really helpless but at the same time I told myself no matter what we must work hard together. In this world, at some point, we are all connected. I hope that with all the gifts given by all the generous people to me, I can contribute back to the society to help people as a way to show my appreciation.
Other than the detrimental effects of Parkinson disease brought to Mr Poon, I see the Power of LOVE today that his wife dedicates to him. I see how strong Mr Poon is, I see his generosity to help a group of medical students to learn better, he teaches me that always give something to people no matter in what kinds of situation. Thank you and thank you.
Patient is always the strong encouragement for me to keep going and to be more positive towards life.
Our body is unpredictable.
Love life.
GoGo KinLuoi!!!
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
Chapter 1.4
The year end holidays start with Dr Patrick farewell dinner. The night was wonderful with delicious foods, meeting with new faculty members and a touching farewell speech by Dr Patrick. Being grateful and keep going are the essence of his saying.
What I had been waiting for a long time was the Sabah trip which we had planned for a year ago. It has been a year I didn't meet my best gang in UKM. We are so close like a family, no secrets in between and can just be irrationally crazy in front of each other. We recounts the days of after graduation, sharing the tears in their first year real-life job experience, encouraging each other, giving suggestion and opinion. Taking thousand of photos within the 5 days trip. Enjoying Sabah refreshing air, non-stop talking in this 5-days journey and now I am looking forward our next year annual gathering trip!!!I miss my friends so much!!
Went back home during Raya. Drowned by family love every time I go back. Finding that my cute little nieces and nephews become taller and taller. They are simply adorable. Helping my sister to do some mural art works at her school. Meeting with my primary school teachers. The moment was great while focus painting the wall without realising the dark sky was already outside.
Doing my summer research project at Hospital UM. Working with Linda and Jintong was wonderful. Dr Patti, my supervisor for the project once wrote in the email: the best part of the experience is to see the complexity of starting a research, I will always help you to complete your project don't worry. This is the first time I feel research is useful. Though Dr Patti is on the other side of hemisphere, she taught me the significance of a research, writing proposal and IRB review and things to consider when starting a research. Meeting a lot of new faces in the hospitals with different backgrounds, talking with generous patients who agree to take part in the study, observing how hectic in the clinic. Communication between people is superb important. A lot are ahead of me to learn!!!! Patience is something very much needed in doing the research, and waiting is the routine for any administration.
Taking part in an inter-varsity physiology quiz with 400 medical students from 20 countries in Asia. It's a nice experience.
Olivia, my niece turns into 1 year old. We had a simple celebration, eating steamboat, cake and singing happy birthday to her. Wishing her grow up happily and keep healthy.
I meet with a person who are in the deep shit owing a huge amount of money, listen to different stories about that person. No matter what, learn something from the story.
Feeling sucks as the holidays approach to the end. Balancing myself to have a good start for my second year.
Go!KinLuoi!!!
What I had been waiting for a long time was the Sabah trip which we had planned for a year ago. It has been a year I didn't meet my best gang in UKM. We are so close like a family, no secrets in between and can just be irrationally crazy in front of each other. We recounts the days of after graduation, sharing the tears in their first year real-life job experience, encouraging each other, giving suggestion and opinion. Taking thousand of photos within the 5 days trip. Enjoying Sabah refreshing air, non-stop talking in this 5-days journey and now I am looking forward our next year annual gathering trip!!!I miss my friends so much!!
Went back home during Raya. Drowned by family love every time I go back. Finding that my cute little nieces and nephews become taller and taller. They are simply adorable. Helping my sister to do some mural art works at her school. Meeting with my primary school teachers. The moment was great while focus painting the wall without realising the dark sky was already outside.
Doing my summer research project at Hospital UM. Working with Linda and Jintong was wonderful. Dr Patti, my supervisor for the project once wrote in the email: the best part of the experience is to see the complexity of starting a research, I will always help you to complete your project don't worry. This is the first time I feel research is useful. Though Dr Patti is on the other side of hemisphere, she taught me the significance of a research, writing proposal and IRB review and things to consider when starting a research. Meeting a lot of new faces in the hospitals with different backgrounds, talking with generous patients who agree to take part in the study, observing how hectic in the clinic. Communication between people is superb important. A lot are ahead of me to learn!!!! Patience is something very much needed in doing the research, and waiting is the routine for any administration.
Taking part in an inter-varsity physiology quiz with 400 medical students from 20 countries in Asia. It's a nice experience.
Olivia, my niece turns into 1 year old. We had a simple celebration, eating steamboat, cake and singing happy birthday to her. Wishing her grow up happily and keep healthy.
I meet with a person who are in the deep shit owing a huge amount of money, listen to different stories about that person. No matter what, learn something from the story.
Feeling sucks as the holidays approach to the end. Balancing myself to have a good start for my second year.
Go!KinLuoi!!!
Thursday, June 13, 2013
Chapter 1.3
Yeah, the great thing for today is I finished my Nephrology block and welcome the medical history for tomorrow and the first two days of next week. I am not satisfied with my test scores and feeling sorry for the dedicated lecturers Dr Jeff and Dr John (I think they don't mind as long as I know where are my mistakes,hehe :) By the way, I know medicine is such a long way to go through. By going through the road, pieces of pieces of medical myths will be put together and may be I can find a new piece. As many of the lecturers said we need to have a strong basic in order to take good care of our future patients. So, Dear Future Patients, before meeting you all, I will brush up my medical fundamentals.
2nd great thing of today is meeting my bestie, Yoke Peng. We are so blessed as we are realizing our dreams and doing the things we like. Great to have her and lend me her ears.
Dr John sends us an email which warms my heart and like a charger that let me to move on more energetically. Dr Jeff and Dr John are such inspiring lecturers. Friendly, humble, professional, dedicated are all the characteristics of all the visiting lecturers. Love all of them!! I am so blessed to be taught by them.
Our Pugsom annual dinner will be held on next Friday. Hope everything will go smoothly and have a fun night. I am one of the members in choir team for performance hoping that we can sing well.What happens is always for the best. I believe God has her own reasons for me to meet with certain people and face some problems for just to have a better me.
Our seniors finish their USMLE Step 1 today.Congratzzz to them and the next year of now will be my turn.
OK, Life goes on~~
Today's golden adage of mine: Don't forget to have FUN along the way of life :))))
2nd great thing of today is meeting my bestie, Yoke Peng. We are so blessed as we are realizing our dreams and doing the things we like. Great to have her and lend me her ears.
Dr John sends us an email which warms my heart and like a charger that let me to move on more energetically. Dr Jeff and Dr John are such inspiring lecturers. Friendly, humble, professional, dedicated are all the characteristics of all the visiting lecturers. Love all of them!! I am so blessed to be taught by them.
Our Pugsom annual dinner will be held on next Friday. Hope everything will go smoothly and have a fun night. I am one of the members in choir team for performance hoping that we can sing well.What happens is always for the best. I believe God has her own reasons for me to meet with certain people and face some problems for just to have a better me.
Our seniors finish their USMLE Step 1 today.Congratzzz to them and the next year of now will be my turn.
OK, Life goes on~~
Today's golden adage of mine: Don't forget to have FUN along the way of life :))))
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
Chapter 1.2 Darkness
Malaysia GE 13 ended with the darkest sky. Phantom voters which was an unspeakable truth as my family members witnessed it and my friends were ghostbusters.I watched in front of the television that the parliament seats won by BN bounced up within several minutes. Something is wrong. Some people argued the truth about electricity shortage. With all the proven videos and photos posted by the united citizens, I believed there were cheating in our GE 13. I am very disappointed. May be in the politic world, there is no such thing called "clean" which not only happen in Malaysia. But, if we give in to this "dirty norm", there will be no hopes, no one will stand up to fight against for the right,truth and justice.
I felt very sad for all the foreign workers who were being used as political tools by all the greed-blinded politicians. Humanity is trampled down in this election. Again, the less fortune group are punched heavily by the power and money. Millions of people just want to have a simple life, proper meals and steady jobs. When a country is corrupted, the people suffer. I am blessed as I grow up in this country and therefore I want it to be better. And this is the reason I felt angry when I know that democracy is stolen in this GE. Why do we concern about who will be the country future leader?Because we all want Malaysia to be better. We love our country by not being proud of it but by criticizing it. We want to change it to a much better country than the others.
Many people told me that the world is materialistic. The right things don't always get justice. Less people want to stand up for justice because the price to pay is too costly. Look at how long all the venerable great man in the history took to fight for humanity,justice and the right things. It's not easy to be a superman. I do not care how dark or how realistic the world is, at least, I do not want my world to be dark and I strongly believe that light will be shone through as long as we never give up and always hope for the better. Just we need to work harder to make it better.
I may miss the 508 gathering due to transport problem,but thanks God I can felt the strong will of change in Malaysian. Hope everything will be fine.
Last,don't lose hope no matter what happens.
I felt very sad for all the foreign workers who were being used as political tools by all the greed-blinded politicians. Humanity is trampled down in this election. Again, the less fortune group are punched heavily by the power and money. Millions of people just want to have a simple life, proper meals and steady jobs. When a country is corrupted, the people suffer. I am blessed as I grow up in this country and therefore I want it to be better. And this is the reason I felt angry when I know that democracy is stolen in this GE. Why do we concern about who will be the country future leader?Because we all want Malaysia to be better. We love our country by not being proud of it but by criticizing it. We want to change it to a much better country than the others.
Many people told me that the world is materialistic. The right things don't always get justice. Less people want to stand up for justice because the price to pay is too costly. Look at how long all the venerable great man in the history took to fight for humanity,justice and the right things. It's not easy to be a superman. I do not care how dark or how realistic the world is, at least, I do not want my world to be dark and I strongly believe that light will be shone through as long as we never give up and always hope for the better. Just we need to work harder to make it better.
I may miss the 508 gathering due to transport problem,but thanks God I can felt the strong will of change in Malaysian. Hope everything will be fine.
Last,don't lose hope no matter what happens.
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Chapter 1.1
Just want to write something out while busy with the GTS syllabus.
It's privileged to meet wonderful people in my clinic attachment especially Mr Moses who is blind. He is inspiring and teaches me that Dr-patient relationship is in an equilibrium, we need each other to help each other.
It's really honoured to meet with wonderful professors as I like everyone of them. They are dedicated in teaching and set up as an excellent role model. (I like some of them more than others hehe）
It's relaxing to sing and play guitar together. Just need to squeeze out some time to practice.
I am blessed as I can do anything I plan to do.
Going back home last holiday. Mum looked older. She told me a lot of her worries, her plans and her expectation on us. She is the most wonderful woman. It's unbearable to see her worrying face. If we need to learn how to give, I think how to accept is also something we need to learn.By the way, I love my family so much. Hoping my plan to travel with mum for the 2nd time will be better and fix her schedule.
Going to vote for my very first time in my life on 5/5. It's thrilling and exciting. Hoping for a better Malaysia.
Knowing some of my friends are striving hard to get the chance to study medicine. They are persevere in pursuing their dreams. Always wish them the best.
Missing my good friends very much!!!!!!Hope them do well wherever they are.
Appreciate whatever we have and thanks for everything.
OK. Life goes on.
It's privileged to meet wonderful people in my clinic attachment especially Mr Moses who is blind. He is inspiring and teaches me that Dr-patient relationship is in an equilibrium, we need each other to help each other.
It's really honoured to meet with wonderful professors as I like everyone of them. They are dedicated in teaching and set up as an excellent role model. (I like some of them more than others hehe）
It's relaxing to sing and play guitar together. Just need to squeeze out some time to practice.
I am blessed as I can do anything I plan to do.
Going back home last holiday. Mum looked older. She told me a lot of her worries, her plans and her expectation on us. She is the most wonderful woman. It's unbearable to see her worrying face. If we need to learn how to give, I think how to accept is also something we need to learn.By the way, I love my family so much. Hoping my plan to travel with mum for the 2nd time will be better and fix her schedule.
Going to vote for my very first time in my life on 5/5. It's thrilling and exciting. Hoping for a better Malaysia.
Knowing some of my friends are striving hard to get the chance to study medicine. They are persevere in pursuing their dreams. Always wish them the best.
Missing my good friends very much!!!!!!Hope them do well wherever they are.
Appreciate whatever we have and thanks for everything.
OK. Life goes on.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Chapter 1
It may be difficult to have some time to record my lives. Can I say i don't have time?Certainly not as I can still have time to watch some movies. It may be more appropriate to say that I would rather to have a rest than doing anythings. Today's touching sharing from 2 HIV patients for the in-campus LC session inspires me to jot it down. I want to remember my feelings while listening to their stories and Dr. Chris's presentation about HIV in Malaysia.
It attracted my attention when Dr Chris used "friend" instead of "patient" to invite them to share their stories. It felt warm! One of them get the virus through her husband as her husband was a drug user and passed away few years ago. Most of her family members were stayed away from her when she was in the lowest tide in her life and her mother tried to isolate her daughter thinking that can avoid her from transmitting the bugs to the others. She had been treated so badly in the hospital, being told to have died soon and being discriminated. After getting through all the obstacles and helps from her brother, she is now the part of the HIV peer supportive group in a hospital. Another guy who said he was tested HIV positive in 1990. He was a hoodlum before and did everything which was evil like abusing drugs and fighting. However, he turned over a new leaf and opened shelter homes for those who had no places to go when tested positive for HIV. He involves in a lot of campaign to create awareness among public about HIV to stop the HIV stigma.
He told us: We cannot just receiving but we should also start to give. I heard this phrase a lot of time before, but it's just so touching when I heard it from this man. "31 of you are very important to me because you all are the future doctors. " These words are just like the booster for me to work harder!!!
Dr Chris shared his experience with us and he told us that treating HIV changes his ways of looking at things differently.
One of my coursemates asked the patients what are the things or questions are sensitive to them. They said it's better to not ask them how's they get the HIV as they had had the disease and there is no use to know the reasons.
Don't label and Don't judge people.
We do not know what others have gone through in their life. Stop grudging, stop complaining and start giving.
Do the right thing in the moment and move towards to the right direction.
Thanks for everything!!!!!
It attracted my attention when Dr Chris used "friend" instead of "patient" to invite them to share their stories. It felt warm! One of them get the virus through her husband as her husband was a drug user and passed away few years ago. Most of her family members were stayed away from her when she was in the lowest tide in her life and her mother tried to isolate her daughter thinking that can avoid her from transmitting the bugs to the others. She had been treated so badly in the hospital, being told to have died soon and being discriminated. After getting through all the obstacles and helps from her brother, she is now the part of the HIV peer supportive group in a hospital. Another guy who said he was tested HIV positive in 1990. He was a hoodlum before and did everything which was evil like abusing drugs and fighting. However, he turned over a new leaf and opened shelter homes for those who had no places to go when tested positive for HIV. He involves in a lot of campaign to create awareness among public about HIV to stop the HIV stigma.
He told us: We cannot just receiving but we should also start to give. I heard this phrase a lot of time before, but it's just so touching when I heard it from this man. "31 of you are very important to me because you all are the future doctors. " These words are just like the booster for me to work harder!!!
Dr Chris shared his experience with us and he told us that treating HIV changes his ways of looking at things differently.
One of my coursemates asked the patients what are the things or questions are sensitive to them. They said it's better to not ask them how's they get the HIV as they had had the disease and there is no use to know the reasons.
Don't label and Don't judge people.
We do not know what others have gone through in their life. Stop grudging, stop complaining and start giving.
Do the right thing in the moment and move towards to the right direction.
Thanks for everything!!!!!
Monday, January 7, 2013
Another New Year
2013 has come
Checking my to-do list in 2012
1)successfully learn the backstroke and butterfly style swimming(yes,done with free style but half way for backstroke)
2)Do well in my studies(satisfactory with my degree result)
3)Do something I like in my life(Yeah,i did it in 2012)
4)Live for working but not work for living(hasnt started working but i m doing what i like to do)
5)Cherish everything(I think I did)
I achieve most of the checklist,n I hope that it will be greater in 2013,
1) Jogging at least 3 days per week and join the 42km full marathon.
2)Learning guitar.
3) Study for knowledge not for the exam n grade dun be naive anymore.
GoGoGo KinLuoi!!!!!!!!!
Checking my to-do list in 2012
1)successfully learn the backstroke and butterfly style swimming(yes,done with free style but half way for backstroke)
2)Do well in my studies(satisfactory with my degree result)
3)Do something I like in my life(Yeah,i did it in 2012)
4)Live for working but not work for living(hasnt started working but i m doing what i like to do)
5)Cherish everything(I think I did)
I achieve most of the checklist,n I hope that it will be greater in 2013,
1) Jogging at least 3 days per week and join the 42km full marathon.
2)Learning guitar.
3) Study for knowledge not for the exam n grade dun be naive anymore.
GoGoGo KinLuoi!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
The Beginning of the new chapter
It has been a time I haven't updated my blog.
Life
can be busier than I expect; stress can really be dessert; torture sometimes is
a blessing.
This is the start of my medical studies.
The first 2 weeks in college had been just like entering a new world. I was having serious culture shock.
Lecturers treat us like a colleague, talk with us like talking to a friend, inviting us for a home party.
Teach like a secondary teacher who want to make sure we truly understand all the contents. Playing board games and having some stimulating activities during orientation week. It's really nice!!
Lectures, clinical correlations, case discussion and doing dry labs were the weekly routine of the very first subject Anatomy. We were stressed out of the weekly quizzes, the speeding lectures, brand new academic jargon and the final exam. However, I did enjoy studying especially when I understand the clinical significance of anatomy, how did the body movement, how did the nerves run in between the veins and arteries and some hands on clinical correlation stations. It's fun to study models with friends in anatomy lab.
In clinical foundation medicine, the very first patient I encountered was a breast cancer survivor whose story really inspires me. The first patient's write up marked with red which showed my low English proficiency. Asking a friend to help me correct my grammatical mistakes, learning to take a medical history, feeling nervous and cold handed in my first patient interview, learning to do a physical examination and practicing all these skills with friends are great learning experience! We all are always better than yesterday!!
A convocation was on 22nd Oct. A very blessed day. This marks an end in UKM but a new start in Perdana University. Thanks for everything.
Joyce and Zheng Yi's car as well as our lecturers' were heavily rumbled by the falling polls in college parking lots which I think was dramatic. The bright side of this mishap was no one was injured.
This is the start of my medical studies.
The first 2 weeks in college had been just like entering a new world. I was having serious culture shock.
Lecturers treat us like a colleague, talk with us like talking to a friend, inviting us for a home party.
Teach like a secondary teacher who want to make sure we truly understand all the contents. Playing board games and having some stimulating activities during orientation week. It's really nice!!
Lectures, clinical correlations, case discussion and doing dry labs were the weekly routine of the very first subject Anatomy. We were stressed out of the weekly quizzes, the speeding lectures, brand new academic jargon and the final exam. However, I did enjoy studying especially when I understand the clinical significance of anatomy, how did the body movement, how did the nerves run in between the veins and arteries and some hands on clinical correlation stations. It's fun to study models with friends in anatomy lab.
In clinical foundation medicine, the very first patient I encountered was a breast cancer survivor whose story really inspires me. The first patient's write up marked with red which showed my low English proficiency. Asking a friend to help me correct my grammatical mistakes, learning to take a medical history, feeling nervous and cold handed in my first patient interview, learning to do a physical examination and practicing all these skills with friends are great learning experience! We all are always better than yesterday!!
A convocation was on 22nd Oct. A very blessed day. This marks an end in UKM but a new start in Perdana University. Thanks for everything.
Joyce and Zheng Yi's car as well as our lecturers' were heavily rumbled by the falling polls in college parking lots which I think was dramatic. The bright side of this mishap was no one was injured.
I can really understand the
importance of doing the things we interested. It makes the days bright even in
the midst of struggling, at least struggle for something we want.
Having a lot of farewells for different visiting lecturers. Compassion, passion and humbleness are the things I learn from them.
First time thinking doing not well in exam doesn't matter as we can always learn from the mistakes. The matters most is the reason behind of learning the medical knowledge:saving the life of our future patients. This is the reason we need to always study hard and make sure we are ready for the future medical life. This kind of motive always drives me to be determined no matter how stress I am.
Having a lot of farewells for different visiting lecturers. Compassion, passion and humbleness are the things I learn from them.
First time thinking doing not well in exam doesn't matter as we can always learn from the mistakes. The matters most is the reason behind of learning the medical knowledge:saving the life of our future patients. This is the reason we need to always study hard and make sure we are ready for the future medical life. This kind of motive always drives me to be determined no matter how stress I am.
All in all, I am lucky and thanks to
whatever things. I know nothing comes easily and never took things for granted.
Because of this, I really yearn to contribute something to the society in the
future which had nurtured and gives me the chance of being what I want to be :)
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
New start is coming~~
Taking MCAT today
Meeting future coursemates
They are incredibly intelligent
Unimaginable
I need to study with all the elites from various places
Nervous
and
Delighted
Challenges come
and
I will be better
All the best for all those who determined to pursue their dream!!!!!!!
Meeting future coursemates
They are incredibly intelligent
Unimaginable
I need to study with all the elites from various places
Nervous
and
Delighted
Challenges come
and
I will be better
All the best for all those who determined to pursue their dream!!!!!!!
Friday, August 17, 2012
New Start
I jumped into the sky when I saw the word "BERJAYA" for my JPA scholarship.
It's juz like a miracle and unbelievable,I finally made it.
Recalling back,everything seems like holding a message to me.
So,never overlook any matters that had happened.
The very first thing I must quit is being CARELESS.It had tumbled me down many times.
I don't want it to be permanent!!Learn learn learn~~~~~~~
Gratitude,appreciation, thankfulness>>>Thanks for everything.
My family is overjoy for this also.
I will do my very best to do what I want in my life!!
Never stop fighting for people We LOVE~~~
Really thanks to ALL!!!wakakakaka:)
It's juz like a miracle and unbelievable,I finally made it.
Recalling back,everything seems like holding a message to me.
So,never overlook any matters that had happened.
The very first thing I must quit is being CARELESS.It had tumbled me down many times.
I don't want it to be permanent!!Learn learn learn~~~~~~~
Gratitude,appreciation, thankfulness>>>Thanks for everything.
My family is overjoy for this also.
I will do my very best to do what I want in my life!!
Never stop fighting for people We LOVE~~~
Really thanks to ALL!!!wakakakaka:)
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Trip Reflection
The reason I choose Siem
Reap to be my next travel destination is its world famous heritage Angkor Wat.
I know a little about its amazing architectural temple which wonders the world.
Others in my itinerary are just the decoration. This 5-person trip ended up
with 3 and 0ne of them was my 54-year-old mum.
Cambodia, a very poor
country. Orphans are all around wearing tattered clothes with no shoes and
hanging a basket of souvenirs sold to tourists. There are plenty of charitable
organization established by volunteers in Cambodia especially schools and
hospitals for the children. People in Siem Reap are honest, polite, kind and
amiable overall I think. Being there is just like in a time machine, I seem
back to my mum's childhood. Everything is still native and plain.
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| Ratha,the man on the left who is the founder of the orphanage. |
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| How to go? |
First day on our trip,
we cycled to the New Life Center Organization to
donate stationery we bought from Malaysia. Why did I know this organization?
While planning my itinerary to Siem Reap, I read a blog writing about his visit
to NLCO and made up my mind to visit there. To know more about this
organization, can go through their website.
It's very near to the old market and people in Siem Reap are kind to tell us
how to go there. Children there are lovely, adorable and plain. They are happy
and curious when we come and they all at least can speak simple English. We met
with a volunteer from French there and joined her class in the afternoon. At
the same time converse with the founder, Ratha, a man who are not very rich but
he is a man of love and his contribution is uncountable by money.
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From the children, I
learn that no matter how worse the condition, we cannot give up the chance to
learn. Thanks all of you:)
From Ratha, he is my
role model. What a devoting man.
For NLCO, everything
will improve day by day and future will be brilliant. Best wishes from me.
Angkor Thom and Angkor
Wat, what a lost world. It's unfathomable in how the ancient people built it up
by solely hands with no state-of-the-art machines and technology. It really
opened my eyes and my mouth was gaping in wonders. How high the status of the
ancient kings and how powerful they were. People in the past were humble and
pious in God. Their faith in God was depicted by all the magnificent temples
built. I was a little regret as I don't watch the discovery channel which
introduces the wonders of Siem Reap. Watch now~~~~
Next to Siem Reap, we went to Saigon by bus for around 12 hours.
Went Cu Chi Tunnels to
understand how the farmers survived and fought with US soldiers. They built a
200- km long tunnels down the earth and living inside. Making all the weapons
by themselves from head to toe, using strategies to hide from enemies. Harsh
environment made them stronger. The air ventilation in tunnels is poor and I
can understand how hard the life during the Vietnam War.
NhaTrang, a tourist spot
far from Saigon where can devour the breathtaking beach scenery and the crystal
clean ocean.
Along the trip I lost
about RM350 in sleeping bus back from Nha Trang to Saigon. Having quarrels with
mum. Having a little disagreement with a friend. All these made me reflect
myself.
I admit that I am not
good at taking care of others with a little self centered sometimes. Superb
careless. In the past, I had lost my wallet 2 times, important documents once,
pencil boxes, countless drinking bottles. My mum was exhausted along
the trip. However, she was trying to teach me how to amend my mistakes, though
I took it as nagging and even sass to her in bad attitude. Sorry for her. Thus
I am making a list to promise myself do not repeat the same mistakes again.
1. Put money separately.
Putting unused money in another place. Be alert to own belongings and put
them safely.
2. Checking around
before leaving to somewhere to make sure that I am not leaving things.
3. Be active to caring
people for their needs.
4. Buying SIM card of
local country no matter uses it or not.
Observing small things
are always good to know a person. I think I am good at observing though I am
careless. However, being open-minded can make the world wide.
Through the trip, I know
how much my mum love and care for me. Sorry for her, I will try to be more
mature and be careful to not make her worry.
I want my traveling is
not only about enjoying foods and playing but with some meanings.
Thanks for
everything!!!!:)
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Simply writing
No one can assure u a good future except urself.
No one can predict the future,so today is important.
No one can guarantee a decision u make except urself.
No one can understand ur reasons but urself.
We are the one control ourselves,our future and our days.
God will bless those who hv faith to good things.
Deepest voice is the true answer regardless the annoying noise outside.
Pure heart, I will protect u with my faith.
I believe I will always encounter with kind people
together want to make a better world.
Listening to the heart is always the best decision.
It will lead me,I know.
Be brave to take the road u want to take
Brace up with love and kindness along the journey
then,a nice view will be with me in the destination.
Throw away the worries!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No one can predict the future,so today is important.
No one can guarantee a decision u make except urself.
No one can understand ur reasons but urself.
We are the one control ourselves,our future and our days.
God will bless those who hv faith to good things.
Deepest voice is the true answer regardless the annoying noise outside.
Pure heart, I will protect u with my faith.
I believe I will always encounter with kind people
together want to make a better world.
Listening to the heart is always the best decision.
It will lead me,I know.
Be brave to take the road u want to take
Brace up with love and kindness along the journey
then,a nice view will be with me in the destination.
Throw away the worries!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, July 15, 2012
The Cove
This is a must-watch documentary which awakes the human's devil deep inside the bottom of the heart. It talks about a crew of people with selective talents working together to reveal the truth of mass slaughter of dolphin in Taiji,Japan which hides behind from the world.
These people do not make the film without risks. They may be charged,jailed,detained or even killed. Threatened by the local polices, fishermen, and all the dolphin and whales killers, the crews behind the film do this with only one reason, they want to save the world most intelligent creature, the dolphin. With the comprehensive planning, witty tactic and the sophisticated equipment, they start their action in order to make the world know the brutality which happens on the dolphin.
This documentary also reveals the story behind the meeting of International Whaling Commission. Cracking the loopholes of Japan whaling policy and the intricate relationship between Japan and some 3rd world countries on the matters of voting in the meeting. All the government tries to do is to continue the slaughter to receive the highest income.
The issue of high level of mercury in dolphin meat is also being brought out to create awareness among people. Destroyed ocean ecosystem is also mentioned in the film and the main culprit is overfishing. Thus, human is the source of culprit.
One saying hits me in the film by the director of "The Cove", Louie Psihoyos. He mentioned that there is very less people can take over the mission of saving cetacean as this is not an easy job. I think it will be more difficult especially in this era as many of the youth today doesn't has much awareness about what happening in the world. It is unimaginable to think the later world. And I realise that I'm also not very talented and so I must be keep on learning as I want to contribute something great to the world.
This is an Oscar-winning film. It records the whole saving-dolphin process, explaining about dolphin and unveil the human's wolfish cruelty on animals. It brings great impacts from various parties and it does bring some improvement in saving the dolphin in Taiji.
I'm disheartened by seeing the sufferings. Somehow, dolphin is not the only animal who suffers on the tips of knife in the human's hand and actually many of the species end up in the world's biggest grave, stomach.
I' m proud of being a vegetarian as I'm totally not tantalized by the so-called scrumptious tasty meat to harm the animals and also our environment.
Lastly, hats off to all the heroes behind this documentary "The Cove".
These people do not make the film without risks. They may be charged,jailed,detained or even killed. Threatened by the local polices, fishermen, and all the dolphin and whales killers, the crews behind the film do this with only one reason, they want to save the world most intelligent creature, the dolphin. With the comprehensive planning, witty tactic and the sophisticated equipment, they start their action in order to make the world know the brutality which happens on the dolphin.
This documentary also reveals the story behind the meeting of International Whaling Commission. Cracking the loopholes of Japan whaling policy and the intricate relationship between Japan and some 3rd world countries on the matters of voting in the meeting. All the government tries to do is to continue the slaughter to receive the highest income.
The issue of high level of mercury in dolphin meat is also being brought out to create awareness among people. Destroyed ocean ecosystem is also mentioned in the film and the main culprit is overfishing. Thus, human is the source of culprit.
One saying hits me in the film by the director of "The Cove", Louie Psihoyos. He mentioned that there is very less people can take over the mission of saving cetacean as this is not an easy job. I think it will be more difficult especially in this era as many of the youth today doesn't has much awareness about what happening in the world. It is unimaginable to think the later world. And I realise that I'm also not very talented and so I must be keep on learning as I want to contribute something great to the world.
This is an Oscar-winning film. It records the whole saving-dolphin process, explaining about dolphin and unveil the human's wolfish cruelty on animals. It brings great impacts from various parties and it does bring some improvement in saving the dolphin in Taiji.
I'm disheartened by seeing the sufferings. Somehow, dolphin is not the only animal who suffers on the tips of knife in the human's hand and actually many of the species end up in the world's biggest grave, stomach.
I' m proud of being a vegetarian as I'm totally not tantalized by the so-called scrumptious tasty meat to harm the animals and also our environment.
Lastly, hats off to all the heroes behind this documentary "The Cove".
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Bye Bye
我不是个上了大学才离家的人。小学过后的我，就离家了。
住在麻坡和KL的差别很大。因为成长的阶段不同。
再怎么说麻坡一直都有阿公阿嬷的照顾。而且麻坡是个很古色古香，对我来说很有人情味的小镇 。
KL，马来西亚首都。像我这种kampung来的，省钱又省得要死的学生，真的没有想到会到KL市中心，真的很中心（KLCC，lrt,国家动物园，茨厂街，总之KL的旅游胜地，重要地标，全部都离我很近）来念书，本来以为是在Bangi。
其实很庆幸可以在ukm 分校念书，虽然不大也不太能感受什么叫真正的“大”学（因为分校不大),但是，由于地点实在方便，所以不怕没有part-time，而且薪水也蛮不错，还有什么大大小小的展览都在附近，有兴趣都可以去看看,交通方便。
重点来了，撇开大学有多麽精彩（精彩到爆），感言这里开始：
UKM KKL/Lecturers/staffs ： Thanks for the education provided despite of some flaws of the system. Students hate the assignment,thesis,exams and lectures but somehow these are what temper us into a better form which inculcate us to learn to tolerate and to resist stress. Apparently,it is academic related but the whole process doesn't only mean that.I think.Thanks!!I'm really different from first year.
活动战友/朋友：对我来说，大学没参活动简直是浪费！！就像黄金摆在眼前，然后拿去丢这样。个人见解而已。谢谢所有战友（不管任何活动），大的小的，活动要成功，一个人是不可能办到，要办得好，没有互相的扶持与坚持，也是不可能。谢谢！！活动让我的抗压能力翻几倍的同时美好的回忆也翻几倍。这世上没有一个人的成就，朋友有多重要已经不需要言语去形容了，随便google几下，几篇文章就可以知道朋友的影响力。谢谢！！
Coursemates: Our integrity is not as strong as others,I think.However, we'd been together for 4 years in classes,in doing assignment, facing the same challenges，grudging the same things,complaining about the same problems. No matter what, these are precious. Thanks a lot!!!!
C-13-7: 住满三年，真的满得不多也不少。在这里才真正学习什么叫“相处”，什么叫“待人处事”，什么叫“做人随便一点”，如何坦诚。所有的lovely home成员让自己学习不少，发现自己的缺点。一切尽在不言中，谢谢！！
家人：谢谢！！你们是我的source of power,light of darkness!!!谢谢！！！
我能毕业，我大学生活很精彩，不是我一个人就能做到的，所以感谢全部~~
即将进入另个阶段，不管是继续升学工作也好，身边的事物已经随着阶段改变了，用文字来传达谢意。
不管怎样，地球还是会转，书还是要读，钱还是要赚，梦想还是要追。。
所以，套用一句歌词 “拜拜是为了再期待”。
Life goes on~~Bye bye!!
住在麻坡和KL的差别很大。因为成长的阶段不同。
再怎么说麻坡一直都有阿公阿嬷的照顾。而且麻坡是个很古色古香，对我来说很有人情味的小镇 。
KL，马来西亚首都。像我这种kampung来的，省钱又省得要死的学生，真的没有想到会到KL市中心，真的很中心（KLCC，lrt,国家动物园，茨厂街，总之KL的旅游胜地，重要地标，全部都离我很近）来念书，本来以为是在Bangi。
其实很庆幸可以在ukm 分校念书，虽然不大也不太能感受什么叫真正的“大”学（因为分校不大),但是，由于地点实在方便，所以不怕没有part-time，而且薪水也蛮不错，还有什么大大小小的展览都在附近，有兴趣都可以去看看,交通方便。
重点来了，撇开大学有多麽精彩（精彩到爆），感言这里开始：
UKM KKL/Lecturers/staffs ： Thanks for the education provided despite of some flaws of the system. Students hate the assignment,thesis,exams and lectures but somehow these are what temper us into a better form which inculcate us to learn to tolerate and to resist stress. Apparently,it is academic related but the whole process doesn't only mean that.I think.Thanks!!I'm really different from first year.
活动战友/朋友：对我来说，大学没参活动简直是浪费！！就像黄金摆在眼前，然后拿去丢这样。个人见解而已。谢谢所有战友（不管任何活动），大的小的，活动要成功，一个人是不可能办到，要办得好，没有互相的扶持与坚持，也是不可能。谢谢！！活动让我的抗压能力翻几倍的同时美好的回忆也翻几倍。这世上没有一个人的成就，朋友有多重要已经不需要言语去形容了，随便google几下，几篇文章就可以知道朋友的影响力。谢谢！！
Coursemates: Our integrity is not as strong as others,I think.However, we'd been together for 4 years in classes,in doing assignment, facing the same challenges，grudging the same things,complaining about the same problems. No matter what, these are precious. Thanks a lot!!!!
C-13-7: 住满三年，真的满得不多也不少。在这里才真正学习什么叫“相处”，什么叫“待人处事”，什么叫“做人随便一点”，如何坦诚。所有的lovely home成员让自己学习不少，发现自己的缺点。一切尽在不言中，谢谢！！
家人：谢谢！！你们是我的source of power,light of darkness!!!谢谢！！！
我能毕业，我大学生活很精彩，不是我一个人就能做到的，所以感谢全部~~
即将进入另个阶段，不管是继续升学工作也好，身边的事物已经随着阶段改变了，用文字来传达谢意。
不管怎样，地球还是会转，书还是要读，钱还是要赚，梦想还是要追。。
所以，套用一句歌词 “拜拜是为了再期待”。
Life goes on~~Bye bye!!
老师的故事
真实感动的东西还是要用最熟悉的语言写，那才会深刻。
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这一天，我很生气。
功课只有两样，而且是不用用脑做的写生字，星期五到礼拜天的时间，竟然没有做！！
在课堂上，我问小佳生子簿在哪里？“我没有带来”。根本就不需要骗我这个一眼就可以看穿小孩谎言的老师。
“同学们，你们相信小佳吗？谁相信的请举起手。”
班上几位同学举起了手。
“小杰，帮老师检查小佳的书包还有座位，看看有没有生子簿！”
。。。。。。
“老师，她把簿子压在书包下面！”
看着小佳漂亮的脸孔，我很生气地对她说“为什么要说谎？你知道你做错了三件事吗？第一，你没有把功课做完，第二，你说谎。第三，你辜负了班上相信你的朋友。我今天一定要惩罚你！”
拿着藤鞭打在她手心的那一刻，小佳竭斯底里地大喊大叫，手脚乱打乱踢。毫无办法的情况下，只好叫班上几位同学抓着她。无法控制的小佳往同学的手上咬。
“小佳！”
“我爸爸都没打我，你凭什么打我！！！”
听到这句话， 我放下手中的藤鞭，我觉得无力，我觉得很累。
“对呀，老师为什么要管你？我为什么要管你？我为什么还要浪费上课的时间来管你？因为你是我的学生，我是你老师，我不能不管！！”
她，静了下来。
我决定找她的爸爸妈妈好好谈谈小佳的问题。
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小佳的爸爸妈妈是分居的，所以谈的时间也不一样。
妈妈听了告诉我，连她自己也不懂该这么去管教这个孩子。
爸爸听了，也只是骂骂小佳，叫她以后不能这样。
但，让我惊讶的是小佳看着他爸爸在训责她的时候的眼神，她没有表情，没有生气，没有不爽，只是用一个没有情绪的眼神看着爸爸。这不是一个普通小孩会有的眼神。
我觉得，我需要好好和小佳好好谈谈。
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隔天，班上的同学都去上电脑课，我和小佳坐在课室。
“小佳，你知道老师昨天打你是为你好吗？”她点头。
“你知道老师做什么都是想你们好吗？”她点头。
“那你可以把心理的话告诉老师吗？”她看着我，眼泪马上在眼里打滚。
“我有两个妈妈，一个是和我住的妈妈，一个是生我的妈妈，还有一个姐姐。”
“和你住的妈妈疼你吗？” “疼。”“姐姐呢？”她安静。
“妈妈有买衣服给你吗？” “没有，只有生我的妈妈买给我，可是，住在家里的妈妈有买蛋糕还有糖果给我。”
“那你喜欢爸爸吗？”“有时喜欢有时不喜欢。”
“那你喜欢生你的妈妈？” “嗯。”她对我点点头。
“那你想和生你的妈妈住在一起吗？”她点点头。
“有告诉过爸爸妈妈吗？”
“我怕如果告诉爸爸，他会和妈妈吵架，家里的妈妈也会不高兴。”
“那你是不是觉得反正家里也没人在乎你，所以功课没有做也没关系？”她又再次点头。
“老师帮你告诉妈妈，可是会叫妈妈不要和爸爸讲，这样可以吗？” 她点头。
这个过程，这位才八岁的小孩没有掉过一滴眼泪，她的眼泪只是在眼眶打滚。我叫她眨了眨眼睛，把忍住的眼泪释放出来。
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打了电话和她妈妈谈了好久，也帮小佳传达了信息，希望她妈妈好好和她谈谈。
我不想介入别人的家庭问题，可是小佳是我的学生而这已经影响了她，我有义务去了解。
隔天，我看见小佳非常灿烂的笑容，她笑着告诉我“老师，我知道你昨天有跟妈妈讲。”
“爸爸不知道对不对？”她笑咪咪地说“嗯。妈妈说她和爸爸做错事，对不起我。”
“那老师有说到做到，对不对？” 她又用她那阳光般的笑容对我点头。
这一天，这个孩子无比快乐，上课很专心，也会主动问问题。
我不知道小佳能不能和妈妈住在一起，不过，她的心结开了。。。。。。
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当然，这个故事不是发生在我身上，我只是用第一人称把这个故事写出来。而且，我已经把细节缩减了很多。
故事里人物的名字都改过，毕竟用真名不是件好事。
我听完这个故事，我很感动。
这个小孩很懂事。她那么小却懂得为大人着想，她怕大人吵架，所以一直都没把心理的话说出来。她很混乱，她不知道爸妈发生什么事的同时，她要学着划分两个不一样的妈妈。她很容易快乐，她觉得给她糖果吃就是疼她。她懂得让着姐姐。
家中的问题，即使不让孩子看见，听见或是知道，她还是能强烈地感受到，而这强烈的感受会一直影响着孩子直到结解开为止。
有时孩子的宽容能力超乎大人的想象，他们不需要知道太多理由，他们只需要了解，一个真诚的道歉，他们就能打从心底不计前嫌地彻底原谅，然后还是很真诚地喜欢你。
这个非常令人感动。
以前，亲耳听见来自所谓放牛班的学生告诉我“我只希望我全科及格”，那时的我是一位科科要求A的典型的第一班的学生。听了的我非常的震撼。我无法想象那是多麽对我来说多么基本的容易到爆的渴望。可是，我还记得那位同学告诉我的时候那认真的表情。他晚上需要做工，因为生活上的所需都需要靠自己，他没有时间去整理他的课业，他没有办法。
那么多年，我深深刻刻地了解到，不要只看问题的表面，问题的背后，那才是令人惊叹，敬佩，学习，最该被关注的部分。
这个影片“不平凡的15岁”我看了5,6次吧，不保证次数不会上升。对小小年纪就要面对大人可能也没有能力面对的问题的孩子，深深地给予佩服还有一定会向他们好好学习！！祝福他们！！加油加油！！！！！！！！
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这一天，我很生气。
功课只有两样，而且是不用用脑做的写生字，星期五到礼拜天的时间，竟然没有做！！
在课堂上，我问小佳生子簿在哪里？“我没有带来”。根本就不需要骗我这个一眼就可以看穿小孩谎言的老师。
“同学们，你们相信小佳吗？谁相信的请举起手。”
班上几位同学举起了手。
“小杰，帮老师检查小佳的书包还有座位，看看有没有生子簿！”
。。。。。。
“老师，她把簿子压在书包下面！”
看着小佳漂亮的脸孔，我很生气地对她说“为什么要说谎？你知道你做错了三件事吗？第一，你没有把功课做完，第二，你说谎。第三，你辜负了班上相信你的朋友。我今天一定要惩罚你！”
拿着藤鞭打在她手心的那一刻，小佳竭斯底里地大喊大叫，手脚乱打乱踢。毫无办法的情况下，只好叫班上几位同学抓着她。无法控制的小佳往同学的手上咬。
“小佳！”
“我爸爸都没打我，你凭什么打我！！！”
听到这句话， 我放下手中的藤鞭，我觉得无力，我觉得很累。
“对呀，老师为什么要管你？我为什么要管你？我为什么还要浪费上课的时间来管你？因为你是我的学生，我是你老师，我不能不管！！”
她，静了下来。
我决定找她的爸爸妈妈好好谈谈小佳的问题。
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小佳的爸爸妈妈是分居的，所以谈的时间也不一样。
妈妈听了告诉我，连她自己也不懂该这么去管教这个孩子。
爸爸听了，也只是骂骂小佳，叫她以后不能这样。
但，让我惊讶的是小佳看着他爸爸在训责她的时候的眼神，她没有表情，没有生气，没有不爽，只是用一个没有情绪的眼神看着爸爸。这不是一个普通小孩会有的眼神。
我觉得，我需要好好和小佳好好谈谈。
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隔天，班上的同学都去上电脑课，我和小佳坐在课室。
“小佳，你知道老师昨天打你是为你好吗？”她点头。
“你知道老师做什么都是想你们好吗？”她点头。
“那你可以把心理的话告诉老师吗？”她看着我，眼泪马上在眼里打滚。
“我有两个妈妈，一个是和我住的妈妈，一个是生我的妈妈，还有一个姐姐。”
“和你住的妈妈疼你吗？” “疼。”“姐姐呢？”她安静。
“妈妈有买衣服给你吗？” “没有，只有生我的妈妈买给我，可是，住在家里的妈妈有买蛋糕还有糖果给我。”
“那你喜欢爸爸吗？”“有时喜欢有时不喜欢。”
“那你喜欢生你的妈妈？” “嗯。”她对我点点头。
“那你想和生你的妈妈住在一起吗？”她点点头。
“有告诉过爸爸妈妈吗？”
“我怕如果告诉爸爸，他会和妈妈吵架，家里的妈妈也会不高兴。”
“那你是不是觉得反正家里也没人在乎你，所以功课没有做也没关系？”她又再次点头。
“老师帮你告诉妈妈，可是会叫妈妈不要和爸爸讲，这样可以吗？” 她点头。
这个过程，这位才八岁的小孩没有掉过一滴眼泪，她的眼泪只是在眼眶打滚。我叫她眨了眨眼睛，把忍住的眼泪释放出来。
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打了电话和她妈妈谈了好久，也帮小佳传达了信息，希望她妈妈好好和她谈谈。
我不想介入别人的家庭问题，可是小佳是我的学生而这已经影响了她，我有义务去了解。
隔天，我看见小佳非常灿烂的笑容，她笑着告诉我“老师，我知道你昨天有跟妈妈讲。”
“爸爸不知道对不对？”她笑咪咪地说“嗯。妈妈说她和爸爸做错事，对不起我。”
“那老师有说到做到，对不对？” 她又用她那阳光般的笑容对我点头。
这一天，这个孩子无比快乐，上课很专心，也会主动问问题。
我不知道小佳能不能和妈妈住在一起，不过，她的心结开了。。。。。。
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当然，这个故事不是发生在我身上，我只是用第一人称把这个故事写出来。而且，我已经把细节缩减了很多。
故事里人物的名字都改过，毕竟用真名不是件好事。
我听完这个故事，我很感动。
这个小孩很懂事。她那么小却懂得为大人着想，她怕大人吵架，所以一直都没把心理的话说出来。她很混乱，她不知道爸妈发生什么事的同时，她要学着划分两个不一样的妈妈。她很容易快乐，她觉得给她糖果吃就是疼她。她懂得让着姐姐。
家中的问题，即使不让孩子看见，听见或是知道，她还是能强烈地感受到，而这强烈的感受会一直影响着孩子直到结解开为止。
有时孩子的宽容能力超乎大人的想象，他们不需要知道太多理由，他们只需要了解，一个真诚的道歉，他们就能打从心底不计前嫌地彻底原谅，然后还是很真诚地喜欢你。
这个非常令人感动。
以前，亲耳听见来自所谓放牛班的学生告诉我“我只希望我全科及格”，那时的我是一位科科要求A的典型的第一班的学生。听了的我非常的震撼。我无法想象那是多麽对我来说多么基本的容易到爆的渴望。可是，我还记得那位同学告诉我的时候那认真的表情。他晚上需要做工，因为生活上的所需都需要靠自己，他没有时间去整理他的课业，他没有办法。
那么多年，我深深刻刻地了解到，不要只看问题的表面，问题的背后，那才是令人惊叹，敬佩，学习，最该被关注的部分。
这个影片“不平凡的15岁”我看了5,6次吧，不保证次数不会上升。对小小年纪就要面对大人可能也没有能力面对的问题的孩子，深深地给予佩服还有一定会向他们好好学习！！祝福他们！！加油加油！！！！！！！！
Thursday, June 28, 2012
First Half
It has been a few days since my first Standard chartered half marathon>21.5km.
The theme is Run for a cause.
I run for love since many of us yearn for it, hoping that no one on the earth lacks of it.
I run for vegetarian who really takes the animals as friends.
I run for fun.It would be interesting to do something u haven't done before and it's remarkable.
It's delighting to finish the run together with friends.
Yes, I will target full marathon but after joining several times of half marathons.
Thanks for everything!!!!
Finish in appx 2hours 40 mins. Hope for a better nxt run.
The theme is Run for a cause.
I run for love since many of us yearn for it, hoping that no one on the earth lacks of it.
I run for vegetarian who really takes the animals as friends.
I run for fun.It would be interesting to do something u haven't done before and it's remarkable.
It's delighting to finish the run together with friends.
Yes, I will target full marathon but after joining several times of half marathons.
Thanks for everything!!!!
Finish in appx 2hours 40 mins. Hope for a better nxt run.
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| Group Photo!! |
Saturday, June 23, 2012
Full Day
I am so blessed and doted by God by letting me to have a wonderful Dumplings Day!!!
Early in the morning,struggling from the cozy bed heading to an old folks home "Rumah Warga Emas" for helping out in a free regular body checkup for all those seniors citizens until noon. All these elders are as adorable as kids. They need to be coaxed sometimes like a pampered child. They like to talk with us. Their wrinkles smile when we smile to them. Some of them talk less and are quiet. The feeling is totally different by experiencing myself to have a closer observation on these old folks from watching the movie. Looking at them, I reflect myself. What would it be when I am old?Will I like a child as well when I am old? What if I am alone? What makes the life different and closer to the one we want when the twilight age is imminent? Attitude.This is the answer I tell myself. Never stop to learn.Never stop to want to do things. AND always want to contribute something!!Thinking can change everything~~~
Continuously, we go to another old folks home which is located around Rumah Warga Emas to perform a simple song for them. Meet a very young xue zhang who looked like a 30-year-old man with his age is actually 41. Nice lunch with all the volunteers!!
The race of the day hasn't finished. We go to Hospital KL to visit some patients who are in deep pain. We talk to them, perform sign language songs to them and talk to them. The ambience in the hospital is dull,boring and lifeless.Nurses and doctors only show their serious and exhausted looks whereas the patients show their suffered faces. Bringing them some songs may relieve the over-solemn atmosphere. What I think is what if the colour of the wall is iridescent or paint with some Hayao Miyazaki cartoons and playing some musics in the wards? Would it be nicer?? One of the patients had waited for her operation for over1 month. I think her condition is not serious and can be quickly settled and may get worse if the proper operation is delayed. What's the reasons？Too many patients in general hospital?Not enough doctors?or due to the system in GH?...........
Haha..when the hands of clock struck to 5.30pm..........we go to a very nice vege restaurant to have a dinner with long-time-no-see shigu and shibo by ordering a wide variety of foods>>pizza,noodles(soup,gravy,fried), nasi lemak,cheese baked rice,spaghetti and some kinds of drink. Half of the dinner, my great sister sends me some dumplings to me.
Omg, it's a perfect day!!!!!!!!!
Conclusion: We cannot live without love!!!!!Be caring to people around!!!!Live in the moment!!!!
Thanks for everything!!!!!!:)
Early in the morning,struggling from the cozy bed heading to an old folks home "Rumah Warga Emas" for helping out in a free regular body checkup for all those seniors citizens until noon. All these elders are as adorable as kids. They need to be coaxed sometimes like a pampered child. They like to talk with us. Their wrinkles smile when we smile to them. Some of them talk less and are quiet. The feeling is totally different by experiencing myself to have a closer observation on these old folks from watching the movie. Looking at them, I reflect myself. What would it be when I am old?Will I like a child as well when I am old? What if I am alone? What makes the life different and closer to the one we want when the twilight age is imminent? Attitude.This is the answer I tell myself. Never stop to learn.Never stop to want to do things. AND always want to contribute something!!Thinking can change everything~~~
Continuously, we go to another old folks home which is located around Rumah Warga Emas to perform a simple song for them. Meet a very young xue zhang who looked like a 30-year-old man with his age is actually 41. Nice lunch with all the volunteers!!
The race of the day hasn't finished. We go to Hospital KL to visit some patients who are in deep pain. We talk to them, perform sign language songs to them and talk to them. The ambience in the hospital is dull,boring and lifeless.Nurses and doctors only show their serious and exhausted looks whereas the patients show their suffered faces. Bringing them some songs may relieve the over-solemn atmosphere. What I think is what if the colour of the wall is iridescent or paint with some Hayao Miyazaki cartoons and playing some musics in the wards? Would it be nicer?? One of the patients had waited for her operation for over1 month. I think her condition is not serious and can be quickly settled and may get worse if the proper operation is delayed. What's the reasons？Too many patients in general hospital?Not enough doctors?or due to the system in GH?...........
Haha..when the hands of clock struck to 5.30pm..........we go to a very nice vege restaurant to have a dinner with long-time-no-see shigu and shibo by ordering a wide variety of foods>>pizza,noodles(soup,gravy,fried), nasi lemak,cheese baked rice,spaghetti and some kinds of drink. Half of the dinner, my great sister sends me some dumplings to me.
Omg, it's a perfect day!!!!!!!!!
Conclusion: We cannot live without love!!!!!Be caring to people around!!!!Live in the moment!!!!
Thanks for everything!!!!!!:)
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| Body checkup in Rumah warga emas |
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| Having a great dinner!! |
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| Dumplings brought by my great sis!! |
Monday, June 4, 2012
小太阳
第三次参与astro小太阳，而这一次很不一样，因为是第一次带高年组。
五六年级的小朋友，有着可爱的半成熟，有着模仿大人的可爱摸样，有着男女授受不亲的可爱观念。女生有可爱的少女情怀，男生有着可爱的不公平主义（常常说我对女生比较好).除了可爱，我不知道该怎么去形容这一群可爱的孩子。
自己很难想象这群那么可爱纯洁的孩子在刚刚踏入中学的时候，该怎么去适应？算是每个阶段的过度期吧！
这次带小朋友带得我印象很深刻，每一位小朋友的名字自己都很努力去记。当我记起与叫起他们的名字时，他们会很开心，脸上会露出腼腆的笑容 ，我也很开心。每一位小朋友都有自己的特质，有一些有很明显的领导能力，有一些很有才艺，一些很有表演天分。也有一些比较顽皮，那顽皮的原因也只有一个，想要得到注意，想要被关爱。带大班的小朋友与带小班的小朋友的差别在于，大班的小朋友比较需要用脑用眼去思考观察该怎么去与每位组员交流，而小班的则比较需要一些给指示的技巧，如何让他们把注意力放在自己身上。
小孩子之间的问题，比如有人推他们，捉弄他们，很需要被好好处理，因为那会影响他们对处理事情的观念。专注于问题背后的原因，真的会了解得很多很多。我喜欢我组里的每一位小朋友，他们让我发现自己的缺点，他们让我学习什么叫真诚，宽容，诚实与面对挑战的勇气。
以下是组员的名字，我想要记起来：
泉仲，组长的角色。很有领导能力，个性有点冲动，直性子。没收他的手枪，让他不开心半天，还想把手枪丢掉，还好及时还给他，特别叫他不要丢掉，因为那是个很好玩的玩具。
志康，很乖很听话，性格比较温顺，对海鲜敏感。
金伦，和我一样是个素食者，还是自愿要吃的，个性稳重又有点害羞。
俊宏，喜欢得到关注，喜欢作弄朋友，是个需要关爱的小朋友。
梓健，身材又高又大，很乖，喜欢报告事情的来龙去脉，常常会坐在后面傻笑，很厉害画画。
尔权，长大后应该是个帅哥，拥有练武术的潜能。
育霖，翻更斗超厉害， 每次问我有没有男朋友，有点小大人。
伟立，非常有礼貌，好像有点太有礼貌，是个乖乖的可爱小男生。
俊伟，有点读书读太多的感觉，小太阳回去后还要补习，创意非凡，喜欢画画。
永轩，喜欢跟随朋友，好像比较没什么自己的想法，希望他可以知道自己到底要什么。
子轩，每次笑的时候，眼睛就会咪咪笑，牙齿会全露出来，很有纯真的小男孩。
振轩，看上去是个干干净净的微胖小男孩，牙齿大大的和我一样》很可爱。
宏源，静静的，可是原来是个hiphop高手，眼睛圆圆大大，皮肤白白。
汉康，牙齿也是大大的，和宏源一样，是个hiphop高手。
淑慧，小成熟，头发直直的，不喜欢绑起来，非常有少女情怀。
嘉文，淑慧的好朋友，个性也是有点小大人。
晓彤，很纯真，很可爱，个性活泼。
芊芊，不太会说华语，非常排斥男生，不可以有男生站在她后面~~~~~
欣怡，不想上台表演，对自己缺乏一点点自信，不知道为什么勒~~~
咏雯，第二天才出席，个性随和，容易相处。
舒宜，也是一位半成熟女孩，有点害羞。
云琳，虽然已五年级，个性还是很小女孩，要学会独立一点了~~
昀慧，高高白白美美的，个性文静，斯文。
能陪他们一起跳舞，上课，练习彩排，表演，平复他们表演紧张的心情，吃饭，玩游戏，领奖直到结束，真的很开心。
小孩子很喜欢画黑板，结束时让他们没有顾虑地乱花黑板，他们超级兴奋开心，或许有时侯，一些东西可以在适当的时候把限制拿走，让创意涌进来。。。
最后，我希望他们能够快乐成长，生命中被人爱与爱人，拥有无限的勇气面对生命中的挫折与挑战，做最快乐的自己..............
感恩上天能让自己遇见这群小太阳：）
五六年级的小朋友，有着可爱的半成熟，有着模仿大人的可爱摸样，有着男女授受不亲的可爱观念。女生有可爱的少女情怀，男生有着可爱的不公平主义（常常说我对女生比较好).除了可爱，我不知道该怎么去形容这一群可爱的孩子。
自己很难想象这群那么可爱纯洁的孩子在刚刚踏入中学的时候，该怎么去适应？算是每个阶段的过度期吧！
这次带小朋友带得我印象很深刻，每一位小朋友的名字自己都很努力去记。当我记起与叫起他们的名字时，他们会很开心，脸上会露出腼腆的笑容 ，我也很开心。每一位小朋友都有自己的特质，有一些有很明显的领导能力，有一些很有才艺，一些很有表演天分。也有一些比较顽皮，那顽皮的原因也只有一个，想要得到注意，想要被关爱。带大班的小朋友与带小班的小朋友的差别在于，大班的小朋友比较需要用脑用眼去思考观察该怎么去与每位组员交流，而小班的则比较需要一些给指示的技巧，如何让他们把注意力放在自己身上。
小孩子之间的问题，比如有人推他们，捉弄他们，很需要被好好处理，因为那会影响他们对处理事情的观念。专注于问题背后的原因，真的会了解得很多很多。我喜欢我组里的每一位小朋友，他们让我发现自己的缺点，他们让我学习什么叫真诚，宽容，诚实与面对挑战的勇气。
以下是组员的名字，我想要记起来：
泉仲，组长的角色。很有领导能力，个性有点冲动，直性子。没收他的手枪，让他不开心半天，还想把手枪丢掉，还好及时还给他，特别叫他不要丢掉，因为那是个很好玩的玩具。
志康，很乖很听话，性格比较温顺，对海鲜敏感。
金伦，和我一样是个素食者，还是自愿要吃的，个性稳重又有点害羞。
俊宏，喜欢得到关注，喜欢作弄朋友，是个需要关爱的小朋友。
梓健，身材又高又大，很乖，喜欢报告事情的来龙去脉，常常会坐在后面傻笑，很厉害画画。
尔权，长大后应该是个帅哥，拥有练武术的潜能。
育霖，翻更斗超厉害， 每次问我有没有男朋友，有点小大人。
伟立，非常有礼貌，好像有点太有礼貌，是个乖乖的可爱小男生。
俊伟，有点读书读太多的感觉，小太阳回去后还要补习，创意非凡，喜欢画画。
永轩，喜欢跟随朋友，好像比较没什么自己的想法，希望他可以知道自己到底要什么。
子轩，每次笑的时候，眼睛就会咪咪笑，牙齿会全露出来，很有纯真的小男孩。
振轩，看上去是个干干净净的微胖小男孩，牙齿大大的和我一样》很可爱。
宏源，静静的，可是原来是个hiphop高手，眼睛圆圆大大，皮肤白白。
汉康，牙齿也是大大的，和宏源一样，是个hiphop高手。
淑慧，小成熟，头发直直的，不喜欢绑起来，非常有少女情怀。
嘉文，淑慧的好朋友，个性也是有点小大人。
晓彤，很纯真，很可爱，个性活泼。
芊芊，不太会说华语，非常排斥男生，不可以有男生站在她后面~~~~~
欣怡，不想上台表演，对自己缺乏一点点自信，不知道为什么勒~~~
咏雯，第二天才出席，个性随和，容易相处。
舒宜，也是一位半成熟女孩，有点害羞。
云琳，虽然已五年级，个性还是很小女孩，要学会独立一点了~~
昀慧，高高白白美美的，个性文静，斯文。
能陪他们一起跳舞，上课，练习彩排，表演，平复他们表演紧张的心情，吃饭，玩游戏，领奖直到结束，真的很开心。
小孩子很喜欢画黑板，结束时让他们没有顾虑地乱花黑板，他们超级兴奋开心，或许有时侯，一些东西可以在适当的时候把限制拿走，让创意涌进来。。。
最后，我希望他们能够快乐成长，生命中被人爱与爱人，拥有无限的勇气面对生命中的挫折与挑战，做最快乐的自己..............
感恩上天能让自己遇见这群小太阳：）
Sunday, May 27, 2012
Hidden Message
There are a lot of messages conveyed in this iran movie, A Separation.
How do I know this movie?Firstly, my lecturer gave good comments to this movie in facebook and it was the best foreign language movie in Oscar awards. I longed for it very long.
Still, it is not a thrilling movie which can gave an overwhelming visual effect and sensation. But, it is a very real movie and a movie that brings me to another more objective perspective to look at the truth behind the truth.From my point of view, the separation between husband and wife brings greatest harmful effect to the children with themselves relieved from what they didn't want to suffer. Good relationship between husband and wife is the best gift for their children. The children in this movie suffer the most.
There are two families play in the movie from two classes: aristocratic class and a lower class.
For the decent class, the husband and wife can't compromise on the matter of immigration, they want a separation. The lower class, in order to help her depressed husband due to a huge debt, the wife goes out to work regardless how laboring the works are. We will do what we think. A thinking can change everything. I just think that both families are contrasting. Why do the husband and wife from the decent class dun want to make a decision not to separate no matter how worst the things go?? Ya, i dun understand.
Right or wrong? True or false? After watching the movie, I suddenly understand why sometimes right or wrong or true or false seem indistinguishable. If there is responsibility, all the society members seem need to hold a little responsibility in every social problem because we are colonial animal. Children are always the victims.
There are still a lot of profound messages that the movie wants to convey I think. However, I am not mature enough to understand all. I may watch the second time after I grow up a bit.
Ok..nice to watch. Life goes on~~~~~~~~
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