Hidden Message

There are a lot of messages conveyed in this iran movie, A Separation.
How do I know this movie?Firstly, my lecturer gave good comments to this movie in facebook and it  was the best foreign language movie in Oscar awards. I longed for it very long.

Still, it is not a thrilling movie which can gave an overwhelming visual effect and sensation. But, it is a very real movie and a movie that brings me to another more objective perspective to look at the truth behind the truth.From my point of view, the separation between husband and wife brings greatest harmful effect to the children with themselves relieved from what they didn't want to suffer. Good relationship between husband and wife is the best gift for their children. The children in this movie suffer the most. 

There are two families play in the movie from two classes: aristocratic class and a lower class.
For the decent class, the husband and wife can't compromise on the matter of immigration, they want a separation. The lower class, in order to help her depressed husband due to a huge debt, the wife goes out to work regardless how laboring the works are. We will do what we think. A thinking can change everything. I just think that both families are contrasting. Why do the husband and wife from the decent class dun want to make a decision not to separate no matter how worst the things go?? Ya, i dun understand.

Right or wrong? True or false? After watching the movie, I suddenly understand why sometimes right or wrong or true or false seem indistinguishable. If there is responsibility, all the society members seem need to hold a little responsibility in every social problem because we are colonial animal. Children are always the victims.

There are still a lot of profound messages that the movie wants to convey I think. However, I am not mature enough to understand all. I may watch the second time after I grow up a bit.

Ok..nice to watch. Life goes on~~~~~~~~

Thesis year (4)

Yeah, today marks the end of my course thesis presentation for all of my beloved friends. Our passionate lecturers prepare some presents for us as an encouragement and acknowledgement of our hard work through these four years. Top 24 presenters are chosen to accept the prizes and I truly enjoy the moment where the whole class screams and shouts loudly for the friends. We are happy. We enjoy the moment. We take photo together. Today is Biomedical Science batch 2008/2009 UKM 's last day being together in lecture hall.Suddenly, I understand why people always said studying time is the most precious moment in the life. We are always under protection and being guided by teachers, seniors and people around when we are still a student. After that, we are free to explore the world and is time to contribute something to the society. By the time, we are the one should take the responsibility to protect the next generation. Tradition inherited.

I thank all of my university lecturers and friends. These four years will remain in my memory forever.

Random scene taken while someone is presenting their result.

The moment of giving prize after the end of presentation.

Take pic with my supervisor Dr Dayang and my thesis co-fighter Seng Aik and Muin^^

Ok, let's move on!!!!
Thanks for everything and live in the moment^^

Thesis year (3)

Today my thesis result presentation comes to an end which means that a full-stop will be going to be put on my university life in UKM. Before my turn to present, my heart is pumping wildly and I look my friends and lecturers around in the hall. My friends' gestures show me good luck and all the best and through the eyes contacts I think they are saying Gambatte. Through my lecturers' face expression I think they not only want to test us but I can feel their joyous in seeing our growth. From an immature first-year student to a going-to-be contributors in society.  I calm myself by thinking to share my findings in my research instead of presenting it though the adrenaline still rushes through my body. I look at my class. Time flies.I dun have a very close relationship with my coursemates and there are many things happen between us be it good or bad. All these are memories. Our course's integrity is not as strong as other courses in my point of view. However, it seems still memorable as we are at least going through the ups and downs together for 4 years>>orientation,piles up of report, presentation, community service, being scolded by lecturer, complain together, organizing dinner, gossip people together, taunting somebody else together, wishing luck to each other, doing lab together and suffering thesis together. Little by little, bond is formed. When recall back the uni life, all the faces are there.

Friendship is pure in studying time as no one makes friend with u base on ur financial status and society status and even family background. People make friend by just only we are friend and we are all heading to the same goal. I appreciate that a lot.

I want to thank all the encouragement and applause that have been given to me today.
There are no individual victory and success. We are formed and helped by a lot of people along the way to success. I thanks to all with all my heart and I will always pray hard for everyone around wish them happy always and be strong when life is hard.

When my little own world is happy, whole world is bright together.

With it, I will always pray for the world.

Photos

I will look at my face once I look at the photo I had been taken. Recently, I will look at others' expression rather than mine. It is very happy to see others' smiling faces. It may be due to several reasons. I dun care how pretty I m in the photo as I always think that I am really pretty with whatever expression (severe narcissism). I cherish the moment with friends around rather than my face as the graduation days are coming nearer and nearer. I know if people around happy, it's sure that it can make my day happy. I appreciate the studying time as this period no matter how annoying our motive somehow will be purer than people who had stepped into the society. Photos can leave message but not all the photos leave the true message. I like all the photos taken with friends or friends' photos especially the photos of gathering and activity during my studying time,photos with family, they are so true yet so pure. I believe great photos will keep coming in my life!!!!Thanks for everything.

Inspiring

Today, I know a man whose name is Randy Pausch, a professor in US. He succumbed to pancreatic cancer in July 2008. He wrote a book entitled "The Last Lecture" and gave a talk on it in his end-stage life. I watch the 1-hour more of his last lecture which a kind soul posted it on youtube. It is inspiring. Sometimes, virtues are there and lessons are all the same. It's like we know we need to work harder, we need to be good, we need be put up with bad situation to grab the juicy fruit. However, knowing something doesn't mean we learn. Therefore, I think there are the reasons why the wall of bricks exists in lives.Those extraordinary people who come to inspired people around are the angels sent by God. I was inspired by his zest in living life. His attitude, his ways of transferring the messages and I watched at a right time. His sharing about his life is great as I suddenly realize the importance of sharing. By sharing, it can amplify the joys and it can shrunken the worries and some more it can be inspiring. I dunno hw to describe my feeling but i just feel great after watching such a wonderful video and I am pushed by it to be more enthusiastic in my days!!!Thanks for everything!!!Ya, an impressive comment I looked below the video in youtube"RIP Randy Pausch. You inspired me to go to medical school despite 3 yrs of previous rejections. You helped me believe I could do it and I did!", wow,so great!!I think this guy will be a successful doctor in the future.Best pray for those who never give up. Sometimes, we just need some push!!!!!!!!

Ok, some golden words from Professor Randy Pausch in the video~~~

Experience is what you get when you get what you didn't want. (Ya, true, nothing is waste)

A bad apology is worse than no apology. An when doing thing wrong : just "I m sorry. It's my fault. How can I make the thing right?" The third part is the part mostly forget. (Wow, I want to learn!!!)

Find the best in everybody no matter how long it takes. No one is all evil.

Brick wall doesn't exist for nothing. It just blocks the people who do not want the things very badly.

If you lead ur life in right way the karma will take care of itself, the dream will come to u.

Great video n great day!!!:)

Answer

Ya, I am searching the answer for the question in my post Hmm. Sometimes, there is no definition for something and the only answer depends on us. The best answer I answer and learn to do is to be open-heart and pure-heart >>心宽念纯。 When the heart opens, we can accept everything but not in a numb way but we want to do more to make the things better with unpredictable potential. Be pure, this can always guide us to a correct path without being blind and ignorant especially in this hodgepodge.

There is answer but doesn't mean that it is easy. No pain, no gain. No matter how hard of things, follow my heart and telling it I want to do and I will learn to make my heart wide open and purer.

Theory is there but how to make it practical??Doing things without proper ways may cause reverse effects.
Methods: be contented, be grateful,  be understanding and be tolerant  (知足感恩善解包容), Tzu chi four-spirit drinking. Same thing, not easy.

This is answer and I know it is not easy. But, I want to learn:)Thanks for everything!!!!

"The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost." -G.K. Chesterton

Hmm..

该以什么态度去包容接受现实中的无奈与不平的同时保有至纯至善的心念与理想？我想这是我在踏进社会前所存有的疑惑，因为不想被同化。
How do I accept this realistic world which full of many unreasonable injustice and helpless norm but to hold tight my purest intention and dream with an open heart along the pathway of my life? This is my biggest confusion before knowing this whole new world as I don't want to be assimilated.

Touched

After 428, I was sad to see the violence happened.
I was sad to see unarmed people were suppressed .
I was sad to know people lost life or get severe injuries.
I was lucky to be able to go and show my supports.
I was lucky I was aware of the state of our country.
I was lucky I was born in this land.

The most I was touched to see MALAYSIAN united to fight for a better future from all the corners of the world. .
We are citizen of a country. Politic is something inevitable in lives.
We should take responsibility as a citizen. Choose right man to lead us.
Only a good government can change the whole life of a country.
Good government brings harmony to society which indirectly helping to form a PEACE WORLD if every country leaders are able to be good.

WORLD PEACE:)
United we stand,divided we fall.

随感而发

接下来，是申请奖学金的阶段了。看见大学发给我的email,没有很兴奋，因为完全被无法相信的感觉掩盖，发愣一下。那天面试后的我，心情异常轻松，因为“以后要做什么”的这个问题，一个打从一进大学就住在自己脑里的问题，飞逝而去。不是因为面试后的我知道要做什么了，而是觉得我了解自己更多了，即便申请不成功，似乎也不会彷徨了（这个要感谢interview我的三个教授，他们不但和我分享了他们自己，也从中打开我的思绪）。

在马来西亚，一般的父母不会去真正了解孩子要什么，也不会教导孩子如何去了解自己想要什么，不过会给孩子自己认为最好的给他们。所以，希望孩子成绩名列前茅，然后有个稳定的工作，找个好伴侣，过个幸福人生。然而，这个成家立业的过程里，从头到尾，孩子都需要懂自己要什么。没有目的的追求卓越，做份人云亦云的工作，会有个稳定的人生，但未必会有个想要的人生。
其实，我只是想讲只要要做的事不是伤天害理的，都值得支持，如果带有一份助人的心，那更值得骄傲。

之前听过有人说读STPM很浪费时间，不然就是很难，再来就是没有保障（不保证拿到要的科系），太危险了。通常是家境中等，拿不到matrik,才会读的先修班。我自己不觉得STPM浪费时间即使它不能保证我能拿到要的科系。当初的自己出自于挑战的心态去报读STPM，再来是要测试自己的实力毕竟觉得SPM测不出什么。到拿不到4.0的成绩而痛哭（不是因为成绩哭，而是因为知道进不了医科而哭）。值得吗？（值得，因为中六的生活令我学习不少.）起码在不断被成绩打击的两年里，stpm教导我要继续坚持，人要谦虚一点，努力一点。酸甜苦辣尝不尽 。
伤心的过程里，哥哥和我说，如果人一帆风顺，没跌倒过，那以后要和孩子讲什么故事？
桃姐里也有说，经过苦难的人，才会了解怎么去安抚受伤的人。即便苦的过程很苦,但那却值得回忆。

申请成功，如果奖学金顺利的话，证明我还需多读4年，那时也已28。连续读书读到28，值得吗？如果这是自己想要的，那是值得的。即便无法预知未来，但至少可以把握现在做想做的。人生是可以很多选择的，最重要的是，每一个阶段都要知道自己想要什么。

没有东西是属于值不值得，浪不浪费 ，每个人对于生命的价值观都不同。尊重所有坚持自己选择的人。不是所有人都能坚持。

感恩一切的安排，是好是坏，都有它的理由.感恩：）

以“一公升的眼泪”的一小段来总结这一篇：
重点在前面一小段~~~

人生，绕个路不也很好吗？

Hopes

Reading the reviews of The 100 Most Influential People in the World 2012 by TIME, hopes are just surging into my mind. One of the things I realize is the Power of Love especially in women. There is no gender discrimination but most of the social workers or humanity activist are amazing women. Patch Adams once explain the way to show love to others by just doing what our mother done to us. Some of them stand up to voice out their confrontation of injustice for women, some involve in HIV prevention course. Of course, there are also kind men. In conclusion, what make those who devote themselves in helping the less fortunate amazing is their GREAT LOVE regardless of the races, countries and religion.

Hopes come when I knew that WOW there are a lot of people out there who are trying to make the world better!!Though in my surrounding culture money and steady lives are given the priority over what you really want to do in lives. The full list the 100 people covers people who are politician,chef,educator,film maker,sportmans,spotlight celebrities,professors,singer,artist>>all minds are needed in this world.

 I don't have interest in politics so I just glance through all those politician's review. I like most who involve in any activities which benefits the destitute,less fortunate,or bringing love to those in need. Besides, I like also the artist who bring profound messages on their products like the film maker of " Saving face" and "A separation". What decides the level of an art works? Its message. All those sport mans who showing unrelenting determination are also amazing.

Kernel of the message I get>>There are actually many things we can be involved in to make a life we want. Just do what we like and make it glitters!!!!!!!(Be determined and resolved)

 We are not the worst no matters how worst the situation is.

Thanks!!I am looking forward the full list in 2013.It seems like a list of reference..HAHAHAHA

 HOPES come!!!!!!!!!!!!

Freestyle Interview

This is an unexpected interview. The interviewers do not ask the harsh questions but I really can feel their intents of wanting to know more about me. They even show their willingness to share anything. I mean ANYTHING not only in the compound of academic questions. I just speak out what in my mind while they ask about my thinking. Instead of saying it is an interview it should be called a conversation with 3 professors.

30 minutes are allocated for each professor to interview me. They are great.

The first Professor is Dr Anne who is an expert in the field of infectious disease.
The most impressive question to be asked from her is "What is the hardest challenge u think is until now?" This question touches me instantly. My answer is" to hold tight on the things we originally want to/dream of". This is the hardest,it needs determination,I think. I asked her back the same question however she tells me how her life is. She said Life is a choice as we need to vote constantly and we are having non-stop self questioning. "What's the difference between Malaysia students n US students?" She smiles. Malaysia students are more polite and quite compared to US students. US students are fun and are very opinioning. They would like to ask a lot of questions.They are going classes with the thinking of knowing all the answers.This is the culture. They like to ask since very young. I think this the one we should learn.It is good especially on a lecture.Interaction. May be we are just a little bit of conservative. However, being polite and showing respect to the teachers are also what we've told to do since very young.It's nice to remain.

2nd is Dr Nicole who is a paediatrician in intensive care. She asked me more common question like what do I think?What types of curriculum u've been doing?But, before we start our conversation she greets me by introducing herself." Before I know you better let me talk about myself to let u know more about me". Just how open they are~~

Third is DR Juliah. She wants to know more about my perspective on matters than the previous two. She tells me the importance of attitude. It can change everything. Be fair to yourself and know what you want in your life can lead you in the future, she shares~~

Three of them are very generous to share and there is no distant feeling with them. They encourage student to ask more and they would like to be friend with students rather than teachers.

Knowing what u want is most important!!! (What I learn in today's interview~~)
Things do not always go as planned. Live in the moment with good intentions:)

温馨的书

《佐贺的超级阿嬷》是个温馨的读物。在物资贫乏的年代与生活环境里，作者讲述了他与阿嬷的故事。
因为没钱，用乐观来驱走饥饿，用智慧来面对生活，用真心来编制故事。
乡下的生活，阿嬷的乐观态度是这本书最吸引人的地方。
读完过后，感觉真的很温馨，谢谢作者分享他的童年故事，告诉了我幸福简单的道理。

里面有几句阿嬷教作者昭广的生活小语，简单得意义深远~~

真正的体贴是让人察觉不到的。
（曾经对于自己阿嬷每每一煮完饭的“阿蕾吃饭咯”例为平常事，直到成长让我明白那是一种表达，有多少体贴是自己没有察觉过的呢？）

即使世上有两三个人讨厌你，转过身来还有几亿人。
（有时要把自己从框框拉出来，心自然就会变宽）

最想吃的东西就是高级品。
（所以说山珍海味怎样也抵挡不了家里的粗茶淡饭）

穷人最能做的就是展现笑容。
（乐观的想法就能改善生活的质量）

不要难过，不然走不了。
（作者的小舅舅，小新智商比较弱，大约30岁就去世了，那时阿嬷就是这样告诉作者。活着的人更要坚强。）

我有个快乐温馨的假期，感恩上天：）

令人感动的书

这本书《陪你到最后》每看完一个故事，内心就感动一次。
句句经典好看。
听过有人说，一本好看的文学作品是有两种元素，知性与感性。
获得知识的同时既触动心灵。
陪你到最后，作者叙述了几个末期患者的故事，陪伴的过程。
离去的人不一定最惨，留在世间要坚强活着的更令人佩服。
那些因为父母早逝的孩子，他们在不该在他们阶段应有却被逼拥有的成熟，既让人心痛又佩服。

每个人都是一本精彩的书，往往真像都是在故事背后，看完了故事，才能了解书名的由来，书皮的设计。
作者有一句形容和爱滋病的距离，让我不得不佩服他的文笔。
“握着小康的手时，我与爱滋病毒也只隔一层皮肤的厚度而已”。没有奢华的形容，简单易懂，既无比贴切。（在想，整天与细菌生活的我，和细菌也只隔着一层手套的厚度而已~~~哈哈哈！！！）

作者另一作品《已亮的天空》，一本作者分享自己成长故事的书，蛮激励的，他的两本书我要拿给做老师的姐姐看，也许，下次，她可以拿给她学生看。

最后，在面对生命结束的那一刻，自己会想做什么为总结呢？死亡，很远又好像不知道几时来到。要做到以欢喜不害怕的心境来面对死亡，没那么容易。

作者选择用微笑，我还真不知道。
活在当下吧！！！

5 people in the book

I gobble up this book by sitting on my bed whole night. I read it twice. First time I'm just simply flipping through. What it attracts me is only the title“The 5 People you meet in heaven". How the author Mitch Albom to write something about heaven? How's will he describe the 5 people? What's the message he wants to reflect?

The leading role is Eddie, an old lonely octogenarian who worked as a maintainer in an amusement park called Ruby Pier.This is a back-to-front story. It starts with Eddie's death. It is not a thrilling story,it's a literary fiction, self-enrichment book. Nice to read at least it is positive and giving me tranquility. I feel imperturbed while living in the book. No disturbs. No honking on the road. No mumbling from the crowd. One of my way to escape from this bustling and flickering city.

There are some lessons throughout the story.

From the 2nd person:Sacrifice is a part of life.Sometimes when u sacrifice something precious, u are nt really losing it. U are just passing it on to someone else.
(Hmm..I agree with that. Sometimes, we gain because there are people willing to sacrifice. No pain, no gain.)

From the 3rd person: Holding anger is a poison. (It's most poisonous to ourselves but nothing to the others.)

In the end: We each affect the other and the other affects the next, and the world is full of stories, but the stories are all one. (I like this most. We are all interconnected even with strangers.)

One story brings another one.:)

关于这部电影

桃姐，一部非常平淡的电影，在我预料之内的剧情片，很写实。
去到戏院买票观看，纯粹只是想要支持这种有意义的电影，纵使它没有刺激视觉与情绪的效果。
戏剧浓缩了人生的故事，而真实是平淡中带点酸甜苦辣。
这部戏并没有想要赚人热泪，而是透过荧幕反映现实中的社会，从写实的剧情里，去反思社会的现象，老人的问题，现代的情景，更带出了人与人之间的真诚。
好好珍惜身边为我们付出的家人朋友。
没有人应该活得像做孤岛（冯以量，陪你到最后）。
老人也需要被爱。

刘德华说，每一位老人都曾经像我们这样年轻过；但是，年轻的我们不一定能像他们这样年老过。

叶德娴太厉害演戏了！！姜还是老的辣！！没错！！！：）

Half of the half

A full marathon is about 42.+km. Half of it is appx 21.+km. My first marathon in KL is half of the half>10km.According to wikipedia, Marathon is a place in Greek. A guy running from marathon to Athens until die juz wanting to inform the victory in a battlefield of Marathon.Legend.

During the whole running process, I felt the breath of myself and others and also I listened to the footsteps.

It strengthen our determination. The good sides of it no need to be mentioned much as everyone aware of that.

Summary of my fresh try in jogging together with thousands in this hustle and bustle KL:

Starting point:A life born.
Finish point:Heaven where everyone will go.
Different distance: Different lifespan.
Marathon:Everyone is running in the life with different purposes by different ways to achieve.

Purposes:
Train stamina.
Reaching finishing point in a fixed time.
Strengthen own self resolution and perseverance.
Just want to finish the run no matter how long the time takes.
For fun.
Trying new thing

Different ways to complete:
Some will focus on running disregard others. Running step by step.
Some will follow others' pace as a target.
Some will just walking ,observing the surrounding and people around.
Some will listen to the music as a way of encouragement.
Some accompany own children to run.
Some were non-stop running without a single rest.

There were a lot of volunteers who gave us water,foods, encouragement and guided us the running route which I think just like the people who guide us,lending a helping hand to us in life.

There are something we cannot just left in the car and went running ie.car keys, handphone and wallet.Mostly all the participants run with all these things though these may be a little burden but they are very important. Then, I think these are money,family and friends. We must run with them in life because they are indispensable.

I run with the purpose of fun and trying new thing. The strategy I take is non-stop running. I like to listen the running footsteps of people and their pants.

We are juz running a marathon of life..
Thanks for everything!!

A day to remember

10th March 2012
One design with different effects









Idea: We are earthian regardless of the religion, color, country to just pick up trash to make our home clean. We are under a vast blue sky.

Thesis Blue+A diary

Having a new finding. Is it possible my bacteria stealthily changes to other?Then make my vancomycin doesn't work?I may try next week again to make my media selective. What if the result remains the same?Vancomycin..what's possible things will happen to an unexpired antibiotic?Can it lose its antibacterial function?How come?Trying seems the only way out.

ok,during my waiting moment in my lab I eat a book entitled"The dairy of a young girl". It's really a dairy. Anne(The young girl)wrote every inside of her in her dairy. She was a Jew who forced to hide in "Secret Annex" to escape from the Nazi's caught.



Hmm,it is a telling about how a girl grew drastically within 2 years. Her thought, isolation, fears, happiness and what happened in her times were all recorded. How's the life in a confined space without stepping a single step outside?How's to tolerate with someone we dislike everyday with no choice?Here, Anne voiced out her pent-up emotion. She also mentioned her first love with a guy called Peter. How a girl's love blossoms?Anne wrote it down.Her conflict with her father,mother,sister,or everyone around made her mature. Self-reflection was one of the things she liked to do.Unfortunately, her father is the only one who survived in the Jewish slaughter by Nazi.

I was a little bored when reaching half of her diary as the life surrounded her was only the same. I am sure she would feel more tedious than I am. Thanks to the book, I seem to be more understanding about what happens in Europe around 1920's to 1945's and also what really Nazi is. We are having a same home which called The Earth.Learn from the history.

Quote learnt from the book: Nature brings solace in all troubles. (Very true, but it is what KL lacks of)

I hope I may find out the origin of my lab problem. Think!Think!THINK out of the box!!

Patience

I have not failed,I've just found 10000 ways that didn't work.(Thomas Edison)

Patience means staying with something until the end. The answers always didnt come immediately. Same thing happens because I hvnt learnt it.What's the problem to my vancomycin?I really want to know. Today is the 7th repetition and I can 95% sure that the origin of the problem is my vancomycin. However, I cannot figure out what causes this problem. Not expired, sterile apparatus,clean distilled water. It should be sterile after filtering the vancomycin. Just where it get contaminated??

What I can think is just using different source of vancomycin. I tried the new one today. Hoping an improved result for tomorrow.

I think the thing I hvnt learnt is being PATIENT.

Oh ya,today I learn a very good quote from youtube:Never let a problem to be solved becomes more important than a person to be loved.Pay attention to what matters most.

I really need some motivation.Come on,I just found 7 ways that didnt work. How patient Thomas Edison was,he found 10000 ways that didnt work.Far far more behind him.
Don't give up!!!The God wants me to learn something>>>>Patience!!!

Earth hour

I thought Earth hour 2012 will be held on 12th March before. So, sudden inspiration comes to me and I drew one pic to help to publicize this green event.I realized I remembered a wrong date for the event after posting my pic. Without any delay, quick deletion, fast correction n post it again.

Thanks God,I didn't spread a wrong date for that event.
Some people think that it is a worthless activity as it would be better if there will be an earth hour everyday rather than once a year. Yeap, it would be excellent if we manage to do it. However, people around the world gather with good intention to do such a great thing to the earth at least a day in a year is not bad, I think. It's better than never.

I think it would be greatest if we juz have a confab with friends or together with family in darkness rather than "celebrating" it with candles or with whatever events. Reduce the energy consumption, that's the kernel of the event.

My so-so green drawing~~





I cannot do everything but still I can do something. So, I will not refuse to do something that I can do. (Helen Keller)